Kalau Ku Seorang Diri Novels & Stories

Everything looked like a mess of shapes and lines. "I can't do this," I whispered, my breathing sped up, "I've never done anything alone. I don't even go to school alone. I don't go anywhere alone. There are always guards. Drivers. Somebody telling me where to stand and where to go," my voice broke, "I don't know how." Perla grabbed my shoulders hard enough to make me look at her, "Then learn." I blinked.

My fiancée and my best friend were the top partners at a multi-million-dollar law firm, while I was just the guy handling the administrative work. In the courtroom, they were in perfect sync, trading fierce legal arguments and sharing an effortless dynamic. In their personal lives, they casually flirted through law jokes that only the two of them understood. I could never get a word in, edge-wise. Every time they laughed, I offered a painfully awkward smile. Even at my mother's funeral, nothing changed. They chatted merrily in front of her coffin, eventually breaking into audible laughter. “Clara, can you greet the guests?” I called out to her. I was the only child in the family, and a

Tears slid down my cheeks silently z not from weakness, but the sheer weight of carrying myself through yet another storm alone. I rested my forehead against the cool surface of the desk, my other hand cradling my stomach. “I've got you,” I whispered. “No matter what.” Outside, the world was still loud, still cruel, still watching. But this moment, this small, quiet moment– I chose myself. And that had to be enough.

“The whole point is that being ‘just you’ is enough.” For a second, disbelief and yearning warred on her face. Then she nodded once, fiercely. Behind me, I felt my brothers watching, my mates listening, the seer’s attention like a distant star. I straightened slowly. I had once needed someone to say those words to me. No one had. So I’d learned to say them to myself. Now, I got to say them out loud. To others. To all the versions of me who still lived in other kitchens and cells and auction halls.

In my sixteen years of existence, I learn how to value freedom that no one can have unless you do something to break through. It's hard to be alone, fighting alone. I'm still grateful to have lola and tita Gisselle. They're just my guide in taking the path. I am the one who's responsible of doing things along the way. The one who needs to survive, and the one who needs to stand alone on her own shoes. I don't want to depend on them. I want to be independent. Huminga muna ako ng malalim nang nasa tapat na ako ng pintuan. I slowly opened the door and turned on the switch. Brightness overruled at the four corners of the room.

By the time I knew it, I was already inside the tree, standing— with my mind blank like a white sheet of paper. No matter how beautiful the scene is— I can’t feel a single thing. It seems… I forgot. I forgot what does it feels like to be alone. I forgot how scary being alone could be. Though I want Kuroyuki to help me— I know I said that. But now I don’t have anyone to depend on. There’s no one I could rely on.

And that had made all the sisters closer. I missed them. “I'm feeling so alone here,” I confessed softly. - try to be independent so it's difficult because I've always been one half of a couple. “I'm sure it is. But you can do it. When you decided to go on a cruise, I thought I would do it alone. Your intuition told you that it was better for you than staying at home. Trust that instinct. You're going to learn a lot this week, and yes, it will be lonely at times, but

They then took my cash and ran; just the way I came. I was left all alone crying, crying out loud, and begging for help as if someone will hear me. They left me lying on the ground in the wasteland, weak like a paper that could be blown by wind at any time. I had lost hope and was ready to sleep there when I heard a voice say, “You called this to yourself, and now you are on your own. Next time, be careful on what you wish for because the universe might prepare it for you, like it just did.”

I heard Austin’s deep voice as I rushed out of the place. Time? Oh hell yes. I need time to be all alone. At least for now.

I was on my own. The End