If I Can't Be Yours Novels & Stories

“Shannon, I know you always thought that you were the one chasing after me, and I always ignored you, right? In fact, I like you more than you like me. You can never imagine how much I like you, Shannon.” “Do you know why no boy sends you any love letters even though you’re so beautiful? It’s because I took away all the love letters. Those who admired you were beaten up and given a warning by me; that’s the reason they didn’t have the courage to be close to you. Shannon, do you think I’m very unreasonable? Am I a control freak?” “What can I do, Shannon? I really like you to the extent that I can’t even see any men go close to you. I just want you to be mine.”

Its hurts. I take a deep breath. ~ Why can't it be? Why can't it be the two of us? Why can't we be lovers? Only friends You came along At the wrong place, at the wrong time Or was it me? ~ Can I not really own you, Hiro? Can't you really love me like how I love you? Argh. My heart is aching and I won't tear up, but no. I can't be weak. The battle is not over yet, Nathalia. You should try again and get Hiro.

"I cannot let you do this!" "You have no say!" I yelled back, "you have no say, haven't you realized, though I love you to death, with every morsel of my being but I cannot put up with this anymore. I cannot be delusional anymore, I have seen that it pays me nothing to sit and keep believing that you may want me, that there may be something in you that slightly desires me because there isn't. You don't want me, you do not love me, you do not desire me, not even slightly."

he puts an envelope on the table next to my hands. "Ana, it's the truth, look, I'm just going to tell you one thing, in this envelope there's a plane ticket for you, I've been offered a job in France and I won't be able to come and see you anymore, I have a month to leave, if in a month you're not at the airport an hour before I leave, unfortunately I don't want to know anything more about you, because it hurts us, Ana, I'm a human being who feels too".

I can’t make her mine… * * * ,

Amelia: What? Lucy: Gone. Amelia: You're impossible. Lucy: He's absolutely smitten. Amelia: Don't say that. Lucy: Why? Amelia: Because what if he isn't? Lucy: Then I'm deleting my dating qualification. Amelia: Since when did you have one? Lucy: Since this conversation. Amelia: Very official. Lucy: Framed certificate and everything. Amelia: Thank you. Lucy: For? Amelia: Making me smile.

I miss her I want her, No I need her. But I can’t reach for her. Not until I get my world under control. Not until I’m someone who deserves her again. So I sit there, alone in the dark trying, wanting to call her, but utterly unable to lift the phone.

This cannot be it. This can not be how my life ends.

Want to be one but I can’t… To love you but I can’t… Kiss your heart but I can’t… You want a psycho but I ain’t one… Ripped you apart, you want… Out of this world, you want… Sink into drama… Earn you a lover… But I can’t And then I saw it. And I stopped breathing.

"I can't feel him anymore." ***