I shouldn’t be here. Looking up at the sky, I saw the full moon and felt her presence. I wasn’t controlled by her light as the common, simple minded wolves but my father’s blood still coursed through my veins. I felt her pulling me closer and closer to my destination, urging me to break down and run as a wild animal.
Shaking my head, I tried to refocus my thoughts. My father had just died. It wasn't time for being wild. Entering werewolf territory meant I needed to keep my wits about me. On a good day wolves hated outsiders, tonight if I looked at one the wrong way they’d have killed me for sure. A vibration in my pocket prompted me to unlock my phone. Latharn, my one friend left in this world of course was reaching out to make sure I was okay. All good on the dog front? Smiling to myself I answered. The dogs seem to be well trained tonight. A howl from an alley caused me to turn quickly. Two humans, fully naked, the man on top of the woman, thrusting into her were clearly not caring about anyone seeing them but then I realized why. All around me groups of varying numbers were getting together to gyrate and fondle each other. Guess I had spoken too soon. One thing I had known about the wolves was their inability to keep it in their pants during the full moon. Their blood ran hotter than normal during this time as their goddess in the sky beckoned them to procreate. How fortunate, then that I took more after my mother. She was a kitsune, a fox of mystic and magic. Rather than run wild and allow herself to be controlled by the moon, she maintained control over her senses. My father told me stories about her all the time. Unfortunately, all I had to go on were memories from my father. She had died giving birth to me. Now… I sighed. The one connection I had left to knowing her was gone. The real reason I was here was now crossing my mind. My father’s last request. Six months ago, he had passed, and only now was the lawyer going to share his will. Luckily for me I was able to take a few days off work. Apparently my father had a substantial estate here, or rather his family did, and I needed to sign some papers to either accept it or release it to the next of kin. This was werewolf territory first of all and second of all it was over two states over from where I lived. It took half a day to get here. If I accepted whatever this estate was, I would have to move here, find a job, and deal with the local social life. Those inconveniences alone were enough to reject whatever I was left. I had begged and begged my lawyer to do this either by proxy or through the mail but of course no one in this primitive town was answering any sort of communication. Rather than allow this back and forth to continue, I took it upon myself to come here with the paperwork necessary. All I needed to do though, was find who was next in line after me and transfer everything to them. It would be quick, easy, and why wouldn’t they want it? Originally, my plan was to take this journey during the new moon, the wolves would have been at their weakest and less rowdy and I wouldn’t have to see far more of them than necessary. Unfortunately, my job took on a few new clients and told me they could only afford for me to go on vacation now. So here I was walking the streets of this den of debauchery. Luckily my father’s cousin was easy enough to find. Rosetta Wallace, owner of the bar Howler’s Place. She was the only person on my list so I hoped she was cognizant so I could find out who needed to get ownership of this mystery estate. Tomorrow I’d go see it and take pictures to show this next of kin tell them it’s all theirs and then next day be on my way. The smell of piss and barbeque filled my nose as I continued down the street. This wasn’t looking good for my destination. The bars here looked more like the skeezy biker bars a woman of my standing should never even think of going into. It was a tiring secretary job that forced me to network with the elites of society so being around the underbelly of this backwater town caused me to grind my teeth. It was the middle of the summer and I had been travelling, so I was wearing comfortable clothes. Gym shorts, running shoes, and a tank top. My long black hair was pulled up in a high ponytail. The humidity was terrible and keeping my thick hair off my neck was key. Even now, while the sun was fully set the air was like hot soup. The bar came into view, but it was of course where far too many male werewolves were hanging out. They were crowding the front door joking, pushing each other, half of them on the verge of shifting. I could hear it in their voices the closer it grew to midnight the harder it would be for any of them to maintain their human form. I saw my chance when two particularly insecure wolves started growling as if they were about to start fighting to sneak past and enter. The scene inside was not much better but at least in here they were all focused on the bar. A few tables to the side were neglected and that was perfect for me while I assessed the situation. An older fair skinned woman with greying hair cut that was cut short was taking charge behind the bar barking orders at a few other girls who were dressed to show off their assets. The men were clearly enjoying the show, hooting and hollering, waving money in the air; their extra tips were surely going to be what got the girls to come over."Fuck you boys!" The grey-haired woman called out over the crowd, "You keep your filthy hands to yourself tonight."
I rolled my eyes at the display and decided to sink into my seat pulling out my phone and earbuds to listen to music. I was getting over-stimulated here, and I needed to relax. I wasn’t normally controlled by the moon but tonight something inside of me was wanting out. Maybe it was the fact I was so close to so many wolves? It didn’t matter. I closed my eyes and allowed the classical tunes to lull me into a sense of false security.
The old wood decorations smelled like stale cigarette smoke and the dated cowboy decorations were old stretched leather. I would have given anything to not be here right now. If I could be back at my apartment in front of my fireplace, reading a book while it rained. Being by myself was always the preferable option, at work I was wuiet, out in groups I was too chatty. Being alone I felt like myself again, just be and the book I was reading. No obligation to anyone else and that was the most freeing feeling in the world. Even Larthan knew I hated crowds. He was great at making sure to always be the buffer between me and other people. Larthan wasn’t here now, though and I was becoming far too aware of someone looking at me from across the room. He was tall, towering over every other man at the bar by at least a head. His skin was tanned and he had several scars all over his body. His outfit of choice gave away his werewolf nature: black tank top, jeans that were slightly baggy and ripped in several places. His black hair was shaggy but was still short, just barely falling into his eyes. Those eyes were what had me. They were a piercing blue that seemed to glow as he stared at me without blinking. He was seeing me as if I were the only thing on his mind. I didn’t need to be his choice for the night. Judging by his looks alone, I’d say he never had an issue with finding the perfect partner for the evening. That physique meant he could scoop me up with one hand and hold me against a wall- NO! I shook my head, casting the moon goddess’s thoughts as far from me as possible. She was trying her hardest to get me to submit and I had to admit throwing this delicious building of a man in my path was well played. I had one trick up my sleeve that I wasn’t supposed to use too much, as it made me extremely exhausted but if I needed to do it, I was prepared. He took a step toward me, and I saw my chance as someone passed in front of him, cutting off his line of sight only for a moment, but that was all I needed. Kitsune: one wonderful power we all had was the ability to create illusions. My own personal one that I had perfected through the years was turning invisible. It didn’t work on other kitsune, but other kitsune were never the issue. Hiding from everyone else was what I needed. Kitsune knew to leave each other alone, we were loners by nature. I snapped my fingers, setting the illusion into place. I had about an hour of alone time where everyone in the town wouldn’t be able to see me. The thought brought a calmness to my soul as I finally settled back down to relax. I didn’t care to continue to look at the icy stare of the stranger. He was old news anyway. The crowd was starting to thin and eventually I’d be able to talk to the employees here or hopefully the owner. I reached back into my bag and pulled out a book flipping to my marked page. I’d check on the crowd again after a few songs. Right now was meant to help me relax. That’s when I felt a tap on my shoulder and looked up seeing once again Mr. Icy Stare.So is this what it looks like to have control? He sniffed at the phone once more before looking back at me. “I got upset.” I shrugged and finally was able to make it back to my feet. “Clearly.” Elias was sitting on the chair next out of view. I was actually thankful he maintained a bit of modesty. “I really don't want to hear it right now.” I sighed falling backward onto the bed. “What do you want then?” He was sitting so far from me on the opposite side of the room looking back at me his head cocked to the side. “I don't know.” I did though, I wanted what I couldn't have. I wanted my god to answer me and to stop the goddess from trying to control me. “Get up.” Elias ordered and walked back out to the balcony. My eyes couldn't help but follow him. “What?” Sitting back up, I forced my eyes to only focus on the back of his head. That exposed backside though, that was daring me to look more south. “I thought I was giving orders here.” “Get up, shift into your fox and follow
I told her something that no one else knew. As I descended the stairs I threw the thought and emotions from my mind as much as possible. Leaning on the doorway into the kitchen I saw Andre trying to dry the dishes as Oliver was scrubbing the last of the pots. “You can help you know.” Andre called from over his shoulder, “Did the queen find her accommodations satisfactory?” “She doesn’t like when you call her queen.” I laughed and pushed myself into the kitchen to lean on the island in the center of the room. It was a massive kitchen built to feed a huge family but in the last few decades hadn’t been used for more than a few people at most. The cabinets were filled with boxes of random things rather than dishes and the pantry was barely stocked with food. Rose had preferred to stock her bar over this place anyway. “Do you really think she’s going to try to take back everything?” Oliver looked back to me. “The Argents are going to fight that.” I shrugged, “They’ve been over ex
After dinner I followed Elias up to the bedroom that was going to be mine for the foreseeable future. I looked at the various paintings and pictures that were on the wall, clearly near original to the house. Farmers and their families, large families. Families that just continued to grow and grow as each woman had five kids and they all have five kids. Then all of the sudden it just stopped as we neared the top of the stairs. There was an old picture, not nearly as old as the others this one had color to it and wasn’t browning. There were three kids in the picture they were hanging on each other and looked like they had just gotten back from some camping trip together. Three kids, out of all of those people three kids were all that were left? “Something wrong?” Elias turned back to me as I paused at the last picture. “Is this my dad?” He moved over my shoulder and looked at the picture. “I think so, looks like Rose in the middle, that’s Andre’s dad, Claude, on the left.
“Deserve it?” I laughed back wiping the tears from my face. “The only thing I deserve is to be alone. I don’t deserve any kindness your pack has to offer.” They aren’t offering it. Elias whispered and I felt a daring rumble of a growl in his chest, I’m ordering it. You owe this pack, and me nothing. I owe you a new life and happiness. Please let me give it to you. Tell me how I can make it right? It was almost ethereal the way the moon shined through the trees raining light down onto Elias’s back. It looked like it caused him to close his eyes and I felt him relax. The truth was it couldn’t be made right. If we could go back in time so that none of this happened then everything would be fine. Reflexively I started to stroke his head. My hand rubbed backward patting down his ears further causing him to flatten out. Looking down at him I couldn’t help but see him in his human form. That black hair carelessly hanging just barely into his face. Damn, he was attractive even in my mem
I jumped back to my feet quickly and snarled with as much of my pure wolf hatred I could at the two of them. Who’s watching Freya if you’re both here? Wow, Oliver looked to Andre, I guess we really messed up leaving the future of our pack completely alone in that house with no one to watch her. Andre nodded and answered back sarcastically, we’re absolute idiots it would seem. Then he turned back to me with an eye roll, Rose and her are talking so just relax okay. We’re going to have a serious talk now. That is if you can catch us. Oliver laughed and darted off to the left as Andre took to the right. Seriously? I yelled back to both of them, we’re not kids anymore this is ridiculous! That’s when Andre came at me once more from the side crashing into me. He didn’t send me flying back since I was ready but he knew he hit me right where that monster had left its mark hours ago. Run, I growled and gave him a three second head start. They met back up together at the edge of the
I was the reason her life was ruined. She wasn't wrong, I could have let her go. Why was it so hard for me to let her go? Why was I allowing my goddess to convince me to treat her this way? Maybe she was right, my goddess wouldn't have wanted this for my mate. I left through the back door making sure to throw the clothes I had borrowed onto the bench in the mudroom. I jumped from the backporch onto the ground landing as a wolf. I knew these woods better than anyone, I spent more time here than the average pack member at least. I just needed some time away. I found it easier to think as a wolf the world was less complicated. 11 years ago -Elias I hadn't made it far, I didn’t know which direction I was going and I didn't think it mattered anyway. It’s not like I had anywhere to go. I think Lucien was certain he had found a loophole to making Oliver alpha and he was fine if I never came back. He could tell them I ran away and all of the sudden I wasn’t anyone’s problem anymore.