I Love You So Much That It Hurts Meaning

The night I have my bonding ceremony with the Alpha, Walter Zimmer, he gets drunk even though he usually never touches any alcohol. Just as I'm at a loss for what to do, my best friend, Rose Larson, sends me a message detailing how to take care of a drunken werewolf. Despite feeling doubtful, I do as she suggests, and Walter truly does fall asleep peacefully. Just as I'm about to thank Rose, Walter suddenly hugs me from behind. His hot breath brushes against my neck as he murmurs a sentence that utterly breaks my heart. "Rose, you're the one I wanted to mark…" My world crumbles around me, but that's not all. His shirt slips down his shoulder when he moves, revealing the rose tattooed right over his heart. My mind goes blank, and all I can do is stare at the tattoo. I refuse to believe what I'm seeing. I've known Rose for 20 years, and she's my closest friend. As it turns out, Walter didn't get drunk because he was overjoyed about becoming my mate. He simply used the alcohol to drown his sorrows over not being able to take the she-wolf he wanted as his Luna. In that moment, our newly formed mate bond seems like nothing but a joke. Since that's the case, I decide to give up my position as the Luna and let them be together. However, after I leave, Walter loses control and shifts into his wolf. He then claws the rose tattoo to shreds. "Lily, I was mistaken. You're the Luna I truly love. Please, give me another chance to love you again…"

I am Loraine Windrug, the most eligible bachelorette on this continent, every man competes for exclusive rights to me, but I only date a handful of hotly singles with whom I share a secret friends-with-benefits relationship, satisfying my freaky side with wild, kinky sex. But I never trade my virginity. And then comes that inescapable moment when I fall hard on that one man who is far beyond my reach. Dordrich Fellogan; a billionaire media mogul, but sadly enough, married, with children. Yet I pursue him, had him deep inside me, but couldn't keep him. His love is not mine. After his wife catches us red-handed in the act, started an embarrassing scene that went viral on social media, I flee from his life. Five years later, when he's left a broken, bankrupt man, I return. I face him as a business partner. I own almost all the shares of his company. His wife abandoned him at the lowest point of his life, his future is now in my hands. I reinstate his media chain, drive him crazy with lust, but keep him out of my bed. When Elena wants him back, he's to decide between Elena and me. But I am true love, desirable, unforgettable and more. And the triumph card is with me…

BLURB ."Ever have that feeling nothing you ever do matters?" This is Lila Vitale's story, being overshadowed by her elder sister all her life no matter the efforts she puts in. Finally, she is put in the spotlight when her elder sister, Lily, abandons her husband because he went blind, and she ( Lila) has to be the replacement by pretending to be her. Lila is not happy about this at first but steps up to the challenge as she is finally seen and relied on by those she cares about. Lucien, a year later regains his eyesight due to surgery. Lila, hopeful to be set free by the truth, gets disappointed when her sister Lily miraculously appears to take back the place she abandoned and the man Lila had grown to love. To make matters worse, Lila realizes she was just a pawn being used all along and overhears death plots about her unborn child. As the betrayal deepens, Lila tries reaching out to Lucien who treats her like a pest, hurting and giving her no choice but to disappear. Not too long after, Lucien figures out the truth and seeks out for her but isn't he too late? Will Lila ever want to let him back into her life again, especially when she is hell-bent on revenge?

An earthquake struck suddenly during our honeymoon. I suggested that we flee immediately. My husband’s former lover mocked me for being cowardly and paranoid. So, my husband dismissed my fears. I had no choice but to continue sightseeing with them. A fractured steel frame crashed down with an earsplitting clang and smashed into his former lover. She clung to me desperately as the rebars drove into my ribs one by one. Before I could cry out, my husband kicked me down when he saw his former lover in danger. “You wretch! If you hadn’t suggested this honeymoon spot, Lena wouldn’t have gotten hurt! “You knew there’d be an earthquake today. You did this on purpose!” The rebars pierced deeper into my ribs and made every breath I took excruciatingly painful. My husband pushed me aside, lifted his former lover into his arms, and stormed off without glancing back. “Before the aftershock hits, I’m taking Lena to the hospital! Then, I’ll call for rescue. “Stay here and reflect on your actions. This is your punishment for scheming against Lena!” I waited all night. He did not know that the torrential rains of the monsoon season had flooded the area. What awaited him was the bloated corpse of a pregnant woman.

Gwen Summerbell was betrayed when she was falsely accused of having an affair by her husband and her half-sister, Winter. On that same day, her husband, Lucas Grayford, divorced her and cast her from their home. Five years later, Gwen returned as a powerful CEO, with by a beautiful daughter and harboring a secret. With success in her grasp and vengeance in her heart, she's poised to make those who wronged her pay. One step at a time.

Madeleine Lodrigo was abandoned by her father since sixteen so she was forced to work for a living. After her ex-boyfriend left her with a debt of 20 million, she is once again, forced to work just to pay the huge debt on his behalf. Pero nagbago ang lahat nang makilala niya ang isang Perez Salvatore. As a multi-billionaire with a severe case of haphephobia, Perez Salvatore finds it very devastating that he can’t even touch the woman he loves. When he met Madeliene Lodrigo, he was determined to make her stay and even made her his wife so that she can cure him. However, it was bound to be difficult when the tides turned to another direction and he was surged with new emotions. Nadag-dagan pa ‘to nang biglang bumalik ang first love niya, all of it went chaotic. A marriage that shouldn’t have been made and a love that shouldn’t exist, made them decide to part ways. Pero paano kung may malaman si Perez na makakapagpabago ng kanilang tadhana. Is it a happily ever after? Or is it too late, after all.

Alpha Jakob gave me the grandest bonding ceremony five years ago. I became the world's most envied woman. Five years later, I received a provocative voice message from Jakob's first love, Molly. "I just got back to the pack, and all I needed to do was to play coy with Jakob, and he came right over. Tonight, he originally prepared blue fireworks for me. I don't like blue, but I decided to give it to you since I never liked to waste. You can use it during your anniversary." The day during our fifth mate bond anniversary, I looked at the blue fireworks blooming in the night sky, quietly waiting in my seat as I faced the empty seat opposite me. Molly's provocation came again. A photo of her having a candlelight dinner with Jakob. I didn't cry, and simply submit the application to terminate my mate bond with Jakob to the pack's Elder Council. At this time, my personal assistant told me she saw someone had applied for a grand bonding ceremony. "Luna Cynthia, the bonding ceremony is prepared by Molly for herself and Alpha Jakob. It will take place seven days later. Do you wish to stop it?" "There's no need to. If this is what Jakob wants, I'll make their wish come true." Jakob was still promoting how deep his love for me was, saying that I was the woman he loved the most in his life. But he didn't know that seven days later, I would leave the pack and never return again. That night, he collapsed.

"Nyebut, Re. Nyebut!" Amelia mengguncang kedua lengan sahabatnya. "Jatuh cinta sama sodara sendiri itu dosa. Dosa besar!" "Tapi gue hamil anak dia, Mel." "Zian tahu lo hamil?" Rere menggeleng dengan ragu. "Belum," "Gugurin!" gadis tomboy itu menyambar cepat. "Gugurin anak itu sekarang. Biar gue bantuin." .... Setelah Rania dan Nayra meninggal, Arga membawa anak perempuan dari istri keduanya untuk tinggal satu atap bersama Zian, anak dari istri pertamanya. Gadis bernama Rere itu tidak pernah menerima keputusan sang Papa. Maka dari itu, semenjak tinggal di rumah baru, dia berubah menjadi anak yang sulit di atur, badung dan sering keluyuran malam. Berbeda dengan Zian yang selalu duduk di rumah dan menjadi anak baik. Itulah sebabnya, Arga lebih menyayangi Zian daripada Rere. Karena pilih kasih dari sang ayah lah Rere jadi benci pada kakak tirinya. Sampai suatu hari, dia berniat mengerjai Zian dengan menyeret lelaki itu ke sebuah pesta malam. Yang tanpa di duga-duga, membuat mereka terlibat dalam kecelakaan yang bernama "Jatuh cinta".

“Mia… Please…” He whispered, taking a step forward but almost immediately, she took a step back, her gaze filled with determination. “You don't get to call me that anymore. It's Ms. Carter now. Watch your company, Damien… Things could go awfully wrong, hm?” She smirked at him. Two years ago, Milena Carter received the biggest disappointment of her life. Scorned and looked down on, she leaves in search of a name for herself and now, she's back… The man who once tossed her aside like she meant nothing? He'll pay. The world that mocked her? She’ll own it. And the child he never knew existed? Mia will protect her son at all costs—even if it means signing a contract with the devil himself. Because fate has a cruel sense of humor, and the one man she swore never to forgive is now the only one who may hold the key to her future once more. But this time? This time, she'll be the one leaving scars.

The Adoration and lust that intially marks the love between the two, drifts a sudden deviation in destiny. However the fate brings them together in the laters where the couple work to build a better relationship. The novel explores on how It's truly devastating that we yearn for something, only when its no where near us.