Triggers

I wake up screaming my lungs out. Ang walks in glaring at me. “Are you going to scream every night and wake up the Alpha every time? You’re really making me look bad here Akira.” He looks down at the book on my lap as catch my breath. “The Moon Goddess? You read about the Moon Goddess and you’re screaming your head off still? You seriously have some prob-“, “Don’t you dare finish that sentence Ang,” I cut him off before he could go on and trigger my anger more. “Ang?” He questions. “Yeah stands for Asshole Night Guard,” I say as I make my way over to the sink to grab my water and chug it down.

He’s weirdly silent after my explanation of his new name so I turn around to realize he’s not there and it’s Noah in his place. I freeze for a second, trying not to make it obvious, I blurt out, “Good morning Noah,” he tilts his head at the sound of his name. “Akira” he tch’s his tongue again, I may be starting to like that too, I feel like it means I’m in trouble and it gives me a thrill. “Is it also a human habit to walk naked in front of unmated males?” He asks. I look down, I’m in a seamless triangle bra and a thong. Oh shit, I forgot I ran out of clean pjs and just jumped in bed like this too tired to think about the morning. “How am I supposed to know who’s unmated? Plus this is kinda my bedroom,” I argue. Water spills from my cup as I try to drink it since my hand is slightly shaking with nerves. I put down the glass to hide the evidence of my hand and wipe up the trail of water that was running down my chest. Noah’s quiet, just watching. Star is annoyingly purring and her emotions are spilling into mine. I suck the water off my finger making direct eye contact with him the whole time. He stalks closer, quietly, eyes never leaving mine the entire time and my emotions suddenly change to fear.

My nightmare coming to real life in front of me and I stumble back into the wall, visibly shaken and scared. All I can see are red glowing eyes in place of Noah’s. He stops quickly and raises his hands up, clearly noticing my change in emotion. “Akira, you don’t need to be afraid of me. I won’t hurt you, I came to check if you’re alright. I can hear you every time you scream,” he tries to explain but it’s not working, “little wolf reach for my feelings, you’ll feel you’re safe with me I promise.” I pause for a moment and do as he said, I reach for his emotions and feel them, I grab onto it.

He feels calm, safe, peaceful even and aroused. That sparks me back to life quick and I let go. I start to breathe again not realizing I ever stopped. He walks up to me slowly and puts his hands on my shoulders comforting. My hands instinctively reach for him but I put them back down before I touch him. “It’s okay little wolf, you’re safe,” he says looking me in my eyes and I see his beautiful blue ones. “What happened just now?” He asks me. “My dream last night. The man who attacked me, he was in wolf form stalking slowly towards me, and I froze. I guess I just felt like I was back in it and when I looked into your eyes all I could see was red.” His brows furrow and let’s go of my face. “My eyes aren’t red Akira,” he’s confused and I understand, “I know they’re blue but I just, I don’t know I was scared and I guess I just saw it because that’s a big part of what’s been haunting me” He still looks confused, “Akira,” he pauses, “my eyes aren’t blue, they’re black” he backs away a step. My eyes go wide, now I’m confused. I take a step closer to him so I can clearly see his eyes. “Noah, they’re dark, like really dark, but they’re blue. Like the deepest part of the ocean. They’re so deep someone could just jump in and get completely lost in them trying to chase the blue desperately, forgetting to even come up for air.”

He smirks, “I think that’s the nicest thing you’ve said to me yet.” I try to hide my smile and I step back, “don’t get used to it,” I tell him walking away, shamelessly flaunting my best assets. Stars purring erupts, “Cut it out!” I whisper to her but again I’m too distracted to realize I said it out loud.