Should I Give Up Or Should I Keep On Chasing Novels & Stories

Looking confused, I asked, “ What is that?” “ Howard University. I kept failing their exam despite all my efforts. It’s my dream school.” I chuckled at his serious face. Sometimes he looked cute, sometimes he looked scary. “ Well, I would advise you not to give up. Why don’t you try again?” “ What? I said I kept failing…” “ It doesn’t mean you should give up. Why would you even give up on something you failed once?” “ Not once, but twice.” He rolled his eyes, tired of arguing already.

" If you want Chase, you go out there and get him. Fuck society and fuck whoever out there that thinks you shouldn't be with the man you're in love with because of their biased reasoning. You love someone, you sacrificed for them. Chase is good, you said that too. So why give him up because your job doesn't want you to be with him?" God why is she always right? I love my job. I've always loved my job. It's the first thing I enjoyed doing. I loved teaching but it can't be compared to my real job. If I want to be with Chase, I'll have to give up my job. Fuck, this is difficult. " Can I keep both? My job and Chase?" I ask. My friends chuckle. " You know that's impossible. If you truly want Chas

He stood right there for a few minutes, staring at the door and he realized that he won't be boarding that night! ******* "Hey man! You should try and sleep now, yeah? You'll still have another chance! But, will there really be another chance?! I don't trust mother right now!" "She really likes her, and I can see it clearly. What if she decides to stop the whole process?" "Oh, man! Oh, my God! This is not right! I can't think this way…" "When did this start? Chill Nathaniel! Relax..." "Motherrrr?!"

" ''No…. it's because he doesn't know the truth" "And you obviously think he would believe you even if you tell him?" "I'm praying towards that" "I understand, it's normal for you to run away from reality" She took my two hands and rub them affectionately "I'm not trying to make you to be like me, never…..I just don't want you to lose yourself chasing what is not meant to be….listen what will be will be and what will not be won't be. You don't have to hold on for so long, try your best, put your all give everything you can and when it's not working like you want it to, just walk away…it's better to walk away with full flesh, than to stay looking like a shadow of your own self"

Most days, I try to put what I learnt into practice but I end up doing the opposite, sometimes I cry other times I spaced out and on rare occasions, I get depressed. Today is the day I give up on this dream of mine. I've made up my mind to let go of my long years of never ending dream. I mean, there's no point in holding onto what would never be yours, right? I realized from experience that we don't always get what we want. Some of our dreams would probably always be dreams. I've hold onto my dream for over fifteen years and I've watched many like me fulfilled theirs. I've watched their candle lights glowing brighter whilst mine became more dim. Now, I can't dream on forever, right??

Wrong. “Now, now, where are you going? Running isn’t the answer. I know it’s the easy thing, the obvious thing. But stay and face this, together with them. Don’t run Cade. If they have to find you it’ll be worse … well I’ll be the one chasing you so just don’t,” Chase said, practically throwing himself across the seat to snatch my wrist. I flopped back into the seat, damn he’s quick. Too quick, I gotta remember that.

I'm sure late fees are collecting on all of the books I probably still haven't returned to this day. Quit, quit, quit. It seemed like a bad habit of mine, to give up, as most would.say. And then Id always ask myself, wouldn't I be a bigger fool if I stayed? If I clung to something that didn't make sense? Something that wasn't my world? Dancing, soccer, writing, all had the same thing in common. They didn't bring me to life in the way that I needed.

To come so far only to be disappointed, It makes you feel like everything was a waste, right? It makes your entire being fall into misery, right? But here is where lies the most important decision Do you just let everything go and fall? Or Do you keep going? The feelings of despair overwhelm you and perhaps you really don’t have an ounce of motivation left to walk further, But, Does it not cross your mind, that if you keep going, maybe you’ll find something more?

I was just chasing a dream at this point. And it was a dream that I needed to stop chasing. Me and her didn’t stand a chance. That ship was well and truly sailed. I couldn’t keep watering dead soil, I couldn’t keep torturing myself with the possibilities of what we could have been… I needed to move on. I needed to fucking move on…

Knowing well that I don't even have a slim chance at getting what I want, I continued trying stupidly till now, I am at the end point. Should I continue with this act to make it right? Or should I risk it all?