Novel & Cerita I Swear To God I Never Fall In Love

He reaches up and takes my hands in his, gripping them tightly. “I have never known peace my love, I was forged to be a warrior, it is who I am. Peace and a quiet life has never been in the stars for me” he looks a little wistful now, his eyes soft and unfocused like he is picturing what a different life may have looked like. I feel a little panic inside, how do I make him stay?

I tell her I’m not sure if what I’m feeling is what love is supposed to be. “I’ve only ever thought I was in love one time. And that turned out to be a fluke, so now I’m not even sure I can find it again.” Ava furrows her blonde eyebrows at me. “You’re eighteen, Evelyn. You think love is a one-and-done?” I throw my arms up in the air. “I don’t know! I don’t know what to believe anymore.” “Well, try believing in your own heart.” “But I don’t know if my heart is leading me in the right direction. What if I get hurt again? Or worse, what happens if caring for this guy ruins my life?”

I was just so happy we had a normal conversation. ''Son, I want you to promise me something,'' he said. I looked at my father more intently and I knew what he was about to say was important. The look in his eye said a lot. ''Yes father.'' I said. ''I want you to promise me that despite anything that happens, you will love your wife. You will hold her close.'' he said. Was this man a mind seer or what? How much did he know for him to talk about me and Aliyah that way. I was so very confused as I stared at him. I had to give him an answer or else, he would know something was up.

He takes a deep breath before his other hand comes up and holds my head in a fast grip before he leans his forehead against mine. "my love what have I done to you!" he says and I almost burst and break down in a sob when I close my eyes and breath while I push my feelings back. I will not let my walls fall and crumble to dust, I will not get off this path I'm pushing myself forward on.

And my heart said my ex-boss-slash-boyfriend had just put on a pig costume and faced his greatest fears to tell me he loved me. I glanced at my best friend, and she nodded her encouragement, mouthing, “Well?” I leapt to my feet. “Wait!” I shouted. I bounded up the two stairs to the stage and ran to the pig, who still lay on the floor, dead. The crowd quieted down, and I didn’t even care that all eyes were now on me. Boston sat up, and stared at me, his deep brown eyes filled with love. I crouched over him. “Boston,” I said, suddenly shy. “I’m sorry too. I’m sorry it’s taken me

I tossed over my shoulder as I dumped the fallen keychains into the box. Mom paused, taken aback by the derision in my voice. "I- it's not-" "I mean, aren't you the one who's always preaching about love transcending the barriers of status, color, and race?" I pressed, every word a pointed accusation. "Well, yes-" "And 'that it doesn't matter how many zeroes you have in your bank account so long as you have love,'" My voice held an edge of mocking as I tried to emulate the sing-song way in which she'd declared such blatant stupidity.

His eyes softened and the sincerity in his voice almost tricked me, "I never thought I'd actually fall for you -" And like that he snapped the left sanity in me, i marched forward, my hands fisted around his shirt as i angrily snapped, "DONT ! DONT SAY THAT !" I pushed him away, a frenzy of madness lit in my veins, "Don't you dare say that again. You don't know what love is, you can't love anyone !" He raised his arms up in bewilderment, "Yes, yes, I don't fucking know how to love ! How i am supposed to know when i never felt it in my life !"

"Ivana, my life was full of sorrows and guilts. I was in darkness, just as this woods. But then, you came to my life in the most unexpected way, in most unexpected time. But I'm glad you came into my life. I thought I was in love earlier. But you made me feel the warmth of love. It is you who made me feel loved. You lighten my life just like these lights. I don't want to loose this light in my life. I don't even want to feel the fear of losing you any more. I'm sorry I took a lot of time to realize it. I want you in my life, together till the end of my life. I want to live this life with you. I want to love you and cherish you all my life cause I have completely, madly and truly fallen. Fal

I cried using the back of my hand to clean my tears away and he sighed deeply gazing into my eyes. "I never meant to feel I blamed you for this, you have been the absolute best friend and first love I have ever had. I just need to take a step back and a moment to accept it all, I mean I literally pictured my return to Neredia with you in my arms as my wife. So it's a process, alright?" My heart hurt and I cried some more but he raised up in front of me chuckling.

How does he manage to hurt and heal her at the same time? "I would never fall in love again until I found her…I said, "I would never fall unless it's you I fall into…I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her…I found you….I would never fall in love again until I found her…I said, "I would never fall unless it's you I fall into…I was lost within the darkness, but then I found her….”