Chapter 10

XAVIE

Something is wrong! I couldn’t tell what exactly it was because it was more of a feeling. Pushing the negative emotion aside, I examined my painted nails in the mirror, an activity I’ve been doing for the past hour or so in a desperate attempt to cure boredom. 

Now that it's over, I’m plugged into the reality of my life. Two weeks ago, I was getting ready to start my life with Alec and now? I’m married to someone I barely know, someone I don’t even know how to communicate with, just to get my inheritance back and have my revenge while at it. 

Blinking away the tears that blurred my vision, I stood up, twirling around when the door abruptly opened. My eyes widened as Kian strolled into the bedroom, his hands dripping with blood, before I could form words, Drake walked in after him. 

“You could have killed him Kian!” The older man snarled, looking alarmed. 

Kian ignored him, slamming the bathroom door in a way that made me jump. My eyes followed the trail of blood, my vision getting cloudy with dizziness as the sight of blood brought some flashbacks to when Annika had stabbed me. My throat closed up, my fingers gripped the wooden chair I was sitting on a while ago. 

“Are you unwell?” 

Fortunately, Drake's concerned voice was able to pull me out of that dark place. Taking a deep breath, I composed myself before answering. “I’m fine, don’t worry about me. Although, I can’t say the same for Kian, what’s up with the blood?” 

He hesitated, which didn’t surprise me. I’m familiar with the way Drake looks at me, like he doesn’t trust me, like he knows I’m hiding something. I can’t blame him though, everyone around the house excluding Hilda has been looking at me like that. I also get the feeling that Kian  doesn’t believe I hate Alec as much as he does if not more. 

“Y’know, regular Alpha duties. You look faint, you should see Hilda.” He added, leaving the same way he came in. 

Once he left, the bathroom door opened and Kian came out of it, his face dark with anger. While his hands are not clean of blood, his shirt however was a different case. I look away before I start getting dizzy again. 

When he starts taking off his shirt, I whip around, my eyes widening as I turn my back on him. A little warning would have been nice! I wanted to yell those words at him but then I remembered he couldn’t speak. Geez! I need to stop forgetting that! Isn’t it offensive or something? I hope he realises I’m not doing that on purpose… why am I even overthinking this?

I felt him behind me, my whole body tensing up in alarm, I let out a sigh filled with relief when he brushed past me to take a new shirt from his wardrobe. The silence was killing me, I dread silence and because I was usually alone back at home, I would sneak back to the main house just to watch Annika and her friends talking about random stuff so I don’t feel alone. 

I made sure not to get caught though, cause Annika would report me to her mother, who in return would‘ve punished me. More chores, starving me for days, things like that. I jumped in front of Kian when he turned to leave, almost bumping into his naked chest which caused me to take a couple of steps back. 

His eyebrow raised in question before he tried to get past me but I cut in front of him again. 

“What happened? Why are you covered in blood?” I inquired, folding my arms across my chest. 

I didn’t think his eyebrow could go up any higher but they did, almost making me laugh. He rolled his eyes at me then tried walking past me yet again, but this time when I attempted to cut in front of him, he gripped my shoulder, using it to hurl me out of his way. It wasn’t until the bathroom door shut behind him did I realize that even if he told me what’s wrong, I wouldn’t understand because I don’t know sign language! 

Determined to find out what the hell is going on, I went to look for Tint. If there’s anyone here who knows more about stuff, it has to be her since she’s Kian’s official translator. I met her outside the court, having a discussion with some of the council members. 

I waited until she was done before I approached her. “Tint, could you please tell me what happened at the meeting?” 

She glanced nervously around for a few seconds before finally making eye contact. “My apologies Luna, I can’t reveal what happened at the meeting to you as these meetings tend to be classified.” 

“I’m not asking Tint, as your Luna, I’m ordering you to tell me!” I ordered, challenging him to refuse telling me. 

Old me would have let it go, even apologized for bothering her in the first place and it’s one of the many things that was wrong with me. I’m no longer Xavie, my name is Nyx and I better start acting like it. 

“Of course Luna! One of Alpha allies has been using the pack as a passage to smuggle illegal goods and Alpha is not okay with this. He got into a fight with him and from the look of things, we might have a war on our hands.” She narrates, making me go still with shock. 

A war? I swallowed nervously, bloodshed, killing…turning away from Tint, I hurried back into the house, cursing myself for being weak minded.

It’s no wonder why Kian doesn’t trust me and if I want to prove to him that I’m in this as much as he is then I need to get my shit together and become someone totally different. Something more, something not me…something that’s going to take more than a new name to fix, I need an identity!