I Think I Am Alone Now Novels & Stories

This New Year, which is tomorrow, I’m going to be completely alone. No calls, no laughter, no “Happy New Year, Holly!” Just silence. And the unbearable weight of what I’ve done. I close my eyes, letting the tears fall freely now. Fuck! I hate my life right now as everything just keeps falling apart.

Let us not forget eating alone, sitting alone, sleeping alone, and doing everything alone. Tears are continuously flowing from my eyes, thinking about my past. A painful past. Why, God, am I alone? Why do I not have anyone I can love? Why do I not have anyone who loves me? Am I that bad? When will this get over? Why can't you call me Mama? I want to come to you. Tell me, mama, tell me. I do not want to live anymore. Call me Mama, please. I cry as loud as I can. I know no one will hear me here.

"Don't leave me alone,not now not ever." I didn't know why I felt like we were going to be ripped apart very soon and I couldn't breathe properly with the sickening thought of being left alone.

" she called but I was too clouded with lots of thoughts rushing through my head. I just stared at him while my breathing was heavy. Secretly accompanying in my mind the song only the two of us know. Why am I acting like this? Is it right for me to come here? But I have already prepared for it! I have spent the last five years convincing myslef that that's enough, done, no more. So why am I like this now? “I went down a road that only got me nowhere I've seen every corner, every inch of this place Being all alone it really got me thinking, maybe overthinking That what is lost ain't gone No, you can't just let go

I mutter to myself through my tears and pain. I shouldn’t be trying to do anything in this state of mind. I need to talk to someone, run through the thoughts that are trapped somewhere in my mind, but I feel so alone. Grabbing a towel and a pack of ice, I wrap my hand, tears still running freely down my cheeks. I lean against the fridge and slowly lower myself to the ground as my tears turn to sobs and my pain morphs to a full body and emotional breakdown. Why do I feel so alone when I have so many people I can turn to?

“I’m not trying to explain it. I’m just… here.” “That doesn’t help,” I said quickly. “I didn’t say it would.” My chest tightened. Anger still burned under my skin, but it didn’t feel as strong now. Just… tired. “Then why are you here?” I asked, quieter this time. He didn’t hesitate. “Because you shouldn’t be alone.” The answer hit differently now. Not something to fight. Not something to push away. Just… there. “I am alone,” I said. The words came out softer than I expected.

“You’re not alone anymore. You know that, right?” I nod slightly. “I know.” “But you don’t really believe it.” I open my mouth, wanting to deny it, but I can’t. Because he’s right. I’ve spent so long facing everything on my own. I’ve spent so long fighting alone. But now, I don’t have to anymore. And maybe… perhaps it’s time I start believing that. I reach up, my fingers brushing against his face. “I’m trying, Alaric. I really am.”

maybe I am better off alone. Dismissive defiance curdled in my gut. Who cared what they said, their whispers a distant buzzing compared to the storm raging inside me? Yearning for a return to the quiet before the infestation, I craved solace in the familiar ache of solitude. Ihudiya's words, harsh but undeniable truths, echoed in the hollowness. Perhaps this self-imposed isolation was the only path forward. Maybe it was time to strip away illusions and confront a reality that scraped raw but held a sliver of hope for a new beginning.

But tonight, I don't need answers. Tonight, I just need this. Damien beside me. And the quiet feeling that perhaps, somehow, I'm no longer facing everything alone. What is happening to me?.

Owens as I possibly could. I could only hope that doing so would help me with this obsession, and if it didn’t, well, I would just have to deal with being alone for the rest of my life. Sighing, I start to feel a void forming in me that makes me feel cold and alone even though the sun shines brightly down on me and I am surrounded by people.