Seharusnya Aku Mati Novels & Stories

I saw the confusion in his eyes. “I—sorry,” he said quickly. “I should’ve knocked.” I didn’t answer. “Charlotte, are you okay?” The dam broke. Am I okay? I clenched my fists, my shoulders shaking. Have I ever been okay? Memories of my pathetic life from childhood flashed before me. “I want to die". I muttered. “Charlotte? What are you saying? I can’t hear you. What happened?” Musa asked softly. “I…want to die!" I shouted.

"Get on with it!" The silence persisted, and I lifted my head to glare at their faces in turn. "Kill me this instant! There is no hope for me left. My mate just rejected me, and my sister betrayed me. My life is hopeless and inconsequential. I am breaking from within. There is nothing left for me, please. Just get it over with!" A loud sob slipped from my lips, and I collapsed into a fetal position at the feet of these men. "Please.....just get it over with. Kill me!" I screamed. "Kill me already! Run me through with your blades!"

It felt just like—death. Meanwhile, my family waited anxiously. Seeing the doctor return, they quickly donned their helmets without hesitation. Somewhere beyond my dying breaths, the machine's cold melody wrenched the last light of my mind back into memories.

“But you’d better be ready to kill the only version of yourself willing to do what’s necessary.” The screen went black.

This cannot be my life… This… I feel so sleepy now… Perhaps I should just die in this so-called sleep… I wish I have been overdosed by Leah and I die… There is nothing to leave for…

Another said and they left leaving me to die, I don't want to die, I want to live. I've not even found my mate, I don't want to die. My eyes were forcing to close but I fought back to live, I want to fight this cruel fate and survive, at last, I couldn't fight anymore I closed my eyes and gave in to darkness

Nesryn looked right into my eyes. “Vivamus, moriendum est. A quote from your world which means — let us live, for we must die. When you know you’re gonna die, why don’t you live as you always wanted to? Yeah, maybe you will die sooner because you offend someone or you disobey someone, but you’ll be happy and grateful to yourself that even if for a second, you lived your life on your terms.” She cleared her throat, her voice slightly hoarse.

I know he does have many hands when I go out in this room and I can't fight, maybe even one of them. "He will not come, just k-kill me…" I collected all the courage I had to say that thing. I don't want to be killed, and that's the truth. But to see myself slowly dying by their hands is not the one I prayed for. I want to live a simple life but all I am experiencing is beyond my imagination. If this is my fate, should I accept it?

Is that a reason why I am alright to die now? Is my present not needed anymore? Is that why the comic and this world is killing me? i can't stop thinking what should happen to me if i didn't go to the west but what could i possibly do now i will die tomorrow this cold and dark place i can't see any hope that we will leave the rotten smell of this place is littering in my body i know that i smell like dead people but i don't really care suddenly i feel like my senses shuts down all i care right now is to die in peace i want to die quietly maybe i should ask them to just stab me with their sword i don't care how many times they want to do it but at least i will not feel that my body is being b

It might give me a reason to hold back knowing that I can’t do anything. Why do I feel so shattered? I want to die and end this misery. “K---kill me…” I muttered slowly in a low voice. “She’s awake…” someone yelled as I slowly opened my eyes. Nothing seemed to make sense, I wanted to give up on living, I'm good for nothing and I want to die… “Where am I? Why am I seeing you? Am I d---dead?”