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I don’t get to respond.His hands comes up to my shoulders, spinning me around to face him. Hands snaking around my waist, he pulls me even closer to himself. “Stop me if you don’t want this…” he whispers in my ear. He traps my ear lobe between his lips, a shiver runs through my body.I place my hands on his shoulders in a futile attempt to push him off. I can’t, or more like I don’t want to. He kisses my earlobe- full on sucking the sensitive skin.My body shies away from the onslaught of pleasure that thrums under my skin, his hands land on my butt, pulling me back to himself. My hand immediately lands on his hand, trying to wiggle my way out of his hold, the only part of me that recognizes that I shouldn’t be enjoying this. Ignoring me, his mouth moves to my neck. Tracing an invisible line on my neck, sucking on the skin, licking. My knees are weak, trembling.I feel so many things I have never felt before. “If you want me to stop, use your words.”I can’t even form words.

I don’t have to answer.A noise coming from the front door drowns the noise of my heart rattling so noisily. Someone was trying to get in. Pushing him behind me, I crouch down, ears perked up, listening for any sounds, any sounds at all. “You are so cute.” he chuckles in my ear and steps right past me.He walks confidently to, his hands in his pockets, not slightly disturbed by the fact that someone might have just broken in. “What are you doing? Don’t just walk in like that!” I whisper, rushing to stop him.He halts and sighs,“Someone ruined my moment, you think I am just going to let them get away with it?”Are you kidding me? His face was splashed on the news, everyone knows what he looks like, they are trying to find him and this is what he says? “This is not some painting you have to steal. They could actually kill you!”The thought of it fills me with so much dread that I push him behind me again, whilst listening to what part of the house they might be. They most likely he

My head is spinning with all the questions I have.Everything falling into place now with what I know now. But I need him to say it, no speculations, just him admitting to everything. “Is this part of some big picture? What is going on? Why am I here exactly? What is going on? Why do you trust Jake and Kelly but not the rest of the team?” The burning question on the tip of my tongue is, why me? Preparing everything for me, following me everywhere, meeting up with my now ex girlfriend… It feels weird to call her that, but it never felt right calling her my girlfriend. “And why did you prepare everything but clothes in my size?” I narrow my eyes at him.He lets out a breathy laugh.“I’ll get clothes for you tomorrow.” Kelly says from the doorway.Slightly startled by his voice, I had forgotten he was here. I am glad I didn’t lay on Jesse’s body like I wanted to. “Why? He is fine in these clothes.” Jesse defends.I regret asking that question now, knowing Jesse, he would focus on that

Sliding my foot under his, I push his foot, spreading it apart, fingers work too, grabbing his collar, and I flip him, dropping him as gently as I can. Then pretending like my toes and arms weren’t tingling from where our lips met, I do my own victory cheer for my imaginary audience. “I won.” I say, clearing my throat my eyes avoiding the general direction of his face.From below me he scoffs, then pulls my leg until I fall squarely on top of him. A small yelp slips through my mouth as I come down on his hard body. “I forgot how extremely competitive you can get.” he says, his words vibrating through my body in a delicious hum.Trying and failing to get out of his hold, he switched our position so he is above me, and with nowhere else to look, I look away from his face. “You didn’t pass out this time.”I remember distinctively when he slipped his hand behind my waist, holding me up just in case I fell. He thought about me passing out in that split second, when all I cared about w

“YOU!” I say, hiding my blush.He laughs, but doesn’t stop stripping, I try turning around and he catches my shoulders, forcing me to turn to him. “I don’t know why you are so shy about this, guys do this with each other.”I had never heard of this, so I narrow my eyes at him.“What? Why?”He shrugs, kicking off his briefs. I don’t dare look down. I keep my eyes stapled to his.“If you made friends at the academy instead of sticking your nose so far into your books, you would have known. But straight guys do this all the time with their friends.” I still feel uneasy. Then I glance at the door, where Kelly was sure to be waiting for us outside. “Don’t do it with Kelly, or Jake or anybody else!” he says.My face flames, I clear my throat.“I wasn’t planning to, neither am I planning to do it with you. But you said it’s a friendship ritual, those guys I am friends with, you on the other hand.” He waves me away.“I don’t want to be just your friend anyway. And just so you know, if y