It is the day of the wedding. Josh has been off…very off…but there is no worrying about it now. Sammy and I are all over the place…Bev is having a meltdown…she is not happy with how anything has turned out…her hair…her shoes…her make-up…even the bridesmaids dresses.
Sammy ~ “Sis come! The love of your life is waiting for you!”
The ceremony was so beautiful. I have never seen Bev so happy in her life before…Ben really loves her a lot...He is the best thing that has happened to her. Just like me, she has had a string of heartaches…but Ben…he always has been the one for her
Josh held my hand the entire time and pulled me closer to him when he saw I was crying
Sammy ~ “Becca come! It is time to party!”
Becca ~ “Fuck babe, you look awesome in that dress.”
Much to my disgust, Sammy’s mom thought it was a brilliant idea to let Josh and me share the same room. I swear she and my mother are both responsible for this little setup. Becca ~ “There is no couch.” Josh ~ “I sort of gathered that.” Becca ~ “Now what?” Josh ~ “I will sleep on the floor.” Becca ~ “You can’t. It is hard and uncomfortable. I mean the floor.” Josh ~ “Do you want to create a barrier, then?” Becca ~ “Do I look like I am five?” Josh ~ “Becca just get into bed. I won’t take my boxers off.” Becca ~ “But I have to sleep naked.” Josh ~ “Fuck Becca.”
The next morning I wake up, and all I can hear is Sammy moaning…Please remind me why I let them stay over last night…I make my way down to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee…There is already coffee made…I turn back to the bedroom to pick up my phone…there is a glass of water and two painkillers next to my bed…It must be Sammy…who else would do it Sammy ~ “Hey Babe!”
Sammy is back home with Johno…they are already planning the wedding…she has some big news to tell me which she refuses to tell me over the phone so I am heading home again in two weeks.I have not heard from Josh and he has not come around to the club either…I can’t but wonder if I made a mistake…if I was overreacting…I need to see him even though we won’t get back together.
It has been a week since my disastrous plan…it did not work but I am not ready to give up yet…I thought he would call but he has not…I still refuse to be the one that gives in.Tonight, I want to wear something sexy for work.I give Sammy a quick call on my way to work.Becca ~”Hey Sammy.”Sammy ~”Hey babe!”Sammy ~”How is it going?”Becca ~”Oh Sammy I miss you! It’s just not the same anymore.”Sammy ~”Come back home Becca. What is keeping you there?”Becca ~”Josh.”Sammy ~”Then tell him.”Becca ~”No!”
I don’t know what I am doing anymore…I feel my life is totally out of control…Maybe I should move back home…Things between me and Josh are a total mess and I don’t think that a normal relationship is possible at all anymore…I really do miss him…guess there goes another failed plan. I suck at making plans! Becca ~”Sammy I am leaving now, will s
Johno has just pawned me off to a bunch of horny Strippers.Becca ~“Urgh! Johno! I am not prostitute!”I turn around.
The next morning we are woken up by a knock at the door, Sammy opens it.Sammy ~”Morning Becca. Morning Josh. Should I lock this door again or are you good?”Becca ~”We good.”Sammy ~”Good. Becca we have a bloody tea party to go to! Josh your stuff is in Becca’s room.”Becca ~”Sammy if you were not pregnant I would so punch you right now! You planned all of this.”We head up to Sammy’s room to get dressed up for the tea party.Becca ~”What is the deal with this tea party?”Sammy ~”Mom’s idea. I wish her ideas will stop! Honestly I want to go back to the city. Me and Johno aren’t happy here.”Becca ~&
It's a half hour since we have left Sammy's home. We were going to go to the city but we knew that everyone would be looking for us there. We decided to drive and keep on driving until we found the middle of nowhere. Johno and Josh has not stopped trying to get hold of us. Josh started off being nice but he is now just plain right angry.What have we done?Sammy is sleeping, she seems exhausted. I have never seen her like this. Everybody is telling her what to do. She needs to make her own decisions. If this is what helps then this is what we going to do.I am going to phone Josh so he knows that we are okay.Becca ~”Josh.”Josh ~”Becca. Where are you?”Becca ~”We safe.”Josh ~”I did not ask if you ar