Novel & Cerita I Think I Am Alone Now

“No visitors today either?” “No,” I said quietly, looking away. “And that’s how I want it.” She nodded like she understood more than she let on and left the room without pressing. I turned onto my side, ignoring the protest from my ribs, and stared at the wall. No parents. No Elias. No Clara coming to gloat. No friends who probably didn’t even know I was here because I’d never told them how bad things had gotten. Just me, the machines, and the quiet realization that I had finally become exactly what I’d always feared: completely alone.

“Explain.” My voice dropped. Firm now. Because I wasn’t letting that go. Not this time. She studied me for a moment. Then said “You made this decision alone the first time.” A beat. “No one stood with you.” My breath caught slightly. Because I felt that. That emptiness. That isolation. Even without the full memory I could feel it. “And now?” I asked quietly. Her gaze softened. Just a little. Enough to change the weight of her words. “Now you’re not alone.”

“Unless you want all that working out to go to waste.” “Put them in the kitchen,” I tell him. “Maybe I’ll eat later if I’m hungry.” Al doesn’t move for a second. I know he wants to give me a pep talk, either about how Layla will eventually come back to me, or about how I need to move on, neither of which I want to hear right now. Thankfully, he decides better of it and heads to the kitchen, leaving me alone. Alone… That’s what I am now. A few weeks ago, I would have copped to that with pride. Yeah, I’m single! I would have said. It wouldn’t have bothered me in the slightest. But not anymore. Not now that I know what I’m missing out on.

Softening for someone who wasn’t me. And I was here. Breaking in silence and alone.

At this point I feel like I am the only sane one here. I am so ready for today to be done and over with.

And as I stare out at the city, I realize that being alone doesn't mean I'm lost. I am exactly where I need to be.

He is gone. And I am here. Holding everything. Alone. Again. AUTHOR'S NOTE: SOFIA IS PREGANT AGAIN Y'ALL WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON THIS?

Damien was somewhere out there, trying to make sense of me. And I was alone with my thoughts. For now.

Alone in the silence with my throbbing body and racing thoughts. “I'm not the enemy.”

For the first time since last night, I let myself believe maybe I wasn’t completely alone. Maybe.