Sendiri Biarkan Aku Sendiri 소설 & 이야기

Come see me now. The old me might have dropped everything, my pride included, and ran back to him without a second thought. Not anymore. I simply powered off my phone, pulled out the SIM card, and tossed it in the trash. The plane took off. The landscape slowly faded beneath the clouds. Damian and I were done now. Forever.

"I just... don't have a better way yet." Joseph lunged forward, gripping my hands, his voice fragmented. "Are you crazy? You can't take that risk! I won't allow it!" I yanked my hands free, my vision blurring with tears. "Let go. You're hurting me." He savagely tore at his own hair, collapsing against the wall as if his entire body had failed. "I'm useless. I should be the one who died!" I looked at him calmly. In that moment, there was surprisingly no sadness. Only a deep, consuming weariness.

Only I can help myself now You did more than anyone will ever do for me. Don't look for me Andro You won't be able to find me Just remember I am fine wherever I am. Be Strong Andro Your Saph will always be with you and love you I love you Andro More than any women has ever loved a man More than any pure love the world has ever seen before. My love is not so selfish that it will let you kill yourself for it.It is selfless and it wants you to live for yourself not just for me.

Pilit kong pinapalakas ang sarili ko kahit na hindi maganda ang nararamdaman ko. Ibinaba ko muna ang notebook na binigay n'ya at dahan-dahan akong naglakad papunta sa pintuan ng kwarto. Akmang hahawakan ko na ang door knob ng mapatigil ako dahil sa lyrics ng kantang lumalabas sa cellphone ko. Pansamantala ko 'tong dinamdam. Would you still hurt my pride.🎵🎶 Oh hey, how I cried.🎵🎶

And for the first time in days, I let myself float. Let myself feel the warmth. Let myself believe I’m not alone. And when I open them again… he’s gone.

" as he said , I don't understand anything , I was like what are you talking about. "It was really hard for you ,right? it's okay to be selfish . it's okay to prior yourself first . it's okay to take their love for granted . it's okay to be yourself and live your own life " he saying a firm answer as it was the right thing to say. that's right, it's okay to be myself , because it my life from the moment I entered this body.

I don’t need anyone. Just this moment. Just this fire. Just me. And I dance. Alone. Fierce. Unapologetic.

Few more minutes until it turned dark and I went back home. I feel like a loser. I am slowly drifting away. It seems like I am caught in a battle I cannot win. And I fight alone. I am truly quiet at the outside appearance but inside my head, I am talking loudly with myself. Am I giving up? I cannot win. But I want him, It’s not easy. I will miss him. You’re always on your own. It’s gone. It never happened. Move on. Maybe it’s time to give up.

Uhmmm daddy loves you so much kaya gising ka na" I cant understand!. Para akong baliw i cant take it anymore "Leave me alone" i shout "Leave ne alone" i shout again the voices i can hear them, papatayin nila ako, anong gagawin ko? "Eresh go to your room" "You idiot, wake up" " Wag kang mawawalan ng pag asa hija" "Baby" i close my eyes Im tired i the voice paulit ulit, nakasasawa na...

Really, don't let it. Sob. Please save me from a position whatever happens. I want to be myself and nothing else. Safe me!