I Guess I'll Die

After I landed in the hospital—again—from working myself into the ground, Jacob swore he was done playing house stockbroker. "Starting tomorrow, I'll do anything. Haul bricks, deliver pizza, whatever. I'm not letting you carry this alone." His eyes were glassy as he stormed out of the exam room like he was about to save the day or something. Then the doctor walked in and handed me a report. I was pregnant. Again. Heart racing, I chased after Jacob... and froze. He was standing outside some super VIP room. The same guys who used to bang on our door for money were suddenly all respectful. "Mr. Klein, should we block her door again tomorrow?" Jacob twirled our engagement ring around his finger. "No need. She already lost one baby paying off those debts. The test's over. Time she knew who I really am." Then my best friend—Lillian Morvain—strolled out and wrapped her arms around his waist like she belonged there. "Jacob, don't go soft. Your tests usually last at least five years. What if she's just another gold digger? Plus... I'd miss you." He hesitated. Smirked. "Fine. We'll do it your way. She's not going anywhere anyway." I stood there, clutching my stomach, sliding down the wall like the air had been punched out of me. Later, I pushed open the office door. "Dr. Spencer, I need a termination. Three days from now."

I came back to life the day Cedric Gramont got drugged. This time? I didn't offer my body to him. I called his so-called soulmate instead. In my last life, I stupidly fell for the uncle who wasn't blood-related. When I found out he'd been hit with something strong, I ignored his plea to call Elyna Humbert—and "helped" him myself. A month later, I was pregnant. He had to marry me. On our wedding day, Elyna, who'd gone abroad to "clear her head," got kidnapped and killed. Before she died, she called Cedric 199 times, begging for help. He didn't pick up once. Too busy sealing the deal with me. Later, he just stared at those missed calls, not saying a word. Then the day I went into labor, he locked me in the basement. I begged him to take me to the hospital. He just smiled, cold and empty, and watched me die screaming, the baby still inside me. Last thing I heard? "If you hadn't gotten pregnant, I wouldn't have married you. I wouldn't have missed Elyna's calls. You deserved to die." When I opened my eyes again, it was that same day—Cedric was drugged, but this time, I knew better.

Albert Roosevelt was the crush I was never meant to have. Like an idiot, I believed loving someone meant giving them everything, even if they didn't care about you. So, I trailed after him like a desperate puppy, bending over backward to meet his every whim. When he couldn't afford tuition, I begged Dad to fund him, sending him to the best schools. When his worn-out clothes made him a laughingstock, I pitied him and showered him with designer labels. And what did he do? He used what I gave him to chase after a gold-digging campus belle. To keep up appearances, he blew through money like it grew on trees. He even spread rumors that he was the real heir to the Roosevelts. To him, I was just an ATM. "Your family's loaded. It's not like you'll miss a few hundred grand. If you're gonna be stingy, maybe you should stop following me around," he said when his wallet ran dry. And like a fool, I believed that if I kept paying, someday, he'd love me back. After graduation, I funded his startup. The second it took off, he married the campus belle. He had the nerve to claim he earned everything through nothing but hard work. So, I crashed his wedding, and he buried a knife in my chest. "Only when you're dead, Eve Roosevelt. Only then will my pathetic past stay buried." When I opened my eyes again, I was face-to-face with a scowling Albert. "You can't scrape together a few hundred thousand dollars? It's Bianca's birthday. Are you trying to humiliate me?" I looked around the room and rolled my eyes. "Sure, I'll pay. But first? Kneel. You look pretty enough. Consider it charity, peasant."

During a kindergarten parent-teacher conference, a rich wife accuses me of stealing her bag. I'm baffled. I bought the bag myself abroad, and it even has my name etched on it. However, when I scrutinize the bag, I discover that my name is missing. I call my husband, and he impatiently says, "I gave your bag to Jen. She's fresh out of college and needs an expensive bag to make herself look good. Even Finn said the bag is too young for you—it suits Jen more. You're too old for these things. You should be glad to even have a fake one." I bark out an exasperated laugh. I can go without having a husband, but the bag has to be returned to me.

Mein Verlobter Dante De Rossi war der Erbe einer New Yorker Mafiafamilie. Er liebte mich leidenschaftlich, doch einen Monat vor unserer Hochzeit erklärte er, auf Drängen seiner Familie müsse er mit seiner Jugendfreundin – Isobel De Luca, ein Kind zeugen. Ich lehnte ab, doch er kam täglich darauf zurück und setzte mich immer stärker unter Druck. Dann, zwei Wochen vor der Hochzeit, erhielt ich einen Schwangerschaftstest von der Klinik. Erst da wurde mir klar: Sie war schon seit fast einem Monat schwanger. Er hatte nie vor, mich um Einverständnis zu bitten. In diesem Moment begriff ich: Unsere jahrelange Beziehung war zerbrechlich wie Glas. Ich sagte die Hochzeit ab und verbrannte alle Geschenke, die er mir je gemacht hatte. Am Tag der geplanten Hochzeit reiste ich entschlossen nach Italien, um mein Aufbaustudium in klinischer Medizin zu beginnen und offiziell einen Einsatz bei Ärzte ohne Grenzen zu übernehmen. Damit durchtrennte ich alle Verbindungen zur Mafiafamilie. Von da an waren er und ich – für immer Vergangenheit!

Mein Freund Tom versprach mir, an meinem 20. Geburtstag eine prächtige Paarungszeremonie für mich auszurichten. Doch auf meiner Geburtstagsfeier machte Tom stattdessen Lily, meiner Stiefschwester, feierlich einen Antrag zur Gefährtenbindung. Während alle jubelten und gratulierten, stand ich da wie eine Närrin. Allein gelassen, voller Verzweiflung. Der Schmerz der Zurückweisung überwältigte mich. Da trat Sam vor, der Alpha-Erbe des Obsidian-Stammes, und verkündete allen, er habe sich schon lange in mich verguckt und wolle mich als Gefährtin erwählen. Ob ich einwillige? Ich willigte ein. Fünf Jahre lang verwöhnte er mich, behandelte mich zärtlich und prägte sich jede meiner Vorlieben ein. Doch dann hörte ich zufällig ein Gespräch zwischen ihm und seinem Beta. Mein Glückstraum zerbrach. „Sam, Lily ist jetzt die Luna des Weißrosen-Rudels, genau wie sie es wollte. Willst du diese Scharade mit Any wirklich fortsetzen?“ „Da ich Lily nicht haben kann, ist es mir egal, wer an meiner Seite ist. Zudem verhindere ich so, dass Any Lilys Glück zerstören kann.“ In Sams Tresor im Arbeitszimmer hütete er alle Geschenke von Lily wie Kostbarkeiten: handgefertigte Wolfszahn-Anhänger, Briefpapier mit ihrem Pfotenabdruck. Sogar auf seiner wertvollen Goldschuppen-Rüstung war jede Schuppe mit Lilys Namen graviert. „Lily, meine große Liebe. Meine Klauen werden für dich jeden Dorn zerreißen und dir das Glück erkämpfen, das du dir wünschst.“ „Wenn du mich brauchst, gebe ich dir gern mein schlagendes Wolfsherz aus meiner Brust!“ „Selbst wenn ich es rauben muss – ich hole dir alles, was du willst!“ Fünf Jahre Glück waren nur eine Illusion. Als ich die Wahrheit erfuhr, löste sich alles in Luft auf. Ich stellte den Antrag, das Rudel zu verlassen. In zwei Tagen würde ich aus Sams Welt verschwinden, für immer, ohne dass sich unsere Wege jemals wieder kreuzen würden.

My mother is gravely ill and needs a million dollars for surgery. I run all over the city, desperately trying to borrow the money. Just when I'm at my breaking point, my childhood friend shows up, holding a check for one million dollars. His condition? He wants to marry me. Everyone's waiting for me to say yes, but I calmly refuse. Because in my last life, even after I married him, my mother still died. Her surgery failed. Later, I accidentally overhear a conversation between him and a doctor. "Christopher, you sabotaged the surgery just to transplant Alice's mom's kidney into Jennifer? Was it worth it? If Alice finds out, you’re done." "I just want Jennifer to live. And honestly, marrying someone like Alice? My life is already over." That's when I realize our entire marriage was nothing but a carefully woven lie. He did it all for the woman he truly loved.

He is the unchallenged Alpha of the Shadow pack. He crushes my hand, lets his true love drive me to the brink, and forces me to lick wolfsbane from my wounds in the punishment chamber, turning me into the pack's laughingstock. I am the Lunar pack's pawn in a political bonding. After enduring three years of humiliation and clutching enemy intelligence, I overturn his throne during the Moon Ceremony, making him watch helplessly as his beloved betrays him and his pack descends into chaos. Later, he backs down. He abdicates as Alpha and gets down on his knees at the pack's border every day, his voice hoarse from shouting, "I was wrong." I hold a blood-stained dagger, my gaze icy as I say, "Your regret is deadlier than wolfsbane and worth even less than my life." Our bonding is a calculated trap, and revenge is the move I am determined to play. Winning him back no longer matters. This time, I am not turning back. I want nothing but his endless remorse and the chance to break my chains and begin a new life.

In my previous life, my husband, Lucien Walker, tells me he wants to take care of his widowed sister-in-law, Lina Morgan, and take her as his second wife. After I refuse, Lina throws herself off a cliff while pregnant, killing both herself and the pups. As the Wolf King, Lucien chains me on a clifftop and lets vultures tear at my flesh day after day. He gouges out my eyes and snarls, "You lied about your fertility to trick me, then drove Lina and her unborn pups to their deaths! This is your punishment!" My son, Pierce Walker, whom I pour my life into raising, stabs me 9,999 times. "If Lina were my mother, I would be strong. This is all your fault!" They never know that without my gift for bearing children, Lucien has no heir at all. When I open my eyes again, I'm back on the day Lucien proposes taking Lina as his second wife.

Im neunten Monat, kurz vor der Entbindung, war mein Körper schwer von dem Baby, das jeden Tag kommen konnte. Doch mein Ehemann Vito Falcone, Underboss der Familie, hatte mich weggesperrt. In einem sterilen, unterirdischen Krankenzimmer injizierte er mir einen Wehenhemmer. Als ich vor Schmerzen schrie, befahl er kalt, ich solle es ertragen. Seine Schwägerin Scarlett würde nämlich gleichzeitig gebären. Ein Blutschwur mit seinem verstorbenen Bruder bestimmte, dass der erstgeborene Sohn das lukrative Westküsten-Territorium der Familie erben sollte. „Dieses Erbe gehört Scarletts Kind“, sagte er. „Nach Daemons Tod ist sie allein und mittellos. Du hast meine Liebe, Alessia, ganz und gar. Ich muss nur sicherstellen, dass sie sicher entbindet. Danach bist du dran.“ Die Medikamente waren eine ständige Folter. Ich flehte ihn an, mich ins Krankenhaus zu bringen. Da packte er mich am Hals und zwang mich, seinem eisigen Blick zu begegnen. „Genug mit dem Theater! Mir ist klar, dass es dir gut geht. Du willst nur das Erbe stehlen. Um Scarlett auszustechen, greifst du zu allem.“ Mein Gesicht erbleichte. Mein Körper verkrampfte sich, als ich verzweifelt flüsterte: „Das Baby kommt ... Das Erbe ist mir egal. Ich liebe dich, ich will nur, dass unser Kind sicher zur Welt kommt!“ Er lächelte höhnisch. „Wärest du wirklich so unschuldig und würdest du mich auch nur ein wenig lieben, hättest du Scarlett nie gezwungen, den Ehevertrag zu unterschreiben, der ihrem Kind das Erbrecht nimmt. Keine Sorge, ich komme zurück, sobald sie entbunden hat. Du trägst schließlich mein Fleisch und Blut.“ Die ganze Nacht wachte er vor Scarletts Kreißsaal. Erst beim Anblick des Neugeborenen in ihren Armen erinnerte er sich an mich. Er schickte Marco, seinen zweiten Mann, um mich freizulassen. Doch als Marco endlich anrief, zitterte seine Stimme. „Boss ... die Signora und das Baby... sie sind weg.“ In diesem Moment zerbrach Vito Falcone.