Zdzisław Beksiński

O arquirrival do meu tio salvou minha vida duas vezes. Na primeira, foi no mar — um naufrágio, ondas violentas. Ele surgiu pilotando um jet ski e me tirou da morte certa. Na segunda, eu fui enganada. Puseram algo na minha bebida. Desesperada, dormi com o homem dez anos mais velho do que eu, o lendário herdeiro de Solmaré, Lourenço Monteblanco. Depois daquela noite intensa, o antigo mulherengo finalmente sossegou, e passou a ser só meu. Ele registrava, uma vez após a outra, meu corpo entregue ao desejo. Meu rosto queimava de vergonha, mas por dentro eu sorria — embriagada pela doçura de ser amada. Até que, do fim do corredor, vieram vozes soltas e sujas... — Lourenço, você tá se divertindo até demais, hein? — Aliás, imagina o Gilberto Marques sabendo que a sobrinha dele tá sendo comida há três anos pelo inimigo dele?

Saat longsor salju di arena ski, aku didorong ke bawah oleh adik sepupuku sendiri, Julia Luandi.Kekasihku, Billy Juman, menggendong adik sepupuku, lalu membalikkan tubuhnya berjalan pergi begitu saja. Dia bahkan lupa bahwa masih ada aku yang terkubur di dasar salju, meninggalkanku sendirian selama tujuh hari di lembah. Saat mereka menemukanku, Billy berkata dengan emosi, “Seharusnya kamu bersyukur kedua lengan Lia baik-baik saja. Kalau nggak, kamu mesti mati di gunung salju ini untuk menebus kesalahanmu!” “Pernikahan pada seminggu kemudian dibatalkan. Kapan kamu menyadari kesalahanmu, kapan kita adakan pernikahan kita.” Tadinya Billy mengira aku akan menangis dan merengek lantaran tidak menyetujuinya. Namun, aku hanya mengangguk dengan perlahan. “Oke.” Billy tidak tahu aku telah melakukan sebuah transaksi dengan Dewa Bulan. Enam hari kemudian, aku akan menukarkan barang paling berharga bagiku, yaitu cinta dan ingatanku terhadap Billy. Mulai saat ini, aku akan melupakan semua tentang Billy, lalu memulai hidup di tempat baru. Menikah sudah tidak penting bagiku. Siena yang mencintainya itu sudah meninggal di dalam gunung salju.

“MATE!” “NO!” “I didn’t ask!” “Still No, my mate killed me long ago.” Silence… “You killed your mate?” “No!” “Aw! I got a broken doll! “ The smug bastard grinned. -- Mallory´s life didn’t go as planned, even after she believed her true fairytale had started. Betrayed, beaten, and broken beyond repair, she welcomed death when it finally came. The moon goddess granted her a new life, a choice. She chose to remember. Haunted by her past and trauma, she devoted her life to *unalive* the worse criminals, humans, and shifters. Working for the council, she managed to keep running from her nightmares. Suffocating the pain and panic attacks by escaping into subspace, guided by Mr. Bear’s firm hand. Love is not in Mallory´s world; she doesn’t want it. Don’t deserve it, and the mere thought scare her to the core. Why would two mated males have such care for her? Why would another claim her as his? She doesn’t recognize them as mates—any of them. But that doesn’t seem to scare them away. Reverse harem, BDSM, revenge, trauma, triggers! Torture, human trafficking +++ Not a beautiful romance but a dark romance with lingering trauma.

A doomsday blizzard hit just before Christmas. The zombie virus exploded. Our fortress was a top-tier ski resort. Now, it was about to fall. My husband, Ethan, was a former Navy SEAL. Our head of security. He swore his defense system was foolproof. The blizzard knocked out the power. But he’d sent all the backup generator fuel to the summit. Just to light up a Christmas tree for Chloe. He even had a few guards up there with them, throwing a party. In my last life, I fought him. I herded everyone into the last bunker. But Chloe whined. A crowded Christmas was boring, she said. She stormed out of the safe room and ran right into the jaws of the horde. Ethan carved a path through the horde to secure the walls. Then he sat in silence, cradling Chloe’s bones. He pretended he wanted to start over with me. He let me get pregnant with his child. The day I gave birth, he knocked me unconscious and dumped me into a nearby zombie nest. He always rescued me just before I died. He’d inject me with a serum that kept me from turning. Nineteen times, he threw me to the zombies. I died in agony as they tore the flesh from my bones. "If you hadn't sabotaged my defenses," he’d hissed, "if you hadn't crashed our party and led the horde right to us, Chloe would still be alive!" I opened my eyes. I was back. Christmas Eve.

That winter, the Silver Moon Pack holds its annual ski hunt. An avalanche strikes without warning, and the three of us are trapped in a lift pod. There's only one thermal suit left. My mate, Ryan Mercer, gives the thermal suit to me. I survive, but his childhood sweetheart, Eve Hurst, is buried forever beneath the endless white of the mountain. No body is ever found. However, he gazes at me with devotion and says, "Celine Bartlett, you are the love of my life." I soak in those words, believing them. But I have no idea this is the beginning of my nightmare. For the next five years, he speaks to me only with cruelty. "You killed Eve. You're a murderer!" He locks me in the basement and whips me with lashes soaked in wolfsbane. Then, he pretends to show pity and feeds me with a silver fork. When I refuse, he stabs me with silver nails across my legs, carving deep red lines into my skin. "This is what you owe her, and you will repay it!" When I ask for a reject, he stabs a silver dagger into my chest, dragging me into death with him. When I open my eyes, I find myself back on the day of the avalanche. This time, I hand the survival gear to Eve without hesitation. This time, I owe her nothing. And now, I want to see whether they will get their happy ending without me around.

On the tenth day after I perished in the avalanche, my husband finally remembered me. His first love was suffering from aplastic anemia and urgently needed a bone marrow transplant—one that only I could provide. He came home holding a donation consent form, ready for me to sign, only to find the house empty. Kelly leaned weakly against him. "Vanessa must really hate me. She doesn't want to donate her bone marrow, so she ran away on purpose, didn't she?" "Maybe we should just forget it," she sighed. "I can hold on a little longer." Caden gently comforted her, his heart aching. "I won't let anything happen to you." "It's just a bone marrow donation. It's not like she'll die from it." Then he pulled out his phone and sent me a message: [No matter where you are, come back immediately and sign the donation consent form.] [Don't be so selfish! Kelly is seriously ill. If she doesn't get a transplant soon, she'll die. It's just bone marrow—I'm not asking for your life!] [If you keep refusing, I'll stop paying for your mother's medical bills!] Caden… I died the moment you walked away from the ski resort with Kelly. The avalanche buried me and our unborn child beneath the snow. My mother, in her desperate attempt to save me, was torn apart by wild wolves. How could you not know?

Saat pemeriksaan kehamilan di rumah sakit, aku bertemu dengan mantan ipar yang sudah lama tidak ketemu. Dia melirik perutku, lalu memarahiku sambil cemberut seperti yang biasa dia lakukan. “Umur sudah segini, masih saja belajar kabur sambil bawa janin? Bagaimana kalau kamu menyakiti cucu kesayangan Keluarga Raiz? Bisakah kamu lebih bijaksana? Jangan buat kakakku terus mengkhawatirkanmu.” Tetapi mungkin dia lupa. Setahun yang lalu, ibuku sakit parah. Satu-satunya keinginannya adalah melihatku menikah dan punya anak. Aku mempertaruhkan segalanya dan melamar Aryan. Di hari pernikahan, aku menunggu sepanjang hari, tapi hanya menerima pesan suara tiga puluh detik. “Aku tidak akan pergi ke pernikahan dan aku tidak akan menikahimu. Ini hukuman untukmu karena telah menindas Farah.” Ibuku yang marah karena sikap Aryan yang sembarangan, terkena serangan jantung dan meninggal dunia. Setelah mengurus pemakaman ibuku dan membuang semua yang tidak perlu, aku meninggalkan Kota Daro dengan membawa barang-barangku yang sedikit. Aryan masih di luar negeri bersama Farah, bermain ski bersantai. Tetapi sekarang mantan ipar berkata padaku, “Kakakku habiskan sebagian besar waktunya pergi ke luar kota setiap bulan untuk mencarimu. Berat badannya hanya 75 kg dan turun 10 kg dalam waktu kurang dari setahun. Dia selalu menunggumu. Kak Rumi, sekarang karena kamu sudah kembali, jalanilah hidup dengan baik bersama kakakku.” Aku tersenyum lembut, mengangkat tanganku yang bercincin. “Maaf, karena aku orang yang sederhana, aku tidak mengadakan pernikahan besar, jadi aku tidak memberitahu kalian.”

Au moment de l’avalanche à la station de ski, j’ai été poussée par ma cousine Camille Dufour. Mon fiancé, Antoine Lacroix, a pris ma cousine dans ses bras et s’est détourné, oubliant qu’il y avait quelqu’un comme moi enfoui au fond de la neige. Je suis restée seule au fond de la vallée pendant sept jours. Quand il m’a retrouvée, il était furieux : « Heureusement, les bras de Camille vont bien, sinon tu n’aurais qu’à mourir dans cette montagne pour te faire pardonner ! » « Le mariage dans une semaine est annulé, et il n’aura lieu que quand tu te rendras compte de ta faute. » Il s’attendait à ce que je pleure, que je me roule en boule et que je sois en désaccord. Mais je me suis contentée de hocher la tête en silence : « D’accord. » Il ne savait pas que j’avais passé un accord avec la Déesse de la Lune dans la montagne. Six jours plus tard, je lui remettrais ce que j’ai de plus précieux : mon amour et mes souvenirs d’Antoine. À partir de ce moment-là, j’oublierai tout ce qui le concerne et je recommencerai à zéro. Peu importe que je me marie ou non. La Chloé Gerard qui l’aimait est déjà morte dans la montagne enneigée.