You're So Far Away From Me Romane & Geschichten

“You’ve been really distant lately, like you don’t want to touch me, or be close to me. Are you getting tired of me?” I ran a hand through my hair “Can you stop imagining things in your head?” I tried to keep my voice calm, though I was annoyed. “I’m not distancing mysel… okay, well yes, I am distancing myself from you, but it’s not because I’m tired of you. It’s because I have more important things to do.” She blinked at me, unimpressed. “More important things?”

“WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO ME?!” Raina just smiled. “Because it’s fun watching you suffer.” “Really? Really?” I said, backing away like they were both possessed by some giggling demon of drama. “I need to move far away from you girls. Like spiritually, emotionally, geographically. I need distance. I need sage. I need new friends who don’t laugh while my life burns.” Raina tilted her head, still chewing her gum like it was popcorn, and Zia was just beaming like I’d proposed to her or something.

"My being near you is driving it, but proximity works both ways. You aren't unaffected by this. I know you aren't." "No," I said. "I'm not."

“You should have told me what was happening.” I shake my head. “You were too far away.” “I would have come for you anyway. Distance doesn’t matter Lily. If you ever need me, I will be there for you.”

But for you I feel that the more I stay away from you, the more fine you are I don't understand my feelings for you as much as you try to get away from me. I look more attracted to you. I do not understand. Whenever I see you, what happens to me. I forget everything I never worry about anyone in the whole world. But your breath would make me restless too. A strange fight is taking place in my feelings. In which my defeat is certain. I am afraid no matter how much I try. To stop you, but one day you will leave me and go. That day I don't know how many more pieces I will disintegrate?

I lie, but the tears don’t stop. “Talk to me,” she pleads, and I shake my head, despite knowing she can’t see it. “It’s just… I miss you, and being this far away is harder than I thought.” The words tumble out, part truth part-lie. She exhales softly. “We’ll see each other soon, babe. Just hold on a little longer.” “I know.” I bite my lip to keep from crying harder.

I felt like it was time. “Ma? You’re not playing?” I pursed my lips and prepared myself. “Nena, I have to tell you something.” “Tell me what?” She rolled the dice and looked at me. “Mmmm.” It was a bit hard to bring it up, “Let’s just say I won’t be able to meet you again.” “What’s that supposed to mean?” She tilted her head. “It means…” I paused and collected my words, “I’ll be going somewhere far far away.” I gulped, “Somewhere where I won’t be able to meet you again.”

With every beat of my heart you are and you are still the one I love Lucas. I can't lose you in my life! I still keeps loving you until the end. I still longing on your love Lucas. I know you will still love me until now. I know your heart has not forgotten. So I hope until now. My heart continues to love every single day. Even if we are far from each other. But I haven't changed. My feelings for you have not changed. Lucas, you are still the one who kept my heart. It hurts to walk away from your side Lucas. It hurts not to see you. Every second hurts me. Let me love you Lucas even you're far away.

"What? who is jealous? i was not jealous, why would i be jealous? i said quickly. Then my phone rang, it was Serena. "Hyy, I did not hear back from you, I was worried" said a worried Serena on the phone. "I am sorry, I should have called but It skipped my mind" I told her. "It is okay, where are you by the way? Are you back home? She asked. "Well not yet" I said. "What? What are you still doing outside by this time? She asked. "Well, I am at a diner with Vincent" I told her. The end of the line was silent and I had to check if the call was cut off. Then Serena screamed loudly that I had to shift the phone from my ear before she damaged it.

I just about managed to stammer out, "It's too far ... I don't feel well ... I can't leave the house ... "If you're worried about being lonely, why not invite your sweetheart?"