Novel & Cerita I Want To Be Single Forever

"I love you too," I whispered. "But that's exactly why I have to go alone. So you can live. So you can have the future we should have had together. So you can love someone else someday and be happy." "I don't want someone else. I want you." "I know." Tears streamed down my face. "But this is bigger than us. This is about saving everyone. All eleven realities. Billions of people who want love just like we do. Don't you see? That's why I have to go. So others can have what we can't."

I wanted Felix to see the real me. I smiled at my reflection. “Felix, soon I’m going to tell you everything I feel for you,” I whispered to myself. “And I hope, truly hope that you feel the same way too. I want us to be more than friends. I want us to fall in love and stay there… forever.” Living alone meant I had full freedom to express myself. I didn’t have to hide anything. My house was my space, and tonight, I was using every bit of that freedom to follow my heart.

"Because there is no one else to turn to besides you, and I cannot be apart from you. I want to be with you, but at this point in my life, I don't want to make a long-term commitment to anybody else. "Well, to me, it sounds like an excuse; it sounds like you are saying that you want to sleep with me but want to be single, and there is only one reason why that would be the case." "Well, it seems you are saying that you want to sleep with me but want to be single." "Either you haven't listened to anything I've just said, or it hasn't come out the way I wanted it to; either way, you couldn't be much further from the fucking truth," you definitely haven't listened to anything've just said.

My mind travels back to my fun past, up to this very moment. I'm 30 years old, and still can't believe I'm single. I mean, I'm beautiful, intelligent, seductive, a working-class lady, and what not? I know I'm single cause I've turned down every man that's come to me, but that's because they don't have what I want. I've been searching long and hard for what I want, and the one I've found seems so far out of my grasp. Why won't the man I want, want me!?

“You know how everybody who’s recently split says ‘I’m enjoying being single’? Well, I wish I was. I really do. But it’s exhausting when you manage to get a date, or boring when you don’t.” “I know what you mean,” she agrees. “This is going to sound sad…. But I want a man…. I just want to be loved.” “There’s nothing wrong with that.” “I know. But I’m starting to think that I’m never going to find one who I really fancy and really like…. Oh and who feels the same about me.” “Yes you will. I’m sure you will.” “I’m not so certain. I want someone I can really click with. Someone I can have fun with. Whose wavelength I’m completely on. I don’t think he exists.”

She exclaims in disbelief, her eyes bulging open. "Yes", I say to her. "I am no longer going to get married to Isabella or Anna or whoever it is you want me to be married to. I am going to remain single for life!" I twirl back without waiting for a reaction or response from them and stride to the door.

I say Shaking his head, “I hope that's true but you know what? For now, I just want to be single and have a whole lot of fun. I don't want anything holding me down for a while. I've had enough of that for the last eight years.” I laugh, “I'm sort of in the same situation. I'm so glad Grant and I found each other as a result of all of this. At the same time, it might have been interesting had I been forced to be on my own for a change. I don't know if I ever told you, but I've never actually been left to my own devices. Whether it was my parents, the hospital staff, my sorority mother at college, there was always someone hovering nearby. Then of course as soon as I graduated, I married Marcus

No filters. “Yes,” I whispered. “I’ve never said this before, but I need permanence with you. I want to be so completely yours that every breath I take belongs to both of you. I want my body marked by you every day. I want to wake up every morning knowing I’m claimed, loved, and owned by the two of you for the rest of my life. No more running. No more distance. Just us, forever.” Lorenzo lifted his head, eyes dark and shining. “Say it again, baby. Tell us exactly what you want.”

Kaila flinched, eyes wide. “I want to be surprised,” I said, voice cracking. “I want to wake up one morning and not know how the day’s gonna end. I want spontaneous. I want messy.” She just stared, lips parted, like I’d grown a second head right there in front of her. I dragged in a shaky breath. “I’m not calling the whole thing off. I just… I need a minute. To breathe. To be single for five damn seconds before I sign my life away.”

Like back in the day before my life got so complicated. Maybe being single was best for me? Fuck, no. Why am I thinking like that? All I want is Kiara... nothing else.