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My power. I’m not waiting for anyone’s love. My name is Calista, And I belong to no one but myself.

Mapait na lamang akong napangiti dahil doon. Dahil alam kong katulad din ni tatay noon ay iniwan na rin ako ni nanay. Kung noon ay ramdam ko ang pag-iisa hindi dahil sa kakulangan ng presensiya ni nanay, ay iba na ngayon. Dahil ngayon ko lubusang nararamdaman na walang-wala na ako. I know that this day will be the start of my journey in this world, alone. There's no one that I can lean on to. No person that I'll be able to hold on whenever I'm in pain. There's no one. No one but myself. Alone.

My mother's remarks were like a broken record that was playing in my mind multiple times. "You love yourself, Astra." I said to myself, giving comfort because of this fck situation of mine. I walked from nowhere. It was like I was none of myself. Later on, I saw an available bench. It's also lonely. Hence, I went there and gave my baby bench a companion. Heck. I am very close to craziness. "I'll live on my own already.." I just realised how difficult it is to live by yourself. No other companion and no one is willing to help you.

I can’t count on others, after all. ‘I need to deal with this myself.’

I know you've got the best intentions Just trying to find the right words to say I promise, I've already learned my lesson But right now, I wanna be not okay I'm so tired, sitting here waiting If I hear one more "Just be patient" It's always gonna stay the same... So let me just give up So let me just let go If this isn't good for me Well, I don't wanna know Let me just stop trying Let me just stop fighting I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright

“Just leave everything to me.” .................

A sin I can’t stop myself from committing. ***

My lips dry and tears threatening to fall. "Just leave me alone."

I can do this right I can be with all of them, I can be enough for them. "Yes"