You Bleed Just To Know You're Alive 소설 & 이야기

The white suit I wore got soaked into blood as I fell on the ground. Tears never stopped falling like it was the end of the world, I want to give up on living, I don’t want this anymore and neither do I think I can live like this. I hate to be aware about the fact that I can’t die because I really want to die now.

Amway is serious, that's why he and Alex were so similar in many ways. “You cried,” he said simply. The honesty of it made something inside me crumble further. “I did.” My voice was barely a breath. “Good.” My brows furrowed. “Good?” He leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “It’s better than holding it in until it poisons you.” His gaze softened. “Pain is meant to be felt, Katherine. It’s what reminds us we’re still alive.” I looked down at my hands, twisting them together. “Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel at all.”

Blood starts flowing rapidly and soon I'm in a pool of my blood. I guess I couldn't take much of the pain, so I passed out. T.b.c. . .

his words rattled through my skull, how did he know, he cant see me from behind the door, and just like he read my mind he responded “I can smell your blood” I started wondering if dying would be a better option, I’m quite sure I am bleeding out anyway. I pushed myself up off the floor, not really knowing what I was going to do, still watching the blood seep out of me, I started making my way to the bathroom on very wobbly legs, trying not to fall and climbed into the bath, slowly feeling myself slipping away, it was for the better right?

"Yes?" "You are bleeding." ~~~~~

Some of them were old while others looked fresh. Without wasting another second, I cut myself. It was not deep enough to kill me but just right to breathe some air in me. The moment I watched the blood drip onto the white washbasin, I inhaled sharply. Yes, this is what I needed. This is what I exactly needed. I glanced at my reflection in the mirror one last time as I had managed to defeat the urge to die once again and continued to watch my own blood. "It's my own blood that makes me feel alive, You damn whispers."

It felt like my heart had been wretched out of my body. “Why reveal this to me now?” I asked. “I need your blood to survive, I am sick and your blood is the only thing that has kept me alive all this while”

I was losing a lot of blood. I knew I needed to stay alive, at least, for Jacey. I felt guilty. I couldn't stay alive for long as I had lost a lot of blood. Everywhere got blurry and I blacked out as I could still hear echoes and the sounds of sirens.

The memory crashes into me—the pain, the tearing sensation in my chest, the blood. I press my hand against my chest. My shirt is stiff with dried blood, but the bleeding seems to have stopped. "I'm... alive?" I whisper. "Unfortunately." He shrugs. "But since you are, I'll spare you. Consider it a mercy from me and the goddess." Mercy from you?! I almost laugh, but I'm too exhausted.

White and black filled my vision. "Endure it a little more." Conrad's cold voice made goosebumps settle on my skin. "Ugh! My throat hurts from screaming. And tears kept flowing at the side of my eyes. The moment I looked down, realization hit me like a truck. "Why am I...b-bleeding?!" Dark red oozed out of me like water from a broken pipe. The white bedsheet is now stained with my blood and my previously lilac nightgown cannot be recognized by it's soft color anymore.