As Messed Up As Me Novels & Stories

Zoey points out gently. I groan and put my head back in my hands. “I don’t know, okay? I honestly don’t know. Maybe I was in shock. Maybe I was confused. Maybe I temporarily lost my mind. All I know is that I fucked up big time, and now everything is even more complicated than before.”

Maverick was the one dealt the real injustice here. I released a harsh breath; my mind was spiralling. Spinning into the depths of my scattered torment. Can you believe that the biggest mess of a person that I had ever met was indeed myself, Now that was unfairness. “Pitiful disaster” I insulted myself, slipping out the bathroom and into the hall.

"See you like what, Zac?" "Like—like this!" I exasperated, shaking my head frantically. I was befuddled. "I'm—I'm a mess. You—I don't want you to see me like this, drunk out of my mind and having drank when you—when I know you don't like it." I ran a hand down my face, riling at myself.

Sass just exaggerated to try to make me feel bad. At least, that was what I told myself. ***

Everything and everyone around me, had been acting weirdly lately, especially bloody ME ! Gawwwddd. Please help me keep my sanity. I think I am gonna lose it any time now !! Hmfph !

I already messed up and fixing my mistake will cost me more than I thought it would. I didn’t mean to be a jerk to her. No, jerk is putting it too lightly. I was an ass. A whole fucking ass. I feel terrible about what I did and how I behaved. I am ashamed. I know she didn’t deserve my harsh treatment. I’m sure she thinks the worst of me now but I’m going to have to risk it. Alaska is more important for me at the moment. I look down at her now, torn between feeling angry and regretful. I messed up. Badly.

We came to a stop in the therapist office and we proceeded into the building and when we got to Miss Sarah's office I went in alone while mom and Rebecca went off somewhere else, Miss Sarah my therapist smiled when she saw me and walked closer to me. "Can I give you a hug ?". She asked and I shook my head and sat down. "I guess you are still the same as the last time we met". Miss Sarah said as she took her seat. "How are you feeling today Jessica?". She asked and I tried not to roll my eyes. I didn't want to be asked these silly and annoying questions. "Fine". I replied. "I heard about what happened, how is your injury, has it healed properly?". She asked.

I nodded. He asked, "What are you going to do?" I answered, "I don't know. All I know is I'm not going back." Andre turned to look at me, moonlight falling on his face. "Then don't go back." "Aren't you afraid of trouble? Cameron isn't an ordinary person." He smiled. "Hazel, I'm stubborn. Once I've made up my mind, I won't give up because of trouble." "What have you made up your mind about?"

Aiys was still waving his hand. "I love you Aiys," said Juna unconsciously. "What, Jun?" Aiys asked again to confirm his hearing. Aiys think there is something wrong with his hearing. Juna was embarrassed and immediately shook her hand and said goodbye to go to school. "Jun," aiys called. Juna was silent, he was ashamed that he had done something very fatal in his life. "Why could I act so crazy," he asked himself. Juna glanced beside him, it seemed that Aiys was sitting comfortably while focusing on the front.

I got up from the desk and finally announced my answer, "No. I got myself in this mess, I'll fix myself." "In that case, you will do it alone and—" XXX