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JUNE’S POV
My heart wasn't just beating; it was trying to break out of my chest. Honestly, it was a miracle Luca couldn't hear it over the bar noise. His hand was right there on the small of my back, warm and steady, and the feeling was a crazy mix of thrilling and absolutely terrifying.
And that was the problem. This guy guiding me through the crowd? He was twenty-two, twenty-three tops. My son Adrian’s age. Let that sink in for a minute. Meanwhile, I’m a forty-year-old woman whose entire life had just been vaporized a few hours ago.
I had no business being here. None. This boy with the intense blue eyes and all those tattoos was basically a walking red flag, and I was following him like I’d never seen the color red before. But the way he looked at me… God, it had been twenty years since a man looked at me like that. Like I was something to see. After the night I’d had, I was all out of reasons to play it safe.
You see, just a few hours ago, I was a completely different person. I was a wife.
FLASHBACK TO 2HOURS EARLIER..
My phone buzzed on the counter. Sarah’s name popped up, of course. That woman has a sixth sense for when I’m about to lose it.
“Are you ready, or are you still pacing the room like a lunatic?” she asked the second I picked up.
I let out a laugh that sounded as fake as it felt. “I’m not pacing. Just… finishing up.” I slid into the red silk dress I’d bought specially for our twentieth anniversary, smoothing it down over my hips. You know, the kind of thing you hope makes you feel powerful.
“You’re terrified,” she said, and I could literally hear the smirk in her voice. “June, it’s Franklin. You’ve been married to the man forever. Why are you acting like it’s a first date with some random guy from an app?”
“Because I need it to mean something, Sarah,” I confessed, struggling with the zipper. “He’s been buried in work. I don’t even know if he’ll care.”
“He’ll care,” she said, like it was the simplest truth in the world. “You’re going to walk in there and he’s gonna see what he’s been missing. He’ll melt.”
Her faith was enough to get me to tuck his gift, that stupidly expensive leather watch he’d pointed out, into my purse. Maybe, just maybe, tonight would fix us.
The elevator ride to his office on the thirtieth floor felt like it took a year. My heels clicked a nervous little tap-dance on the hallway tile. And then I heard it. A low, hungry moan. My stomach just dropped right out of me.
I pushed the door open. it was already slightly ajar, and I swear, the whole world just froze.
There he was. Franklin. My husband of twenty years. Bent over his fancy desk with his face buried between his secretary Karen’s thighs. She was laid out on the polished wood like some kind of prize, lipstick smeared, making these little sounds. And his hands were gripping her waist like she was the most precious thing he’d ever touched.
“You taste so sweet, baby. Better than my wife,” he muttered, and his voice was so rough with a want I hadn't heard in years. “God, I could eat you all night.”
I felt my chest actually cave in. Like, physically cave in.
Then Karen had the nerve to whimper, “Do I really feel better than her, Frankie?”
Frankie? Seriously?
He actually had the nerve to laugh. “So much better, Karen. June’s body is worn from the kids. Yours is tight, smooth. Exactly what I need.”
And there it was. The truth, landing like a punch to the gut. It wasn't the late nights. It wasn't the stress. It was me. I was "worn." A worn-out mom.
He finally saw me then. His head snapped up, his face went white. “June! What are you doing here?”
“How long?” My voice didn't even sound like mine. It was hollow.
“This isn’t what it looks like! Please, I can explain—”
But I was already running. My heels slapped against the tile, and with every step, I felt something else inside me crack. I drove away in a blur of tears and honking horns, that anniversary gift in my purse feeling like the cruelest joke the universe had ever played.
PRESENT
So that’s how I ended up here, parked kinda crooked outside a dive bar called “The Escape.” I mean, you can’t make this stuff up, right? The drive was a complete blank. I just drove until the sharp, stabbing pain turned into this heavy, numb ache.
Inside, the place smelled like stale beer, cheap whiskey, and a hint of bleach they probably used to wipe up the despair. The floor vibrated with some old rock song, and the whole room was just a jumble of loud voices and clattering pool balls. It was the perfect place to get swallowed up. To just disappear so I didn't have to listen to my own thoughts screaming at me.
I found a stool at the end of the bar, the vinyl seat cracked and split like my own composure. I stuck out like a sore thumb in my red silk dress. It felt like a costume for a party that had been cancelled. I ordered a whiskey, neat, and told the bartender to just keep them coming.
The first one was pure fire, burning away the image of Franklin’s shocked face. The second one started to blur the edges of the pain. By the third, I was feeling floaty, like I was watching some other woman’s life fall apart.
That’s when I noticed him.
He was over by the little stage, leaning against a speaker with a guitar on his back. And he was staring right at me. When our eyes met, he didn't look away. His eyes were this crazy deep blue, the kind that’s almost unsettling. Like looking down into the deep end of the ocean and not knowing what’s down there. A shiver went right through me, and it had nothing to do with the whiskey.
I looked away fast, my eyes dropping to the tattoos snaking down his arm. My hand, just resting on the sticky bar, actually itched. Isn't that crazy? I had this ridiculous, unbidden thought: I wonder what that ink feels like.
I took a gulp of my fourth drink, feeling bold and stupid. I glanced back, and he was still watching me, a slow, easy smile on his lips. I quickly looked back at my glass, my cheeks on fire.
I didn't see him walk over. I just felt the air change beside me.
“Mind if I join you?”
His voice was low and it cut right through my boozy haze. I turned, and up close, he was just… dangerously handsome. Sharp jaw, messy dark hair, and a smile that was way too confident.
He couldn't have been older than my son. The thought was like a bucket of ice water. My stomach twisted into a knot. This was wrong.
But then his eyes did this slow sweep over me, and the horror got chased away by this electric thrill. He wasn't looking at me like someone's mom. He was looking at me like I was a woman.
“You’re gorgeous,” he said, leaning back like he owned the place.
I almost snorted. Me? Gorgeous? I was a forty-year-old woman who’d just finished crying in her car. “You must need glasses,” I muttered into my drink.
His grin got even wider. “Or maybe you just need better mirrors.”
It took me a second to get it. He was flirting. With me. The "worn-out" wife. I should've shut it down right there. But the way he looked at me? God help me, I felt… wanted. It was a feeling I was so starved for, I was dizzy with it.
“What’s your name?” he asked, leaning in.
“Uh… Lilian,” I blurted out. The lie just popped out. June was the betrayed wife. Lilian… Lilian could be anyone. Lilian could be someone who does reckless things with handsome young strangers.
“Lilian,” he repeated, slow, like he was tasting the name. “I’m Luca.” Even his name sounded like trouble.
An hour just vanished. We talked, and I laughed. I mean, really laughed, the kind where you bend over and clutch your stomach. I hadn’t laughed like that in twenty years of marriage. With Luca, I wasn't thinking about Franklin or Karen or my broken life. I was just… there.
When I went to lift my glass again, his hand caught my wrist. His grip was warm and solid. “I think you’ve had enough,” he said, and his grin made my stomach do a wild spiral.
That grin. It was playful, but there was a heavy intention underneath it. The air between us had been buzzing all night. And sitting there, close enough to smell the soap and cigarette smoke on him, I couldn't stop staring at his mouth. I couldn't help but wonder where all those tattoos led.
“Come on, let’s get you out of here.”
I nodded, probably a little too fast, and let him help me off the stool. My legs were wobbly from the drinks or from him, I couldn't tell. His hand pressed against my lower back, guiding me, and a shiver raced down my spine that I didn't even try to stop.
Outside, the cool air hit me like a slap. I stumbled on the cracked pavement, and in a second, his arms were around me, pulling me close. The solid warmth of his body was a shock to my system. My brain went to a reckless, wild place.
He was so much taller than I thought. Even in my heels, I had to look up at him.
Damn, he’s tall, I thought, and I bit my lip without even thinking.
“Did you drive here? Where’s your car?” he asked, his hand still a brand on my back.
I looked over at my sensible sedan sitting under a flickering light. It looked like everything I was running from, duty, responsibility, a life that was all a lie. I wasn't ready. Not to leave him. Not to go back to that empty, silent house.
Tonight felt like a lifeline. And I was terrified to let it go.
I looked up at this impossibly young man who’d made me feel alive for one precious hour, and I made a choice.
"I'm not ready to go home," I whispered.
JUNE’S POVI picked up the phone and dialed the first one. It rang four times before a recording picked up: office hours start at nine. I hung up and dialed the second. A woman answered, said they were booked solid for the next six weeks and to try legal aid. I thanked her and ended the call.The third number rang twice. A man answered, tired but clear. I told him the basics—twenty years married, accounts frozen, papers served last night. He asked if I could come in at ten. I said yes and wrote the address on the back of one of the legal sheets with a pen from my purse.I carried the mug to the sink and rinsed it. I set it in the drainer and headed to the bathroom.The shower stall was narrow, the water pressure thin. I stood under it until the hot ran out, then dried off with the one towel. The mirror fogged over. I wiped a circle clear and pulled my hair back into a knot. In the bedroom I dug through the box of clothes and found the least wrinkled blouse, pale blue. I buttoned it sl
JUNE’S POVThe phone kept ringing between us in the quiet parking lot. I swiped to answer and pressed it to my ear. “Yeah.”Franklin’s voice came through smoothly, almost bored. “Listen, the joint accounts are locked down as of an hour ago. Your debit card bounces starting tomorrow morning. We’ve got an emergency hearing tomorrow afternoon on the house and both cars. Thought you should hear it from me first.”I glanced over at Sarah. She stood three feet away under the buzzing light pole, smiling small like she already knew every word coming.“Go to hell, Franklin,” I said.He started to add something else, but I ended the call and slid the phone back into my pocket. My shoulder rolled once. Sarah’s hand slipped off it. She stepped back, arms crossing tightly over her chest, watching me.“You think he’s going to marry you once this is over?” I said, keeping my voice even. “You’ll always be the side piece, Sarah. Nothing more. And Olivia? You’d be wise to sit her down and tell her who
JUNE’S POVI kept my speed even as I took the turns through the neighborhood. When I rolled the window down a crack, the air came in sharply, mixed with exhaust from a bus up ahead and the smoke from someone grilling nearby. My foot eased off the brake at a yellow light, then pressed down again when it flipped to red.The big houses started giving way to strip malls and apartment blocks after a while. A vacancy sign blinked from a mid-tier hotel just off the highway. I reached back for the small duffel on the seat, the strap digging into my shoulder as I pulled it forward, then pushed through the glass doors at the entrance.The desk clerk slid a keycard across the counter without saying much. The elevator hummed its way up, and the doors dinged open onto a hallway that smelled like lemon cleaner trying to cover old carpet. I let myself into the room, dropped the bag beside the dresser, and sat down on the edge of the bed. The mattress dipped under my weight.I closed my eyes for a se
JUNE’S POVI stood in the middle of my bedroom, facing my kids. The slap still burned across my palm, like the heat from Adrian's cheek hadn't left my skin yet.Franklin leaned in the doorway with his arms folded tight across his chest. He didn't say a word, just watched."Adrian," I said, stepping one foot closer to him. "I'm sorry. I lost it for a second there. Forgive me for slapping you, okay? I didn't mean to."He rubbed the side of his face, his eyes locked right on mine. The red mark on his cheek was already starting to fade, but his jaw stayed clenched hard."But I'm not a whore," I went on. My voice came out steadier than the churn in my stomach. "Wanting a divorce from your father doesn't make me one. I'm still your mother. This whole situation just makes me a woman who's tired of bending over backwards for a man who only cares about our perfect little family picture on the Christmas cards."I shifted my weight, and the floorboard under the rug creaked once, loud in the quie
FRANKLIN’S POVI stood by the window with my arms crossed tight over my chest, the wood frame cool against my back. Adrian’s fist snapped Luca’s head sideways.The kid staggered, blood pouring fresh from his nose down over his mouth and onto the front of his shirt. It dripped onto the carpet in dark spots that soaked in quickly.The ceiling fan clicked every rotation, pushing the same stale air around the room. June lunged forward, her hand reaching for Luca. I caught her wrist before she got two steps. My fingers closed hard. She pulled once, sharp, but I didn’t loosen up.Adrian shook out his hand, knuckles already turning red. “You were supposed to be my brother, man. I let you sleep on my couch, eat with us, everything.”Luca wiped at his face with his sleeve. He didn’t swing back. Just stood there breathing through his mouth, one eye starting to puff.My gut unclenched a fraction as I watched their eyes slide off me and onto June, onto Luca.Marlene stayed near the doorway, finge
LUCA’S POVI turned the second that Marlene pushed the bedroom door all the way open. Her eyes fixed on me, wide and searching like she was scanning for answers printed right across my skin."Luca, please," she said, her voice cracking in the middle of the word. "Tell me everything they were saying… about you and Mom… tell me it’s a lie."June stepped forward fast, one hand reaching toward her daughter. "Marlene, honey, let me explain—""No." Marlene never glanced at her mother. She walked straight to me and stopped so close that the toes of our shoes nearly touched on the carpet. It swallowed every sound of her steps. "You. Tell me right now, Luca. Is it true?"Franklin stood off to my left near the window, arms crossed tight over his chest. He stayed quiet, but his breathing pushed loud and rough through his nose.I adjusted my stance to keep my balance, but I kept my eyes on Marlene."Yeah," I said. The word came out quieter than I meant it to. "Everything you overheard this summer







