Always On My Mind Novels & Stories

And after a long time, I decided to fight in the ring for today's matches. I have been fighting in every freaking round just for my mind to focus on the fights and not on a certain someone who occupied my mind ever since I met her. I don't know why I'm thinking about her, I just met her a few times then why? I never think about any woman who I sleep with, it's just one night. Then why is she playing with my mind not even doing anything at all? I am trying so hard not to think about her but it's like every time I try to forget about her, everytime her smile, her eyes and her lips and every damn thing about her plays in my mind.

(AMELIA) My mind is heavy and filled with a severe amount of thoughts bubbling in my head concerning Mr Mitchell. I can't even begin to tell or explain the amount of trouble coursing through my system right now. I am restless and extremely inappropriate in my position thinking thoroughly about how I managed to get myself into this mess.

Is it wrong? She's always been on my mind now that she told me she doesn't wanna see me. It frightened me that I may not be able to see her again if it isn't about work. She invades my mind like a permanent boarder of an apartment, she's there right when I wake up, when I take a shower, get dressed, at work, at the club, before I sleep, I also see her in my dreams, or when I'm with friends or with other women, she is stuck inside my fucking head. She is all I think about and I am going mad because I am going crazy because of her! I wanna see her so badly but she doesn't want me to.

I have no television to watch during my spare time but that’s what made me busier in day time. But, no matter what I do I always think about him. Demir was still in my head no matter what I do. I tried to cope my mind by being busy all the time but whenever I was about to pause for a while he came in my mind like he’s here with me.

After all, it’s been nearly two hours since I sat down at my desk to work, yet I haven’t done shit in those hours. I can’t stop my mind from thinking. I had a lot going on, yet all I could think about was Sadie and Aspen. It’s like my mind has been invaded by thoughts of them. I can’t get my head to think about anything else. “Let me guess, you are thinking about Sadie,” Micah mumbles, sitting on the other side of my desk.

My friends had planned a birthday party for me at the club, and I was genuinely looking forward to it. The idea of dancing, laughing, and forgetting my worries for a night sounded perfect. Yet, no matter how much I tried to focus on the celebration ahead, my mind kept wandering back to him. The mysterious man. My supposed mate. His words from the message were etched into my thoughts, and the promise of discovering something important today had left me restless.

Just I was thinking something came across my mind. “Wait…"

I tried to relax, but my mind kept wandering. The tranquil environment made it impossible not to think about Lea. Her face kept flashing in my mind, and I couldn’t help but wonder how she was doing. I missed her more than I cared to admit, and moments like these only magnified that emptiness.That was the reason I never kept my mind empty. I always needed to be preoccupied.Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse, I was told there was a mix-up, and I needed to pass through another room to get to my next treatment. “Great,” I muttered under my breath as I was led to a door.

that's just what the fucking problem is. I don't want to have fun. Not anymore. I don't feel like my usual self and I haven't for some time now. Everything seems pointless. "...or is it that there's someone you can't get out of your mind?" I turn my head to fix him with a look. I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't catch a word he said before that sentence. "What?"

Only one thought echoed in my mind… What the hell kind of man have I tied myself to?