Novel & Cerita If Only I Had Told Her

She pleaded. "And I, too, am my parents' only son," I told her. I snapped her head off without a second thought and ripped her heart apart. Fuck her!

I looked into his eyes with wetness leaking out from my waterline. "If only....if only I didn't befriend them, if only I stayed away from them, if only Sunny and Riya didn't become close, if only I didn't come into the city, she would have been with me right now, becoming something she desired to be. It was all my fucking fault" I clenched my fists in anger.

I haven't seen her at the festival that started today and I didn't see you, I told her. She said that she felt under the weather and decided to sleep it off. Maybe that's why her scent was different. I told her I was glad she was feeling better but now on to the hard part. I had to tell her my parents were in town just in case she ran into them and didn't know what to say. So I was a little hesitant to tell her at first. Her reaction wasn't what I expected, she had asked if I told anybody. I told her no "except for Nick " I said .

, She giggled sheepishly. "Wait, hold up. So you want to tell me that you don't know that you are the only one that can make things easier for Kaiden? No, You didn't just pretend like you are ignorant of the situation you have put us in", I wish I could tell this to her face to face. Talking to her on phone was restricting me from giving her all the piece of my mind.

I can see that she was stop hearing what I said, "Why you didnt tell me that? I have the right to know" "I dont know...maybe I was drowned by fear, I am not as brave as you know even until today" "But you dont need to bare it on your own, I am always here from there before up until now,... you should have told me that"

“I'm sorry" I said nothing. I knew that it was supposed to hurt, from the first moment she told me I was supposed to rage and curse her for not telling me. But I loved Brandon so much, if I'd confronted Brandon with evidence he would have cooked up an excuse so easily, and I would have believed him. There's nothing she could have done. “I'm just glad you're here with me now". I finally said.

“Fuck's sake!” I snapped at myself. How did I get this so wrong. All I had to do was tell her how I felt and I blew it. I had to tell her. I messaged her asking to talk but there was no reply. I had to tell her I liked her. She had to know that I would not have done any of this if I didn’t truly like her and wanted her.

she said with " I....he......" I said nervously not knowing if I can truly trust her "It's okay if you don't feel comfortable telling me what happened" I took a deep breath, I wasn't sure if I should tell her but it felt good to have someone willing to listen to me and before I could think more of it I told her everything in one breath "Kina kina!" I called out as I waited for a reaction from her but got none ".....you're not saying anything"

Despite being around me all this time, I never told her a thing until this moment. “I'm sorry.” I apologized as sincerely as I could. “It happened so fast. I didn't know how you were going to take it.” “Well thanks for the vote of confidence.” Her sad sarcastic response made my heart sink deeper. “I barely knew I was going to make such a big change until recently.” ‘Last night, to be exact.’ I swallowed despite the dryness in my mouth as I continued. “I would have told you— both if you — if I had time, but it was a rush. I barely had time to think.”

"What was I supposed to ask?" Levi was shaking his head. His best friend was too good for the world. To make his mood better, he told him that he got him melons which he hoped didn't get crushed when he kicked his bicycle earlier. He was able to remember to bring them on his way there. "Where did you get splashed? What kind of car was it?” Levi asked.