Chapter 4

I looked at Chadrick and it was visible that he knows why I acted like that. There was a hint in his eyes that he wanted to comfort me, but decided not to. I realized that in the span of five months he has changed. I focused on my studies to finish early, unaware that in that period of time someone was able to snatch him from me. I’m on the edged of losing him to that woman for good.

It felt like my world crumbled down in an instant. My stomach was churning and pain’s burning my chest. I couldn't breathe. I felt jealousy about his past relationship with other women but with Vanessa, it's different. I could feel that he was serious about her and worst, he will really marry her. I don't know how to move on with my life if that happens.

I looked at Andrew and requested him to walk me to the car. It could be seen easily from him that my legs were shaky because of uneasiness. He sat up and informed them that he needed to go too for he has early businesses to sort out tomorrow.

Even if he bullies me most of the time, he was sensible enough to understand what I really felt. He was aware of my feelings towards Chadrick and after witnessing tonight’s drama I know he’ll grow pity on me. 

Andrew reached for my hand and we bid goodbye to everyone. Before, it was Chadrick who offers to drive me home without a doubt, in a second. But with tonight’s case, I guess I really lost him. I felt suffocated to realize that he didn't care about me anymore because of her. 

I could feel Andrew’s concern about me. I was his loud and bubbly little sister but I looked miserable beside him. Pain, sadness, and disappointment occupied me. As we rode back home, I just looked outside my window, mind’s nowhere and in my weakest state.

When we arrived home, Andrew asked me if I wanted to talk.  I just lied to him that I’m tired but the truth- I’m not in the mood. I just turned my back at him and ran upstairs because I couldn't hold my tears any longer. The pain was eating me alive.

I changed into pajamas and laid down on the bed. The thought of Chadrick made my tears fall again. I couldn't sleep as the pang of pain throbbed my chest to the highest level. I closed my eyes and let my tears drown me until I collapsed and sleep took me away.

The next day, I woke up with heavy bags under my eyes due to last night's cry. I felt dizzy and think I’m getting a fever. I sat slowly on the edge of my bed and contemplated for a moment. I couldn’t stop my tears to drop again. I felt lazy and didn't know what to do.

I heard someone knocked on the door, “Darling, Are you awake? What do you want for breakfast?” that was my mom.

I know my parents were aware of my pain because they knew how affectionate I am to Chadrick. And with what happened last night, they know I was hurting. I know they wanted to comfort me but I preferred to be alone. 

I just told mom  I'm not hungry and will eat later. I reasoned I'm not coming out because I have a lot of reports to do and submit to university on Monday for me to be able to graduate in a month. That I wanted to focus and don't want to be disturbed. But the truth, I didn't want them to see me in this state. I'm a mess. 

After few days, I met with Bella and we sat on the bench near the stadium of our university. She knew everything that has happened to me. I couldn't hide my emotions from her and I'm comfortable opening up to her. The past few days, she was the one I kept on talking to on the phone in my room. She was there to cheer me up and I thank God I really can count on her.

“Alle, I know you’re not okay, I’m concern about you” she was about to say more but suddenly her phone rang and I motioned for her to answer.

She reached for it “Hello, who’s this? Marco? Why are you here? When did you arrive? What? Clubbing? Are you nuts? Okay fine! See you later," were her words. 

She dropped the call and faced me “I want to introduce you to someone” she excitedly informed me.

After we submitted all the requirements at the University, we decided to go on clubbing to celebrate. I needed to have some fun to divert my attention from the pain caused by Chadrick. I haven't heard any news about him because he didn't bother to message me. I'm certain he's busy with his girlfriend. 

In my room, I was getting ready at 7 because Bella will fetch me at exactly 8. That girl, she’s always on time, being late isn't her thing. I informed my parents about my activity tonight and they agreed that I should really go and have fun. Maybe I saved a country in my past life to deserve such supportive parents like them.

I heard beeps and I know the bitch has arrived. I pushed the main door and ran towards her Audi which her parents gifted last year. “Whoa! you’re hot!” You’re rocking it girl!” Bella shouted.

I was wearing a black tube dress with mid-thigh length and it really showed my curves. I let my hair down since I made some curls in the lower parts and put on makeup with my bloody red lipstick. 

I swayed on my four inches red Jimmy Choo killer heels and a small Gucci bag. I opened the car door and screamed "Let’s have fun, Bitch!" and we drove off.