Vivian's Awakening

Jordyn was excited to go back home for the first time since she lost her family to a rogue attack. She had been taken from the eclipse pack when the shifter council got word of what had happened. Since her parents were the alpha and luna of the pack, Jordyn’s little brother Steven was next in line but since he died alongside their parents when he was only four years old, Jordyn was the next in line to be alpha.

Since Jordyn’s family died unexpectedly, she had none of the training it would take for her to become alpha, and the fact that she was female didn’t help matters at all. There had never been a female alpha wolf before, it was completely unheard of, but the shifter council stepped in, training her to be the alpha she was born to be. Seven years passed by as she trained, both physically and mentally, day and night until they said that she was ready to take her place as the alpha of the eclipse pack.

She brushed through her brownish-red hair at least a million times before she felt that it was good enough and just pulled it into a messy bun.  She was nervous and giddy as she packed up her belongings and took them to the car. Jillian and Jade waited by the car as Jake sat in the driver's seat, impatiently tapping his fingers on the steering wheel.

Jillian blew a bubble with her gum as she twirled her long, wavy blonde hair around her finger. Her bright blue eyes met Jordyn’s violet ones and she smiled brightly as she pulled the gum back in her mouth with her tongue. 

“Hurry up.” Jade yelled, her shoulder length dark hair was only half put up and her copper colored eyes showed no emotion, although when you looked at her twin brother you could tell that they were both sad that Jordyn was leaving.

“Come on, Jade, you can’t act like you don’t care about her leaving.” Jake peeked his head out the open window of his black mazda.

“I can, and I will, even though we all know it’s a lie, I just can’t believe that Jillian gets to stay.” Jade huffed.

The rest of the council, Jason, Greg, and Leon, stepped out of the large cabin and said their goodbyes, each of them reminding her of a few things from the years of vigorous training before she finally slid into the car. A lone tear slid down her cheek and Silver’s voice rang out in her head. “Are you scared?”

“Why would she be scared, Sil, she has us.” Vivian answered the question before Jordyn had the chance too.

“Why won’t you just tell us what you are already, Viv.” Silver shot back impatiently, her eyes darkened as she argued with the voice that had no form yet.

“Are you alright?” Jillian asked, breaking Jordyn from the argument going on in her head.

“Yeah, Vivian and Silver are just arguing again.” Jordyn answered with a forced smile.

“Well if it’s anything like the last time, I agree with Silver, Vivian should just show herself already.” Jade chimed in.

“Jordyn, are you excited to go home?” Jake asked, looking at her through the rearview mirror.

Jordyn stared out at the trees that she should be familiar with, considering that they bordered her pack lands, but she barely recognized the tall redwood trees. “I don’t know.” she finally answered, feeling her heart beat so fast that it might as well have jumped out of her chest.

“What if you find your mate?” Jillian asked, getting more excited with every word. Jillian was just a few years older than Jordyn, she was sweet most of the time but she was a force to be reckoned with. She earned her spot on the council with blood, sweat, and maybe even tears, whereas Jake and Jade had their spots handed to them when their parents were killed in a rogue attack similar to the one that Jordyn’s family was killed in. 

“What if the pack isn’t ready for a female alpha?” Jordyn returned.

“You’ll prove that they need you.” Jake answered calmly. “Whatever happened to that beta of yours that used to drop by all the time?”

“He said his father had him taking over the beta position since he had turned eighteen.” Jordyn answered. “Which meant that he had to cover for me.” The guilt was apparent on her face.

“Jordyn, it’s not your fault, you were never trained to be an alpha when your parents died. We did what was best for the pack.” Jillian tried to be comforting.

“I know.” Jordyn answered as she sniffed the air, smelling a musky sandalwood scent that had her heart racing more than before as they drove through the town of the eclipse pack.

The smell got stronger as they neared the mansion that she vaguely remembered as home. Silver was going crazy, basically scratching at the inside of her head, begging for control. Jordyn barely waited for the car to stop before she got out, but the look on his face made her freeze up and take in his image one more time. His light blonde hair barely reached his eyebrows with waves that almost looked like he forced them, but she knew better his hair had always had that wavy almost messy look since she could remember, but his gorgeous dark blue eyes showed exactly what was about to happen. She took the last few steps toward him as if she was walking the executioner’s block.

“Bastian, you knew, didn’t you? That’s why you stopped coming to see me isn’t it?” She barely held back the tears.

“Jor...” He ran his fingers through his hair, seemingly frustrated. His dark blue, almost grey eyes finally came to meet hers. “We’ve been best friends since we were pups. I fully intended to be your beta, Jordyn, you know I love you…”

“Just fucking say it Bast.” Silver was howling in her head, a howl that Jordyn hadn’t heard since she saw her family brutally murdered. ‘Silver it’s going to be alright.’

“I can’t be with a female alpha…”

“Sebastian, just say it, quit making it harder.” She hadn’t realized that the tears had escaped her hold on them.

“I, Sebastian Collins of the eclipse pack, reject you, Jordyn Rayne alpha of the eclipse pack, as my mate. I Surrender my title of beta of the eclipse pack along with my duty to the pack.”

“Wait, what do you mean you surrender your duties, Sebastian, you can’t just leave.” Jordyn begged, trying her hardest not to drop to her knees from the numbness that she felt through her entire body.

Sebastian stepped forward and wiped the tears from her cheeks, kissing her forehead, ignoring the tingles that she knew they both felt. “If I stay, it’ll torment us both.” He stated as he hiked the bag he had packed on to his back.

Jake and Jade stepped out of the car, growling at Sebastian as he walked past them. Jillian rushed over to Jordyn and ushered her inside the house with her arm around her waist, as if she knew that Jordyn would need steadying. “Are you okay?” Jillian asked.

“I have to be.” Jordyn returned, feeling more numb than she ever had before. She felt like she could physically feel her heart breaking and her body being crushed. It took all of the effort that she could manage to not start throwing up from the pain she was feeling.