Novel & Cerita If You So Desire My Despair

Amelia is shattered, meeting with an ex from six years ago, at an event. She, however, returns to the same apartment after some time for a job, since funds are needed to secure the life of her mother. Things turn out well between Eddie and Amelia, one last time and an uncertain relationship begins, indirectly. Eddie is happy to be with her once again, not until the arrival of his ex-wife, Jenna. Amelia, sensing she cannot cope with a rude woman as Jenna, quits her job and heads back to her home. Eddie becomes unhappy once more. Fate happens and it is discovered that Chloe, a daughter Jenna claimed to have for him, is not his. He is now determined to go for Amelia again, but Amelia on the other hand, may not be willing to return with him. Find out in the enthralling novel what fate holds for these individuals.

Rated 18 Contains possessive, obsessive, and arrogant ML. Heavy on smút. A lot of explicit content. Please proceed with caution. EXCERPT; "Will you think me a monster if I do what you are afraid of?" He whispered, his eyes never leaving mine. "Sei un mostro(You're a monster)," I spat at Matteo. "Nothing can change that." "I've always cared for you, but you chose to betray me by running away with my child. Did you know how my reputation dropped because of that? I become a laughing stock BECAUSE of you. A man who can't keep his woman in check." His hand gripped my neck, cutting off my air supply. I gasped, pounding his chest as he smirked. "Go on, scream, darling," he taunted. "I love the sound of your screams." Gasping for breath as he released me, I saw the bulge in his pants and shook my head in disgust. "You don't care for me, Matteo. Your idea of caring is twisted, controlling, possessive, and obsessive....!" _________ Deirdre faced a heart-wrenching choice: surrender her child or endure a bitter court battle. The mere thought of another woman in her child's life, especially one of Matteo's passing fancies, was unbearable. Their journey began coerced onto a cruise, tossed astray by a raging storm, mirroring the turmoil in their hearts. Amid nature's fury, both were entangled in their tempest - a fiery passion reigniting into deep love. Yet, family disapproval marred their brief happiness, threatening to tear them apart. A lethal secret emerged, endangering both her and her child's lives. Compelled to hide this truth, Deirdre knew silence couldn't last. When Matteo discovered her secret, he presented an ultimatum: risk everything and reveal it or bear lifelong consequences in silence.

"After seeing all this, will you still be able to love me? You surely are not. That's why I was telling you to change your decision otherwise you won't have to see all this." With his one finger, he wiped her tears. His eyes were fixed on her horrified turn yellow pale face. "My love which has been in my heart for years can't be ended in a moment on seeing all this. And my decision will not change till my last breath." In weeping, she went on sitting on the floor. She was on the trajectory of that love where there was no going back. "If this is your final decision then fine. After that nikkah (marriage agreement) don't keep any kind of expectation from me." On her stubbornness, he controlled his rage and said in defeated voice. "If you get tired from fulfilling this one-sided relationship then remember I'm always willing to let you go back. You can free yourself from this relationship." After done with his saying, he turned back abruptly. While Hadia hide her face in her hands and started crying profoundly at what he said to her. Will Wadan accept and fell in love to Hadia who he raised since her childhood? Or Hadia will have to forget him and give up on her love just because he doesn't her worthy to love?

Jimmy, a 20-year-old with a rebellious streak and a tender heart, never expected to fall for someone completely out of reach—his mother’s best friend, Susan, a confident and elegant 38-year-old woman. Scarred by past heartbreaks, Susan has long given up on love, convinced that men will only bring pain. But when Jimmy’s youthful charm and unexpected sincerity start breaking down her carefully built walls, both of them are forced to confront desires they’ve tried to deny. As the line between friendship and forbidden attraction blurs, they must navigate a web of secrecy, guilt, and longing. Can love truly defy the rules, or will the consequences of their forbidden desire tear them apart?

He came to destroy her. She planned to crush him. Neither expected to fall. Mona is the queen of the business world; ruthless, feared, and untouchable. She doesn’t do love, friendship, or second chances. In her world, weakness is fatal, and survival means staying one step ahead no matter the cost. Her golden rule? Never get distracted. But then Kade walks in...sharp, relentless, and dangerously charming. He wants answers about a secret from her past. He wants justice. What he doesn’t expect... is her. Mona’s used to eliminating problems. And Kade? He should’ve been just another one. But every move she makes to push him away only pulls them deeper into a tangled game of power, desire, and control. He’s falling for the villain. She’s terrified she might actually feel something. And when hearts get involved, someone always bleeds.

If you are not rated PG-18, this book is not meant for you. Only the strong-hearted can face what lies inside these pages… be warned. Each story is developed with detailed, twisted passion and irresistible kinks that push the boundaries of lust and temptation. These are the kind of secrets people whisper about… but never dare to confess. Inside Lust Diaries, every page burns with dirty tension, forbidden cravings, and reckless desires that refuse to stay hidden. From FxF temptations, to the filthy student who crosses the line with her professor, to two colleagues whose late-night meetings turn dangerously heated, to a best friend whose secret hunger has been waiting far too long… Every story pulls you deeper into a world where rules blur, boundaries break, and desire takes control. It’s dirty. It’s intense. And it has every craving you secretly want. So if you can’t handle the heat of Lust Diaries… Leave now. Because once you open this diary… the heat only gets worse.

Not one. Not two. But three men. All three are connected in one way or the other. As a struggling lady with bills to pay, I had no time for love. I was married off to the son of a billionaire, Grey Blackwood, to help raise funds for my mother's health. That was when I discovered there was more to this world. The perfect luxurious life that I pictured became a nightmare after discovering I was getting married to a cold man. I was treated with zero regard. However, I found a comforter. A man with love in his heart. A man who respects me. Tony, my husband's best friend. Wrong? I know. But what would you have me do? Now tell me why I suddenly became an apple in the eyes of my husband's father, Jacob. My life became a mess after we had sex in his office. I thought I was doing it to cover up my discoveries about my birth parents. But that one time, turned into a story of forbidden romance. This isn't a folktale. My name is Lyla Thompson. And this is the story of my life…

After a devastating heartbreak, Elena Grey escapes to Santorini, hoping to forget the pain. But one night with a mysterious stranger, Julian Stone, feels like the cure she’s been searching for. Until she returns home and discovers he’s her new boss. Her sister’s fiancé. What began as healing turns into a forbidden obsession that could destroy them both. Because the man who made her feel whole again might be the one who breaks her completely.

She was an innocent, quiet girl, who found herself at her mother's feet. And then, she left. But soon after she was taken in by a lady who promised her a better life. She just didn't see herself sitting between four guys in the next three months of that year. All of them were possessive, All of them cared. Sweet. But very dangerous. She wasn't treated like a sister. She was a girl, who brought each one of them out of their comfort zone. And soon, she found herself being called their Girl.

Aisha Manchester She shouldn’t crave him, yet every time he’s near, her body betrays her. He’s her brother’s best friend, older, untouchable, off-limits… and the reason her past still haunts her. Kyle Leicester She’s his enemy, his temptation, his obsession. He can’t forgive, but desire doesn’t listen. Aisha Manchester, the girl who shattered his trust and caused his sister’s accident, has returned, unaware that the man she once wronged is now determined to make her pay. Every touch ignites a fire neither of them can resist, and every rule he’s ever lived by teeters on the edge of breaking.