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While on my way here I walked past people who were living their own hells whether it be heartbreak at losing their home, car, personal and precious items or even god forbid their family or friends. Their troubles are so much worse than mine right now and for that, I feel like I'm acting like a shitty human. I'm here feeling sorry for myself while others have got it so much worse but still, I can't help how I feel. Everyone has struggles no matter how big or small and no one should be judged by them. Everyone's feelings and lives matter regardless of if they are worse than someone else's.

"Congratulations, Shawn. You finally got what you wanted. You hate Queenie, and now she's going to stay away from you." Finally, after all these years, they said one thing that I agreed with. There were only hours left before my flight. I checked my phone. "Is there anything else? I have to go." I told my mother I would be alright. "Just have your dinner, Mom." Shawn wanted to come after me, but Helga held him back. She said softly, "I know saying goodbye is hard, but you need to do this. Come back soon. I'll be waiting."

“I want to be alone. Get away from me.” My voice cracked, breaking into an ugly sob. “I want to be alone… please… leave me alone… leave me… alone.”

hoke judaa kab main jiya (how can I live separated from you) tu hai kahaan main kahaan (you are there, I am here) teri yaadon mein khoya rehta hoon (I am lost in your memories) mujhko dasti hai tanhaaiyan (my solitude hurts me) phirta rahoon dar badar (I wander from door to door) milta nahi tera nishaan (yet I don't find any sign of yours) hoke judaa kab main jiya (how can I live separated from you) tu hai kahaan main kahaan (you are there, I am here) tu jo judaa ho gayi (as you separated from me) teri sadaa kho gayi (your hope sound is lost) dekh le phir zindagi (look how my life again) haa kya se kya ho gayi (has changed from what it was) jab se bichdi hoon

Dahil kung pipiliin ko ang manatili na lamang dito hanggang sa susunod pang mga taon ay tiyak kong wala akong magiging magandang kinabukasan, sapagkat palagi ko na lamang naaalala ang aking mga magulang. In everything I'm doing, I always end up remembering them. How of them left me alone without anything. They left me hanging in this life I'm in. Without anyone I'll be with. Masakit para sa akin ang umalis dito, ngunit alam kong wala na akong ibang pagpipilian pa. The best choice that I have, is to leave this place and find another one that can make me forget every bad things that had happened here, even just for a while.

My mother's remarks were like a broken record that was playing in my mind multiple times. "You love yourself, Astra." I said to myself, giving comfort because of this fck situation of mine. I walked from nowhere. It was like I was none of myself. Later on, I saw an available bench. It's also lonely. Hence, I went there and gave my baby bench a companion. Heck. I am very close to craziness. "I'll live on my own already.." I just realised how difficult it is to live by yourself. No other companion and no one is willing to help you.

I know you've got the best intentions Just trying to find the right words to say I promise, I've already learned my lesson But right now, I wanna be not okay I'm so tired, sitting here waiting If I hear one more "Just be patient" It's always gonna stay the same... So let me just give up So let me just let go If this isn't good for me Well, I don't wanna know Let me just stop trying Let me just stop fighting I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright

Solid. “I didn’t have to find a beautiful, loving, honest woman… break her heart… and leave her a single mother, sick and confused, with my blood behind.” Silence filled the room. “And I still made myself into something…” I finished, my voice quiet but cutting, “…you can never dream of having.”

"I just didn't write my name. I couldn't reveal my feelings back then…" As she spoke, tears ran down her cheeks. I turned my face away, refusing to look at her. "Just go, Lauren." She shook her head stubbornly. "No, I won't… You're the man I've loved for ten years. If I leave now, I'll regret it for the rest of my life. I'm sorry. I know I'm twisted and too proud for my own good. "Everyone said you weren't good enough for me, so I couldn't show my feelings. I was afraid they would find out…"

But I’m going to stand by something my gran said to me… To thine own self be true. I don’t know what James will give up to make us possible. But if he can’t let go of the world that keeps breaking us, then I’ll let go of him. I’m not afraid to be alone. But I want to move forward as me. I will not compromise on that again.