LOGINKael’s condition was deteriorating more frequently because he still couldn’t come to terms with the situation he was facing. Without his sight, Kael felt completely useless in this life.
Eira patiently cared for Kael despite being constantly subjected to insults and abuse from her husband. Sometimes, Eira had to lie to Kael to get him to eat so he could recover quickly.
“Kael, your condition will get worse if you don’t take your medicine,” Eira told him.
“So, if I take the medicine, will my sight come back?” he replied sarcastically.
Eira let out a long sigh. She’d run out of ideas on how to persuade Kael. Not only was her own body growing weaker, but she also had to constantly care for Kael, which left her many times more exhausted than before.
Even without being reminded, Eira hoped for Kael’s recovery more than her own. She’d forgotten the fact that her body was in pain because she wanted Kael to live a healthy life again.
“Isn’t this what you want, Eira?”
Eira looked up slightly at Kael’s face.
“I know you’re actually grinning from ear to ear seeing me in such a terrible state, aren’t you? You chose to watch my mental crumble instead of just killing me outright.”
That accusation was nothing new to Eira. She knew that everything bad that happened to Kael would be blamed on her as the source of the problem—even when she hadn’t done anything.
“I’m sorry,” Eira said.
Eira was also tired of apologizing for mistakes she hadn’t made. She was too weak—that was what she realized when it came to Kael. Her soul truly seemed designed to submit to Kael.
Suddenly, Kael let out a small laugh. It wasn’t a laugh because something was funny or meant to be mocking. His laugh was strange—it sounded like someone angry in his despair because he could no longer express himself by crying.
“Why are you apologizing, Eira? It won’t change anything,” he said softly. “At least I made you laugh out loud, even through my suffering.”
“I’m not happy about your suffering, Kael.”
“Don’t lie, you bitch! Doesn’t this mean you can have fun with so many men? Lucas, maybe?”
Eira lowered her head. There it was again—the same old topic. She was so sick of it. Kael’s accusations against her were endless, without even trying to find out first what had actually happened.
“I—”
“Excuse me.”
Eira’s words trailed off when someone knocked on the door. She turned and immediately saw two unfamiliar men standing in the doorway, dressed entirely in black.
Eira’s gentle gaze shifted into a protective mode. Her crystal-clear eyes flashed, causing the two men to swallow hard—their faces filled with fear. Fear of the curse Eira might carry and pass on.
“Excuse me, Ma’am. I am an advisor from the Valerius Clan.” One of the men introduced himself, showing the clan’s symbol on his palm.
“Come in!” Kael immediately invited them in upon hearing who had arrived.
Eira stepped aside slightly to let the man who had approached Kael pass. Meanwhile, the other man waited outside, clearly uncomfortable with the way Eira stared at him with her crystal eyes, which never dimmed.
“Is there a problem with the clan?” Kael asked, breaking the silence.
“No, sir.” The man pulled out a scroll and unrolled it.
“I’ve come on behalf of the pack of the Valerius Clan. The fact is, the entire pack has rejected you as the Alpha Leader of our Clan. Because clearly, we can’t expect anything from a blind Leader.”
Silence.
Kael never imagined he’d find himself at his lowest point as the Alpha Prince of his own Clan.
Yes, Kael had been cast out.
Eira, who heard this, was also deeply shocked; she hadn’t expected the Advisor to say it so bluntly—without choosing words that—at the very least—wouldn’t cause Kael pain upon hearing them.
“Do you think that just because I’m blind, I’m also deaf and paralyzed?” Kael’s voice was slightly strained as he held back the emotions boiling at the back of his mind.
“It’s not like that, Sir. But the leader of the Valerius Clan is the embodiment of the Moon Goddess’s perfection. So we’ve chosen Lord Lucas to be our leader.”
CLANG!
Kael swept everything off the bedside table in front of him, sending it scattering across the mattress and onto the floor.
“Sir—”
“GET OUT! YOU'RE DONE HERE, AREN'T YOU? SO GET OUT OF HERE!” Kael shouted—his hands groping around in every direction, searching for something he could throw.
A commotion broke out. Kael’s rage took aback the advisor. Though his eyes were still covered by gauze, his wolf fangs and claws emerged as the muscles in his jaw and hands tensed.
His rage was on the verge of boiling over.
“I was just saying—”
Eira touched the man’s shoulder to silence him. “Mr. Kael has heard it all. Leave, before he kills you,” she threatened.
Hearing that, the advisor chose to back off. Kael’s screams could still be heard even after he was quite a distance from the door to Kael’s hospital room.
Eira tried to calm Kael, who continued to rage and scream, venting all his frustration. It got to the point where Kael tried to shred his own neck with his long fingernails.
“Kael, no!” Eira stopped Kael’s hand.
“Why? You want to see me suffer and die, right?! If you don’t kill me right now, I can do it myself!”
“I’ve never wanted you to die, Kael.”
“Liar—”
“By the Moon Goddess, I don’t want that!”
Kael suddenly stopped when Eira began shouting right in his face. They were incredibly close right now—their noses were practically touching.
Kael’s heavy, short breaths hit Eira’s face roughly,
“Because I can’t live without you,” Eira said honestly.
“Oh, is that so?” Kael replied, running his fingers over Eira’s face for a moment before his hand moved to wrap around her neck—choking her.
“Fine, if you can’t live without me, then the only way is for you to die, you bitch! Because I can live without you!” he said, tightening his grip on Eira’s neck.
Kael meant what he said. He was so kind, doing everything Eira asked. If Eira said she didn’t want to see Kael, then Kael wouldn’t show his face. He listened to everything she said, hoping Eira would open her heart.Deep down, Kael still strongly believed that Eira might actually still love him. She had lost trust in him, so he was trying to regain her trust.“What kind of dress do you want for our wedding, Eira?” Kael asked on their way home.Kael always made a point of picking Eira up from work so she wouldn’t have to go home alone late at night.Sometimes Eira refused, but other times she accepted when she felt afraid to walk far by herself.“Anything. I’m not picky,” Eira replied without taking her eyes off the road.Kael let out a soft sigh. It turned out that Eira’s indifferent attitude actually hurt Kael’s feelings. Yet he couldn’t complain. How could he complain when his own behavior back then had been far, far worse than Eira’s attitude toward him now?“I think… there’s no ha
["Eira Crystalclaw."]A stir rippled through the crowd when Kael announced the name of the person destined to be his partner—a revelation broadcast live across the entire city.Eira had experienced this scenario three times before: once ending in marriage to Kael that lasted until her death; once being paired with Lucas because Kael had altered too many events after gaining a second chance at the past; and once again with Lucas—after she had finally traded away her capacity for love to the Moon Goddess.Eira truly desired no changes to her destiny. That was why she didn't even react when her name was called as Kael's destined soulmate.She had bartered away her love to secure a second chance at life—a chance to relive the past, but devoid of any feelings of love for anything or anyone.That was why the Hanahaki disease refused to leave her body; she had forcibly sacrificed her emotions. Even without that, the only way she had survived previously was through Kael’s love—a love for her
Eira stared at Kael with an expressionless gaze. She felt no anger, even though she knew everything Kael had done to her right up until the end of her life. Even now, just thinking about everything that had happened, there was no longer any pain gnawing at her soul.Everything felt fine—very fine. Flat.She had not the slightest desire to give vent to feelings of sadness, anger, or anything else.Her feelings were growing increasingly numb.“Forgive me for everything. I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness after all I’ve done. But please… at least accept my apology.” This was the first time Kael had truly set aside his sky-high arrogance in front of Eira.He truly humbled himself until his voice trembled, his gaze dimmed, and he bowed his head, not daring to meet Eira’s eyes. Like a dog that lowers its ears and tail because it knows it’s guilty.Eira let out a soft sigh, without saying a word. Right now, she didn’t want to discuss anything with Kael at all.If only her life were stil
They never spoke to each other...Kael returned home empty-handed. Eira acted as if they had never had a relationship; to make matters worse, just as Kael wanted to say more, he was swarmed by apartment residents, shocked to see him visiting such a run-down, shabby building."Has Eira really forgotten everything?" Kael muttered softly.Something didn't add up. Based on the memories he had received from his future self, he knew full well that any attempt to alter the past could cause memory corruption in the people around them.Kael stared intently at his calendar.The year 2019.In his previous life—or rather, in the first timeline—this was the year he had loathed Eira more than anything else. Yet, ironically, it was also the year they had interacted the most.Even after the future Kael returned to the past, he hadn't tried to change much about 2019. He lived in confusion, grappling with the chaotic memories of his two souls."Doesn't that mean next year was supposed to be my wedding
[Don't kill Eira again. I beg you... I have no more chances to go back to the past. Everything depends on you...]The voices from his future self made Kael's head feel like it was about to split open."I know! Shut up, damn it!" Kael shouted, violently pounding his own head.He collapsed, struggling against a suffocating tightness in his chest that refused to subside. The mere thought of how terribly he had treated Eira caused his body even more agony. Kael didn't truly understand why this was happening.His emotions were in turmoil. It felt as though thousands of hot needles were piercing his body whenever he recalled his past actions—and the memories his future self had imparted to him.Sensing light trying to creep in through his closed eyelids, Kael snapped his eyes open and found himself curled up on the cold floor of his home."Eira..." he whispered, trying to call out to her, believing for a moment that she was there.There was no response. Only silence mingled with Kael's soft
There was no sound between them except for their short, overlapping breaths. Eira also kept her head down, as if ignoring Kael’s presence there.“Eira—”“I’m sorry, Kael,” Eira murmured. Her voice was faint, but since it was the only sound around them, Kael could still hear it very clearly.“Why are you apologizing? You didn’t do anything wrong.”Eira shook her head slightly. “I can’t repay the debt I owe for ruining your future,” Eira continued.“So, you really already knew about everything that happened?”Now Eira lifted her face and looked at Kael with a sparkle in her eyes, a faint yet sincere smile, and a posture that suggested she was perfectly at peace with what would befall her in the future—without the slightest bit of resentment toward Kael, who had destroyed everything.“It’s like a dream…” Eira’s sentence trailed off. Kael was still waiting for her to continue, but at the same time, his vision suddenly blurred.His head was so filled with the sounds of crying, regret, and







