Kissing Ethan

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Beautiful pearls of rain were down pouring everywhere. I have always enjoyed and cherished the earthy smell of rain. The soothing comfort that used to calm my soul before, was now making me feel pain and restless as the grey clouds stretched over the rainy sky.

I wish I had bought my favourite red umbrella. It was my favourite because it was a gift from my grandmother on my twelfth birthday.

She used to say this red polka-dotted umbrella was mom's favourite and even though mom was not with us anymore, this umbrella would always carry her essence and will protect me from the downpours.

Now I was entirely drenched by the rain, nearly shivering in this freezy weather. My quest for an umbrella went as futile as knocking on a deaf person's door. I didn't want to protect myself, in this moment, all I wanted was to protect a mesmerizing species of human who has been standing right in front of me at the bus stop, equally drenched and staring so intently into my eyes.

I wished for him to leave me alone and go away,if not for me then at least for his sake.

Watching me tremble due to the cold, he pulled his dark leather jacket out and gently wrapped it around my upper body. His warmth started invading through my frigid exterior. I should have thanked him but at that moment, I didn't.

Since when did my heart got replaced by a rock inside my chest? Maybe it was him who turned me like this.

Those sparkling deep dark pool eyes were reflecting a thousand emotions but in return mine were blank.

People were wondering what was he doing here at the bus stop, with his car being parked beside him.

But he kept all his attention on one person in particular and that was me.

"It's over Ethan, you and me, we are done."

Thud. I heard a thunder roared across the rainy sky.

"I love you, Skylar, why are you doing this to us?" He painfully whispered, making me wince.

"Don't say such words that you don't mean. To whom you are lying? "I blurted out.

"I am not lying. You would know so only if you fucking look at me Skylar! Do you think I am telling an untruth?

He was taking a step ahead, pulling my hands in his, giving it a gentle squeeze, letting me know he was still here for me.

He was trying to convince me in his way. Was he trying to convince me or is this another way of him trying to manipulate me?

I don't think my mind could comprehend the difference anymore.

No, no! I can't look at you. I don't want to become vulnerable again.

"It does not matter anymore, Ethan. You are not the one to whom I cherished and loved, You became entirely someone else, or maybe you were you but I was the blind one who failed to see you. You know what! Ethan, I don't even love you, 'cause you don't deserve it" Never in my life I had ever thought that I could lie so easily.

"No baby, you saw me! You saw directly through me which everyone failed at doing so. You can't abandon me like this, we need to talk to sort things out, can't end everything which we had built up." He spoke all those words so easily as if nothing has ever happened. I was the one crying already but I was extremely thankful for the rain which has been masking my tears, emotions and feelings.

Why now Ethan? Why could not you think about it before? Was this your plan from the very beginning?

"We are talking and now there is nothing to talk about it's you who abandoned me. I hate you" I spoke with a heavy heart, making him flinch.

I don't remember how long we have stared at each other, thinking about every moment that we shared.

All I wanted to do was to escape from him but his magnetic eyes were so connected with mine that I forgot to move and breathe.

After what seemed like an eternity, I noticed the arrival of the bus. Without breaking our eye contact he slowly leaned forward to kiss me.

Our lips were just a centimetre apart when he whispered –"Please Skylar doesn't go away from me. You are mine and only mine! I am begging you, please don't do this us."

Saying this he pulled our bodies together and placed his beautiful soft lips over mine.

This could have been very romantic. Kissing your loved one in the rain, but here we are breaking up something that wasn't even there in the first place.

His lips were begging me to not go, to open up myself, to not end this wobbling, fragile relationship that was built upon games and lies.

I was not going to back down, so I pinned my fingers into fists, resisting the urge to curl them around his neck and withstood my desire to kiss him back.

"I was never yours Ethan, loving you was my biggest mistake which I don't want to repeat. Try to forget me, cause I will be doing the same" saying this I nearly ran inside the bus, as fast as I could.

I guess this was the end for us.

The back of my hands were shaking while I wiped those damn tears that were now flowing endlessly and I was not in a state to control them.

Even though I was the one who pushed him away, my heart could not stop longing to get one last look at him.

So I peeked outside with hurtful and tear stroked face through the glass window watching him bang his fist in his car's window, shattering the glass into pieces, just like he did to my heart.

Blood was dripping from his hand but all he was not even paying attention to it. His piercing dark eyes were pinned upon me, begging me not to go.

But I did not. I could feel his pain. I hugged myself tightly, pulling his jacket around my body, inhaling his musky scent for one last time.

Tears started to overflow uncontrollably from my eyes mixed with pain, helplessness and love.

As my heart began to feel heavy and helpless, my mind started to reminisce about how it all started with Ethan, after that one kiss.