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UNCOMFORTABLE
KIERAN
Mateo has been staying with me for the past week.
He hasn’t told me much about what happened that night – only snippets here and there. All I know for sure is that his parents found out about that he likes guys somehow. He didn’t take anything other than his phone with him, and he’s been living out of the drawer of clothes he keeps at mine. I’m not sure whether he was kicked out or if he ran away, but it’s evident that they didn’t react well. He’s not the same kind, gentle boy I knew. Something in him has broken.
The first few nights, he was distant. He acted like I wasn’t there at all – as if he was
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