ログインElisa
The sound of hushed voices woke me up.
It had been days since I saw either Lucien or the woman who inhabited the manor, and I was just left to drown in weakness and fear of the unknown.
I slowly got up from where I had been lying on the floor and crawled to the door.
As I placed my ear on the door to listen, the door opened wide with the weight of my body on it.
Hope renewed my strength instantly and scurried off the floor in a flash.
I walked the opposite way from the one I took last time, which led to the garden, and soon I was in a hallway that seemed to be leading somewhere.
“By the gods, I hope I am lucky this time,” I whispered to myself as I ignored the ache in my head and kept walking.
A noise from one of the rooms sent chills down my spine - hushed tones between a woman and a man whom I was sure was not the same man I had seen some days ago in the garden.
I rushed quickly into the slightly open door and flattened myself against the wall in the room, my heart pounding loudly.
I closed my eyes and held my breath, praying, hoping they wouldn't find me.
I released my breath when I heard the soft click of a lock. I let out a sigh of relief and opened my eyes.
The sight struck me and my heart skipped a beat.
The room was dimly lit with candlelight that cast dancing shadows over a wall. It smelt of paint and old blood.
Also, I felt this heaviness, this ache in my chest, which I knew was from the atmosphere that filled the room.
There was a painting on the wall, and I approached it to see what it was.
It was a painting of a faceless girl reaching out to touch a grotesque monster.
The candlelight flickered, and I froze. My hands shook.
I stepped away from the painting, one step back after the other, breathing heavily.
Canvases leaned against the walls. Animals, strange creatures, faceless figures.
What have I gotten myself into? What did that mean?
I needed to get away as soon as possible. I had to leave.
My hands shook as I reached out to grab a candlestick. I steadied it, trying to calm my nerves.
Could this be the room…where the rituals happened?
I didn’t want to find out.
I grabbed the candlelight and turned towards the door. A scream got caught in my throat, and I took two steps backwards when I saw the shadow standing in the doorway.
Lucien.
He wasn't the beautiful man I'd seen the last time. His eyes glowed like red-hot coals, and his beautiful face had contorted into something menacing and blood chilling.
“ What are you doing here again?” He growled.
I shook, “ I…Lucien I…”
He took a step forward into the room and stopped. I was too shaken to even take another step.
It was almost like he was glitching, half human, half beast. And he was struggling, trying to keep his rage under control.
His rage, his pain, somehow I could feel it.
Could it be that the room was somehow controlling him?
I looked around for a weapon but couldn't find one. He took another step towards me and stopped.
Maybe somehow, he could listen to the voice of reason.
“ Lucien. It's me, Elisa. Please I…I stumbled in here… I didn't mean to…”
“ You're not supposed to be here, Elisa”.
Since he got my name, he still glared at me with that glazed look of a predator locked on its prey.
“ Lucien, I know, but you have to listen to me”.
This was the moment I hoped that sneaky Yennefer would show up, although I hated her. He wasn't listening to me.
“ Lucien, please listen to me”.
He was transforming now, claws jutting out of his fingers, and he suddenly grew bigger with hair all over his body.
His face contorted into an ugly-looking beastly form, and he snarled at me, his eyes glowing bright red.
Oh! He was the monster. He had always been.
My legs finally moved, and I took a step backwards. Was this my end?
“ You're not supposed to be in here”, he said again with a voice that clearly wasn't his.
It was loud, guttural, and raw.
“ I am sorry, please forgive...”.
“It’s too late”, he snarled again even before I completed my statement. And took a heavy step forward.
I looked around the room again, my heart racing. There was nothing, nothing I could use to defend myself that was in reach.
Suddenly, he charged at me, and I closed my eyes, raising my arms to shield my face.
I willed my body to move, but it clearly resisted staying rooted in the spot.
I heard him scream and howl in pain, and I opened my eyes slowly. He was on the floor, a few inches away from me, writhing in pain and groaning.
He was glitching again, caught in the middle of human and beast. I'd never heard a cry so heart-wrenching.
I stepped backwards in relief. I'd escaped death again.
I was just going to hurry out of there and shut myself in my room. It was safer there.
But as I made my way around him towards the door, I heard my name.
“ Elisa…please”.
I turned back to look at him. Clearly, this room affected him.
Was that why he was so mad earlier when he saw me, or could it be more? What could I do for him? I felt his pain so much that it broke me.
It felt as though we were going through the same nightmare at that moment, even though he was the one writhing on the floor.
I remained where I was and merely stared back at him, not sure what I was supposed to do.
He was becoming weaker, as though something was tearing him apart from the inside.
The beastly face had gone, replaced with his face. His black eyes held so much pain that I couldn't even bear to look at him.
“ Elisa, please”.
“I don’t know what to do?”
He shook his head, and another loud, chilling groan escaped from his mouth.
Damn that Yennefer. Where were these people when you needed them?
I panicked, thinking of what to do.
Then I saw it. A red glowing light, like a small flame, on his chest.
I moved closer to him before I even had time to think about my own safety.
I let myself touch his skin, and as my fingers traced the edge of the mark, the flame disappeared until it was completely gone.
My body became even weaker as the hole sealed up, and it felt like a lot of energy had been taken away from my body.
I slumped beside him, and in my almost unconscious state, I saw him lean over me and try to raise my head.
What was this curse, and why hadn't all the sacrifices ended it? It was slowly tearing him and the village apart.
“ Elisa…” he said in a low, breathy tone.
The room suddenly stilled, no more full of that tense, choking energy. The candlelight flickered, and I felt another presence in the room.
I held my breath; maybe I was imagining things. Everything that had just happened was beginning to play tricks on my mind.
Right behind Lucien, I saw him.
A man in a long black robe, its cowl drawn up to shadow his face.
I felt his eyes on me like a curse, and Lucien was too worried about me to even notice.
I saw him raise the cowl over his head just before I passed out.
And then darkness, like a spell, seized me.
Elisa…The coming days did nothing to make me feel better about myself.Even when I found out the girl was still alive, but gravely ill.And like a punishment for my own crime, the next few nights tormented my body in a way I had never experienced.My body burned with fever, leaving me to sweat all night and shiver all day like a wet leaf, in winter.It didn’t help that the nightmares were back - incoherent faces that told no real tale but snippets of a danger I was already living in.“I told you you needed to get out of that gown. You haven’t even seen a thing yet. I wonder how you will survive the field in the coming days,” the girl said to me one night when I shivered so badly that I kept throwing up.Everyone had moved as far away from me as possible, as if I carried a curse they didn’t want to share in.They would rather move to the feared end of the room than come close to the sickly girl who was touched.I pretended not to hear what she had said, even when I wanted to ask her w
Lucien…I found her…I found her crouched in the garden over the swollen earth that marked my parents’ graves.She had her back to me as she bent forward on the grave and did something I could not see from where I was.I stood there for what seemed like an eternity and wondered what to think, what to do.I had never allowed anyone around their graves.It was the only thing in my cursed life that I could still guard with jealousy as only mine. A sacred space I alone had shared with them since I was born and old enough to understand a few things.Watching her kneeling there like she was in her own space, too, unsettled me in different ways.It annoyed me as much as it melted my insides.But I just couldn’t let her in yet.No! I wasn’t ready to share that part of my life yet, no matter how empty it was.“W-what are you doing there?” I finally asked after what seemed like an eternity of standing there and watching her move, but not enough for me to see what she was doing.She turned slowl
Elisa…Long after the whole cell had gone silent, and the small light from a window very high in the wall had disappeared, I felt a hand jab me abruptly from my sleep.I wouldn’t even call it a normal sleep when I could still feel tiny worms in my stomach eating me up from the inside, since they haven’t had any food.I jerked awake instantly and looked into the darkness at no one in particular.The hand jabbed my side again, and my weak, hungry heart began to beat rapidly.I thought of the women at the far end of the room.Had they noticed how weak I was during the day and decided I could be a good meal?I opened my mouth to scream, but only a whimper escaped my mouth, and a hand suddenly closed my mouth.There was no strength left in me for a struggle, but my hands still tried to fight back.“Shh,” the voice was so close to my ears, and my heartbeat slowed its pace.The hand finally came off my mouth at last, and in its place, a fishy smell hit my nose, and finally my mouth.I didn’t
Lucien…‘Son of Thorne, the last great son of Odin…’The voice was loud and shook the whole manor like an earthquake…Or was I somewhere else?I was surrounded by darkness and lightning, with an ominous red ball in the sky, casting eerie shadows over the empty land around me.I turned around, still standing at one spot, and tried to recall the last time I had heard that voice.‘You are still a long way from becoming a man, but still too close to losing your youth,’ the voice echoed, and I stopped moving and just stared straight into the sky, as if what I was looking for was in there.“Who are you?”‘I am your father, and your father before you,’ the voice seemed to be standing in front of me at some point, then beside me, and then far away from me.‘I am you, son, ’ it came from behind me this time.“Then why don’t you show yourself?” Kieran growled from within me.I was beginning to wonder if it was one of my nightmares or if I was really awake.Then how did I get here?‘I see you f
Elisa…There was no use in fighting anymore.I staggered back weakly as I watched one of the guards raise the serving spoon and hit it loudly and continuously on the pot, announcing that the soup had finished.I watched aswomen mumbled but stayed around, still waiting for something that might not come.I wanted to stand and wait too; maybe there was just a little more.But I was so far behind to even hope for a tiny leftover.I staggered back to the end of the room, wishing I had not even left my spot in the first place.My body slid down the wall slowly, and my legs gave in before I could position myself well enough to sit.I leaned my head against the wall, listening to my stomach rumble with emptiness, and my body slowly jerking with pain and desperation.I will be dead soon.I can see it all so clearly now.There is no way I will survive another day without food.Those flesh eaters will have me before the guards do, and there was nothing I could do about it.I shut my eyes and wis
Elisa…Days passed.Days that dragged on like decades, and it was during that time that I realized why many of them were quiet, while others forced me to remain quiet.It was due to hunger, and the strong sea wind that sometimes swept into the darkness and swallowed away every last drop of energy in our bodies as it tossed lifeless forms left and right in the room.I sat at the same corner of the room where I had been since the first day I was brought in, with my head hanging weakly against the wooden wall.It was the safest place to be, at least.Each time the wind came, I only had to hold on to a hanging chain from the wall until the wind stopped.Once, my hand had slipped from the slimy chain, but was held back from flying to the other end of the room by the young girl who remained close to me.Her weak frame had held on tightly to my hands until the wind subsided, and in between that moment, tears had slipped from her eyes, from the unbearable pain of holding on to me.One woman b







