As Messed Up As Me Novels & Stories

Ace blankly whispered after a while of silence that he had been staring at Parker. The four gaped at Ace who looked sober while he mumbled. "I'm so messed up, a desperate idiot pacifying myself that I matter to him..." Ace chuckled bitterly and shook his head in frustration. "I should not ask for more... I should just wait for what he will give...I should not ask or he might dump me... Fuck... I'm so messed up" Ace continued to mumble to himself while the four are back to talking with their eyes when Ace spaced out again.

This made everything more complicated. I’m fucked now.

It's obvious I’m in a mess. “Yes… Sir.” I swallow the thick lump of saliva in my throat and bob my head like a moron. In shame, I reach for my filthy panties and pull it up my wet thighs. My fingers clutch too tightly to the messed-up fabric as I struggle to fit it around my ass.

Why do I always make a fool of myself? Oh me!! Screw me!!

"What do you mean messed up?" "I had an accident three years ago, Jenna," I said, my voice dropping into a rough, quiet tone. "The crash made me hit my head so hard that it wiped out huge chunks of my past. I lost months of memories around that time." She stood still, watching me silently as I tried to put the fragments into words.

“My heads a mess.” “What’s wrong?” I ask gently. “Since you called me you might as well use me to clear your thoughts, right?”

'YAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH' Yeah that's just me and just because I am in admin and I should act professional and bullshit does not mean I cannot lose my shit. 'Why the hell? How? This! Oh, God!' Yeah. Just a little me trying to get my shit together. 'Kavishuuuu!' I am heaving like a punk masturbating on the rainy winter night. My Beta came jogging up to me in a snap. He is guarded while I am anything but that. I am a fucking mess. 'What the freaking hell is wrong with this piece of shit here?' I point at my computer system which has crashed just now. It's a tragedy that I won't be able to come out ever again.

Her eyes were begging me to stay but I also need to go back. I looked at the sky not knowing what to do. It’s been a week since I went missing. Another 3 more days? Will it be alright? "I don’t know why I feel this way," she said as I looked at her. She was keeping on trying to try off her tears. "Why do I feel like I’m being ripped apart? Deep down I know you will eventually leave but why do I feel so heartbroken?" she said breaking my heart. She looked devastated. She looked so weak.

Lilian stared at the notification on her phone in disbelief. "No, you're not," I said. "I promised you, didn't I? You help me with this, and I'll make you rich. Now, you don't have to please another man just to get what you want." "Alaina, you're so kind to me, yet I treated you that way. I…" Lilian fell to her knees and began hitting herself. I pulled her up quickly. "It's alright. Just promise me you'll make better choices from now on, and I'll be happy for you. You can go home and build your dream house, just like you wanted."

For me. I sighed. What a mess.