I Think I Am Alone Now Novels & Stories

And just like that— I disappeared into the world. Alone.

A Week Later ' just fucking' that word has been planted in my head since last week and the more it expands the more I feel like I'm gonna die. I don't wanna believe it anyway but when I get angry and something pops on my head whether good or bad it remains printed in it for a long time. arggggghhh. I know this is a lie, Remi loves me, doesn't he okay maybe this loneliness is having an effect on me . it's been hours since Remi's gone to work like 7 hours ago and I've been and still jobless . I do not feel like watching that damn tv or feel like stuffing my face with food . An idea just pop into my head

“But you don’t have to be alone anymore.” And in that quiet, terrifying moment, I realized I wasn’t either.

I do not know who I will become. I do not know what waits for me. I do not know how much fear is still inside me. But I know this one thing now. I am not alone. And for the first time in my life, this is not a promise. It is a feeling.

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I feel so alone. --------------------

"To be honest, I have no damn clue. I've been saving my money though, and Marta and Bill would shit, bit I really just...ugh. Well, I want to go somewhere. Do something. Between the studying, side jobs and being in that depressing house, I just want to break the routine. A change of scenery." "I feel you! I'm wanting the same, but I was too afraid to do do alone. I was just waiting on you to say something like that so I'd have a partner in crime. I don't have the balls to go solo." I smile. "Me either. Bill has kind of freaked me out over the years. If a dude follows me through the 7/11 I'm already reaching for the industrial strength dog deterrent and convinced it's my end." She laughs.

This New Year, which is tomorrow, I’m going to be completely alone. No calls, no laughter, no “Happy New Year, Holly!” Just silence. And the unbearable weight of what I’ve done. I close my eyes, letting the tears fall freely now. Fuck! I hate my life right now as everything just keeps falling apart.

"Do you think people just walk and walk through life, only to realize at some unknown point that they are completely alone?" After thinking for a moment, I started laughing again: "Well, isn't that pretty good too? "Like right now, I only have to worry about Paigey. Being all alone means that when it's my time to go, at least I won't have so many attachments holding me back, right?"

Completely alone. I sank onto the couch, clutching the test like a lifeline. I could not move. I could not speak. I could not think beyond the storm inside my head. I felt trapped by my own thoughts, by the absence of the man who had consumed my mind, by the reality of what I now faced alone.