Novel & Cerita I Think I Am Alone Now

then I gulped two more pills. I am alone... all alone... no family... no one to call as my own in this whole wide world... and then I gulped more pills... Tears and sobs were echoing in my empty house. I looked all around and I realized that I was all alone. I always will be... I have no one... then the walls started closing on me and I had only one thing to focus on... pills in my hand. I am feeling too much, I just need some more so I can stop feeling.

I don’t even know what. "I don’t even know why I’m here," I say quietly. My voice barely makes a sound. "I guess…. I guess I thought I could do this alone. Try to be strong without you." I let out a humorless laugh, shaking my head. "But I can’t." The words hang in the air, settling over me like a weight.

I just want to be left the fuck alone. But the truth is, I’m already in it. And I’m not getting out. Not now. Not after everything.

The thought of having a small human of my own. A reason to look forward to a happy and fulfilled life. And today is a nice summer morning that calls for a smile. It’s all well. It is going to be well in my favor. Living all alone in my apartment since I left my home. No one has visited my house except for a delivery man and the security guard. I have enjoyed the alone time for too long and I have concluded that I will share it now. I need a shower to feel like I am no longer in the hospital. Walking to the bathroom while dancing to Sean Paul's reggae dancehall new album.

“I want to be alone. Get away from me.” My voice cracked, breaking into an ugly sob. “I want to be alone… please… leave me alone… leave me… alone.”

I was still not sure what happen, and I wanted to talk to Michael like always and tell him what happen and take his thoughts from him. But today when he asked me to leave is when I understood that I was alone I was always alone I have always been for myself and this would not change why had I forgotten that very real fact of my life. That one thought of me being alone made me so tired that I drifted into deep sleep. ___________________________________________ * *******************

“I will forgive you but right now, I just want to be alone.” I wanted to remain with my thoughts and rethink every piece of information I had gathered. To be continued…!

That's why at the end of the day, all I just have to count on is me, myself, and I. Yes, just me alone.

I said, my voice barely above a whisper. His face fell. “I’m sorry—” “I know you are,” I interrupted gently. “But sorry doesn’t undo the feeling. It doesn’t erase the moment where I’m standing here… alone… wondering if I’ve been left again.” Again. The word hung between us, thick with history I rarely spoke about but always carried. “I don’t really have anyone else in this world,” I admitted, the vulnerability in the confession making my chest tighten. “Not in the way that matters. Not in the way that stays.”

"I did it. I gave you what you asked. She's gone, you're avenged. I hope you're at peace now." The silence of the cave was the reply I got back. As if telling me that I was truly alone now. I reminded myself that I still had Irene. Even though I still had Irene, it still felt like I was alone. She's the one I live for now, the only one I can remember and still smile. Apart from her, nothing else in this world matters henceforth. I tilted my head backward, letting the tears flow freely. I couldn't tell if I was crying for them or for myself. Maybe it was for all of us.