Because It's My First Life Novels & Stories

Genesis My breath hitched in my chest as I stared at the strangers around me. What did that even mean? Life itself? I was nothing. Why would I be taught humility and self-hate my whole life only to be told by the very ones I was supposed to fear that I was life itself?

Born By Power Book 1 Chaos And Apocalypse Chapter 1 I thought I was living the life which seemed like a blessed crumb to a hungry bird, I thought I had it all, even though I had no father--I was grateful for all, until my mom died. Now it feels like I have nothing. At this moment if I am being told that Life behold no meaning, I'd comply and agree with the statement.

“But if I choose life, I will lose things.” “Yes.” “If I love someone, they might leave.” “Yes.” “If I live, I might hurt.” I swallowed. “Yes.” The child looked down at its hands. “Then why choose it?” I thought about the first time Kael had smiled at me. The first time Luna called me Mama. The arguments, the forgiveness, the ordinary mornings that had become precious because they weren't guaranteed. “Because pain isn't the only thing life gives you,” I said. I touched the child's shoulder.

Life. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to just exist. Not to survive. Not to endure. Just to exist. And for the first time, I let myself believe that maybe, just maybe, this could be my life. Not the running. Not the fear. Not the pain. Just this. Him. Us. It was a fragile hope. But it was real. And it was mine.

"Why does it have to be me?, why can't I just live a normal life like others?.. In my first life I was killed by my loved ones, and now history is about to repeat itself. Is there no other way out?” ‎The chamber trembled. Not from power. But from truth. ‎And the Goddess—For the first time—Did not answer immediately. ‎Because even she—Was no longer completely certain.

I felt all alone for the first time in my life. Once I got out, I was surely going to make whoever was behind this oh dearly with their lives for causing me so much pain.

Why… I want to know why… Because I am not really sure what the meaning is of living if life would just be like this… This is so unfair… And as I tried to wipe my tears, as soon as I did so, another batch would sill that spot. Hah… I think I am going crazy…

He pauses as a drop of tears slid down his cheeks. "At first, I thought there was no reason to live. I was patiently waiting for the day that I'll finally leave this world, but after I met you... I wanted to live so badly. I found every reason to want to live, I want to fight for my life, stay alive and make babies with you... I want to hold my kids in my arms and be a good father to them, but it seems like life will never give me that chance," He smiles as more tears pour down his cheeks.

She was about to speak when I beat her to it. “Before I knew that a life with you was possible, I was lost and had no will to live. But now that you’re with me, you’ve given me a reason to fight and live on. If I knew that all I needed is you to feel alive then I would have claimed you sooner. You’ve become my world. The very reason for my happiness. You’re my blood, my soul, my life. I used to ask myself why I was born. People called me an abomination. I thought the goddess made a mistake by bringing me to this earth. But it was only after I met you that I knew, I was born for you. To love you, cherish you, and make you happy. That’s my life’s mission.”

"As long as you get that it's only for you. Just now, when you thought I was going to throw up? That was because it all just hit me." "It?" "My life. Up until you. You've made me realize what I was missing. Before you, I was going through the motions day to day but not really living. I know this is new and we still have a lot to learn about each other, but for the first time in a long time, I want to try." "You do?" "Yes. You feeling anything like that?" "I am."