Novel & Cerita I Think I Am Alone Now

“She used to be... alive. Wild. Funny. Before.” I stiffen. He is still talking about me. He shifts again, arm tightening around my waist, as if his body’s remembering something even if his mind’s already floating. “She’s all alone now,” he sighs. “I feel bad for her.” Then, silence. A breath. A soft snore. He’s gone. I stare at the ceiling, blinking fast, trying to hold it in, but the tears slip free. He’s right. I am alone. Once hailed, now forgotten. Once brilliant, now broken.

At least she had been his wife, but what am I? All I am right now is possibly pregnant, and completely alone.

No one is coming after me. I slow once I realize that. No one is coming after me. No enemy is coming after me. No one who cares about me is coming after me either. The ones I love don’t want to see if I’m okay. Whatever I did must have been so horrifying that no one dares come near me. No one wants me near them. I am completely alone in a way that I've never been before. And I don't know what to do now. But I do know that I’m on my own.

Just Alec and me. Alone.

Mapait na lamang akong napangiti dahil doon. Dahil alam kong katulad din ni tatay noon ay iniwan na rin ako ni nanay. Kung noon ay ramdam ko ang pag-iisa hindi dahil sa kakulangan ng presensiya ni nanay, ay iba na ngayon. Dahil ngayon ko lubusang nararamdaman na walang-wala na ako. I know that this day will be the start of my journey in this world, alone. There's no one that I can lean on to. No person that I'll be able to hold on whenever I'm in pain. There's no one. No one but myself. Alone.

But the best thing for me is I’m not lonely anymore. I had the sudden feeling that I was not alone.

Everything. If I thought things were still before. Then I don’t know what to say about it now. “Alaina?” I called softly, in a last attempt to know if she is here because I feel so alone. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this alone in my life.

And now, I was all alone. Everything went dark.

I was a mate. And I was alone.

I made her run. Now I’m alone. And I don’t know how to fix it.