Fighting Back The Tears Novels & Stories

she ranted. "You know I can't do anything to stop him" I said "yes you can do something, you need to learn to fight back" she said. I sighed," if I fight back he'll just continue and make it worse for me" I said " at least just try, maybe just maybe he'll stop" she said calmly " but what if he doesn't? What then?" tears gathered up in my eye, I tried to blink them away.

My body shook, shook so much I brought my hand up over my mouth to hold the sob. It was hard, threatening to break me apart and I would not let that happen. The next tears dropped down, feeling them burn my skin before blinking everything back. I swallowed all the hurt, pushed down all the pain and just kept blinking it all back. The tears were wiped away, my body turning with my head held high.

His clothes were ripped, blood crusted along his side, scratches all over his chest. He took a step toward me. "Stop," I said, holding out my hand without thinking. "Just don’t. Stay back." He froze. And for the first time since I met his eyes, Kieran actually looked... hurt. Not physically. Not from the fight or whatever that had been. But in his eyes. It was like he was trying to keep his expression neutral, but I could see it—the way his jaw tensed, the flicker of something vulnerable in his face before he looked away.

, I said as tears were now rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably. His eyes widened in concern for a moment, before switching back to a frown. But I could see that he was fighting to keep them that way. “I'm sorry, I can't help you, get back–” I cut him off with my sudden wail. Tears rolled down my eyes in torrents, and they weren't crocodile tears.

Doing nothing. My chest burns, my eyes sting. Before I know it, tears slide hot down my face. I wipe them away quickly, angry at myself, at my weakness, but I can’t look away. I don’t even understand why it hurts this much. The woman doesn’t stop. The girl curls smaller on the ground, and the world stands still around her suffering. My feet begin to move, dragging toward her, as if some invisible thread is pulling me. Then I hear it. A boy’s cry, raw and desperate. “Lila!”

I pressed the heels of my hands on them and let out a harsh breath, fighting back the defiant tears. I guessed I hadn't moved on like I'd thought.

I ordered, and at the same time, I left for my bedroom, with my head held high. Hot tears burned at the back of my eyes. Hot tears of defeat. The fact that Nanisca had won hurt like hell. But I blinked the tears back, I wouldn't let them see my tears. Not now, not ever.

“I know. She's a fighter, much like her amazing daughter.” I rubbed my swollen eyes, assuming I must have looked terrible. “That ‘fighter’ spent a few hours crying,” I admitted. “I doubt it's a sign of my inner strength.” “We often use tears to cleanse ourselves, so we can keep moving forward,” he said, leaning toward me and tugging a rogue strand behind my ear. “When was the last time you cried?” I narrowed my eyes at him. “I bet you were still a child when that happened.”

There were worse things than this, and she’d do well to remember that. Tears threatened, but she stomped down on them pretty damn decisively. In her head, she chanted her new mantra, the one that she repeated pretty much constantly lately: No crying. No crying. No goddamn crying. With grim determination – and almost as a self-dare – she lined her dark-brown eyes with dark-brown eyeliner. She paused, narrowed her eyes at herself, liberally applied mascara. Two coats. Fuck crying.

I looked over to the opposite direction hoping he wouldn’t see that I was fighting with holding in my tears. “Look at me!” he said holding on to my face. I struggled not wanting to meet eyes with him, but still I couldn’t help it. The minute our eyes met, a tear dropped. He paused staring at me in a confused manner wondering why I was in tears. “Why are you doing this?” he asked holding on to ny hand. “Don’t do that!” he said, as he wiped of the single tear that rolled down ny cheeks. “I wouldn’t dare let them make a mockery of you” he said.