I Guess I'll Die

Marshall Locke, the assistant working for my wife, Amelia Stone, leaves out three zeroes on a contract. It leads to ten million dollars in losses for the company. The factory that has collaborated with us on the project goes bankrupt, and its owner jumps off a building as a result of the situation. All Marshall does is shed a few tears, and Amelia immediately pins all the blame on me. She claims I single-handedly managed the entire project. I get sued in court, which leaves me ten million dollars in debt. When the deceased's family posts about me online, the entire internet curses me out, saying that I should die too. My entire industry blacklists me. The career I've painstakingly built up for myself is destroyed just like that. But when I confront Amelia about this, she simply looks at her freshly manicured nails and says airily, "Marshall is young and inexperienced. You've been in the business for so many years now. It's not like this has caused any damage to you." Recalling the way she and Marshall had been wrapped up in a passionate kiss before I came in, I pull out the divorce agreement I prepared in advance and toss it at her. "Sign it."

Am Tag meiner eigenen Hochzeit war ich nicht die Braut. Die Zeremonie, auf die ich fünf Jahre lang gewartet hatte, wurde zur Farce, als Valentina, meine Schwester, den Marmorgang entlangschritt. Sie trug ein weißes Brautkleid. Ihren Arm hatte sie bei Luca eingehakt, dem Mann, der eigentlich am Altar auf mich hätte warten sollen. „Es tut mir leid, Bianca“, sagte sie leise. „Aber heute bist du nicht mehr die Braut.“ Dann legte sie eine Hand auf ihren Bauch, die Augen voller triumphierender Genugtuung. „Ich bin schwanger. Mit dem Kind von Don Romano.“ Ihre Worte explodierten in meinem Kopf. Die Welt um mich herum verstummte. Als hätte sie Angst, ich würde ihr nicht glauben, hob sie etwas Glänzendes ins Licht. Ein schwarz-weißes Ultraschallbild. Darauf war klar zu erkennen: Schwangerschaftsalter – 12 Wochen. Meine Augen brannten vor Tränen, als ich mich zu Luca umdrehte und verzweifelt nach irgendetwas suchte. Nach einem Widerspruch. Einer Erklärung. Reue. Doch er seufzte nur, müde und ergeben. „Bianca, es tut mir leid“, sagte er hilflos. „Valentina hat nicht mehr viel Zeit. Diese Hochzeit… sie ist ihr letzter Wunsch.“ „Ich mache es wieder gut“, fügte er hinzu. „Wir können später eine andere Hochzeit haben.“ Hinter ihm stand mein Vater Moretti. Mit demselben strengen Blick, den er mein ganzes Leben lang getragen hatte. Ich hatte ihn nie für mich lächeln sehen. Nicht ein einziges Mal. „Bianca“, sagte er scharf, „deine Schwester stirbt. Lass ihr das.“ Mein Bruder nickte nur wortlos, als wäre das Antwort genug. Mein ganzes Leben lang hatten sie sich für sie entschieden. Für ihre Tränen, ihre Launen, ihre Bedürfnisse. Nie für meine. Heute war es nicht anders. Etwas in mir zerbrach lautlos. Gut. Wenn sich in dieser Familie niemand um mich schert, dann gehe ich.

My mother is gravely ill and needs a million dollars for surgery. I run all over the city, desperately trying to borrow the money. Just when I'm at my breaking point, my childhood friend shows up, holding a check for one million dollars. His condition? He wants to marry me. Everyone's waiting for me to say yes, but I calmly refuse. Because in my last life, even after I married him, my mother still died. Her surgery failed. Later, I accidentally overhear a conversation between him and a doctor. "Christopher, you sabotaged the surgery just to transplant Alice's mom's kidney into Jennifer? Was it worth it? If Alice finds out, you’re done." "I just want Jennifer to live. And honestly, marrying someone like Alice? My life is already over." That's when I realize our entire marriage was nothing but a carefully woven lie. He did it all for the woman he truly loved.

He is the unchallenged Alpha of the Shadow pack. He crushes my hand, lets his true love drive me to the brink, and forces me to lick wolfsbane from my wounds in the punishment chamber, turning me into the pack's laughingstock. I am the Lunar pack's pawn in a political bonding. After enduring three years of humiliation and clutching enemy intelligence, I overturn his throne during the Moon Ceremony, making him watch helplessly as his beloved betrays him and his pack descends into chaos. Later, he backs down. He abdicates as Alpha and gets down on his knees at the pack's border every day, his voice hoarse from shouting, "I was wrong." I hold a blood-stained dagger, my gaze icy as I say, "Your regret is deadlier than wolfsbane and worth even less than my life." Our bonding is a calculated trap, and revenge is the move I am determined to play. Winning him back no longer matters. This time, I am not turning back. I want nothing but his endless remorse and the chance to break my chains and begin a new life.

In my previous life, my husband, Lucien Walker, tells me he wants to take care of his widowed sister-in-law, Lina Morgan, and take her as his second wife. After I refuse, Lina throws herself off a cliff while pregnant, killing both herself and the pups. As the Wolf King, Lucien chains me on a clifftop and lets vultures tear at my flesh day after day. He gouges out my eyes and snarls, "You lied about your fertility to trick me, then drove Lina and her unborn pups to their deaths! This is your punishment!" My son, Pierce Walker, whom I pour my life into raising, stabs me 9,999 times. "If Lina were my mother, I would be strong. This is all your fault!" They never know that without my gift for bearing children, Lucien has no heir at all. When I open my eyes again, I'm back on the day Lucien proposes taking Lina as his second wife.

After working for five years, I finally get to purchase my favorite penthouse in Rainville. Tessa Boston, my younger cousin who has just graduated from high school, tells me she wants to stay with me during her summer break. I want to reject her at first, but my mom claims that we're all relatives here, and that I shouldn't act all high and mighty just because I'm richer now. So, everyone drops Tessa off on my doorstep without even consulting me. But after Tessa starts living with me, she frequently sings loudly and makes a lot of noise in the middle of the night. I can't get a good night's sleep because of her. After that, she even invites her old high school classmates over to the penthouse and throws a party there. Tessa tells her classmates that this is the smallest residence she owns. Apparently, this is a gift she has received to celebrate her 18th birthday. Everyone is envious of her and calls her an actual heiress of a wealthy family. But these punks completely mess up my penthouse. My neighbors begin lodging noise complaints against me. Unable to take it anymore, I warn the youngsters to keep their voices down. But Tessa thinks I've humiliated her, so she begins harboring a grudge against me. When I'm watering my flowers on the balcony, she uses that opportunity to lock me outside. It's an insanely hot day. I'm stuck on the balcony from morning till night. By then, I've already died from the heat. When I wake up again, I've returned to the day Tessa tells me she wants to stay with me.

When the half-mile sprint test is about to begin, Quiana Sullivan, the class president, and I have applied to be exempted from it. My own mother, who's the homeroom teacher of my class, approves Quiana's application with a smile. But she then throws mine to the floor. "You're having a chest pain, you say? I can't believe you're able to come up with such lies just to avoid the half-mile sprint! I'd have known if you had a heart condition! "Quiana is weak by nature, not to mention she's on her period right now, so she can't handle the agony. What about you, hmm? You've always been perfectly healthy, yet now you're telling me that you're suffering from heart pain? "Don't go around embarrassing me just because you want to slack off! I don't want others claiming that I'm being biased toward my own child! As long as you're still alive and kicking, you must finish the half-mile course no matter what!" Left without a choice, I can only return to the field. The cold wind makes me feel even dizzier now. My heart keeps contracting uncontrollably against my will. Suddenly, it just stops pumping. The next thing I know, I collapse onto the grassy field heavily. When my consciousness is about to flicker to darkness, my mom finally walks over to me. But she merely kicks my arm with a frown on her face, and her tone remains glacial. "Stop playing dead. Get up right now." She doesn't realize that I can never open my eyes ever again. Isn't this great, Mom? No one will ever claim that you're biased toward your own child. I've used my life to prove how fair and just you are. You must be happy now, right?

Mein Verlobter Dante De Rossi war der Erbe einer New Yorker Mafiafamilie. Er liebte mich leidenschaftlich, doch einen Monat vor unserer Hochzeit erklärte er, auf Drängen seiner Familie müsse er mit seiner Jugendfreundin – Isobel De Luca, ein Kind zeugen. Ich lehnte ab, doch er kam täglich darauf zurück und setzte mich immer stärker unter Druck. Dann, zwei Wochen vor der Hochzeit, erhielt ich einen Schwangerschaftstest von der Klinik. Erst da wurde mir klar: Sie war schon seit fast einem Monat schwanger. Er hatte nie vor, mich um Einverständnis zu bitten. In diesem Moment begriff ich: Unsere jahrelange Beziehung war zerbrechlich wie Glas. Ich sagte die Hochzeit ab und verbrannte alle Geschenke, die er mir je gemacht hatte. Am Tag der geplanten Hochzeit reiste ich entschlossen nach Italien, um mein Aufbaustudium in klinischer Medizin zu beginnen und offiziell einen Einsatz bei Ärzte ohne Grenzen zu übernehmen. Damit durchtrennte ich alle Verbindungen zur Mafiafamilie. Von da an waren er und ich – für immer Vergangenheit!

Cory Sullivan, my ten-year-old son, joins a swimming class organized by his school. A bunch of his fellow students end up pinning him to the drain of the swimming pool. I spot the streak of red in the water and completely lose my mind. I immediately dash over to save Cory, but by the time I do, his face has turned swollen and blue from the suction. Blood trickles from his mouth. He's no longer breathing. Andy Webster, the ringleader of the trio who hurt Cory, arrogantly declares that he won't be criminally prosecuted because he's a minor. "So what if I did it? He started getting on my nerves ages ago! Now that he's dead, no one else can compete with me to be the top in our class." Andy's father, Greg Thompson, condescendingly throws me a debit card. "There's 100 thousand dollars in there. That should be enough to make up for your son's worthless life." Outrage, I demand justice, but my wife, Sheryl Lowe, stops me. "Andy's just a kid himself. Are you going to force someone else's kid to lose his freedom just because your own son is dead?" I stop at nothing in the pursuit of justice, but Andy simply gets sent to a juvenile detention center. That's nowhere near enough for me. Eventually, I lose all hope. I lie down at Cory's grave and swallow a bottle of sleeping pills. Suddenly, my eyes open again. I've returned to the day I took Cory to the swimming pool. I immediately drag him off to take him back home before anything happens, but alas, a young boy still ends up losing his life at the pool.

Mein Freund Tom versprach mir, an meinem 20. Geburtstag eine prächtige Paarungszeremonie für mich auszurichten. Doch auf meiner Geburtstagsfeier machte Tom stattdessen Lily, meiner Stiefschwester, feierlich einen Antrag zur Gefährtenbindung. Während alle jubelten und gratulierten, stand ich da wie eine Närrin. Allein gelassen, voller Verzweiflung. Der Schmerz der Zurückweisung überwältigte mich. Da trat Sam vor, der Alpha-Erbe des Obsidian-Stammes, und verkündete allen, er habe sich schon lange in mich verguckt und wolle mich als Gefährtin erwählen. Ob ich einwillige? Ich willigte ein. Fünf Jahre lang verwöhnte er mich, behandelte mich zärtlich und prägte sich jede meiner Vorlieben ein. Doch dann hörte ich zufällig ein Gespräch zwischen ihm und seinem Beta. Mein Glückstraum zerbrach. „Sam, Lily ist jetzt die Luna des Weißrosen-Rudels, genau wie sie es wollte. Willst du diese Scharade mit Any wirklich fortsetzen?“ „Da ich Lily nicht haben kann, ist es mir egal, wer an meiner Seite ist. Zudem verhindere ich so, dass Any Lilys Glück zerstören kann.“ In Sams Tresor im Arbeitszimmer hütete er alle Geschenke von Lily wie Kostbarkeiten: handgefertigte Wolfszahn-Anhänger, Briefpapier mit ihrem Pfotenabdruck. Sogar auf seiner wertvollen Goldschuppen-Rüstung war jede Schuppe mit Lilys Namen graviert. „Lily, meine große Liebe. Meine Klauen werden für dich jeden Dorn zerreißen und dir das Glück erkämpfen, das du dir wünschst.“ „Wenn du mich brauchst, gebe ich dir gern mein schlagendes Wolfsherz aus meiner Brust!“ „Selbst wenn ich es rauben muss – ich hole dir alles, was du willst!“ Fünf Jahre Glück waren nur eine Illusion. Als ich die Wahrheit erfuhr, löste sich alles in Luft auf. Ich stellte den Antrag, das Rudel zu verlassen. In zwei Tagen würde ich aus Sams Welt verschwinden, für immer, ohne dass sich unsere Wege jemals wieder kreuzen würden.