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ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴍʏ ʟɪғᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴍʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴀɴ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ ɪ ᴄᴀʟʟ ɪᴛ ʜᴏᴍᴇ ʟᴇᴍᴍᴇ ʀᴇᴘᴇᴀᴛ ᴀ ᴛʜᴏᴜsᴀɴᴅ ᴛɪᴍᴇs

No one has ever truly loved me, and no one ever will. I walk slowly and quietly in the woods; it is so quiet that only the breaking of sticks under our feet can be heard. “You can go back now. I won’t come back. Why will I?” I mutter, then increase my pace. “I’m better off on my own, I don’t need… I don’t…” I slump on the ground, tears flowing freely from my eyes. “Keep walking,” one of them says. I stand up, clear my eyes, and keep walking. After all, that is the only thing I can do.

The poem is titled 'SPEAK TO YOURSELF' and it reads thus. ******************************************************* How often do you converse with yourself? How often do you speak to yourself? How often do you listen to yourself when no one is speaking? How often do you minister to yourself? How often do you truly embrace yourself, your pain, your flaws, your truth, your fears... SPEAK TO YOURSELF Say to yourself.... "Though I am shattered and bereaved and I might wither with the wind but like seeds, I can sprout out of the ground, new and better. "

"Are you crazy!!" "Am sorry mother"she muttered with her gaze on the floor. "You are very stupid" "Mother,am not because am tired of seeing that man face but you don't care about me or my feeling!!!I hate you mother...I hate you.."pinky uttered and ran out of the house not minding the rain. "Did pinky just said that to me and who is the man"Mrs Diane said in a whisper and she paused and gasped... "Hmph"pinky huffed and countinue walking away,her mind drifting back to Mr Jason who was her major nightmare.

How silly of me. And nothing will ever make me leave. ***

On some occasions, some were won in silence. And I would continue to choose yourself again and again until someone would love me without needing to own you. “I'm such a confused creature” I whispered to myself

[ the child hiding behind the walls inside the house , gazing and hearing … ] Dear father , I am your child Rickz and always be yours, but I have to leave, please dad don’t search for me .. I don’t have a place here I simply cannot accept and hear your insult …please tell mama that her child will be safe , I’ll be calling you and be in touch .. from now on my education , my expenditure will be all on me .. I’ll learn to handle it .. just don’t stress , once I am settled I shall call you about my where abouts ..

I feel extremely sad and I still tend to have suicidal tendencies. I try my best to forget, I really do. I even cooked for you today, got dressed and wore make-up because I believed that if I spent time with you, the only reliable friend I have, I would feel better but you were quite busy today so I had to go back to my lonely world of tears and grief."

) Wish that I had found the way (Berharap aku bisa menemukan jalan) And the reasons that would make her stay. (Dan alasan agar dia tetap di sini) I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest. (Aku telah belajar tinggalkan semua dalam hidup demi dia) If I can’t have the one I want, I’ll do without the best. (Jika tak bisa dapatkan orang yang kuinginkan, maka tak akan kulakukan yang terbaik) But how I miss the girl (Sangat aku rindukan gadis itu) And I’d go a million times around the world just to say

“Let me come with you. Or let Beck drive you. Just… don’t shut me out.” I looked down at our joined hands. The contrast was stark—his, large and capable, marked with the power to shape worlds; mine, small and scarred from a world that had tried to break them. I pulled my hand away. “I need to do this alone,” I said, my voice quiet but final. “I need to remember who I am without you.” I opened the door and walked out into the bright, uncertain afternoon, leaving him standing alone in the cavernous silence of the foyer.