I Hope This Doesn't Awaken Anything In Me Novels & Stories

“Look—it’s her—” “She’s back—” “She’s here again—” “She saved us before—she’ll do it again—” Hope. Expectation. They’re looking at me like I’m going to do it again and call fire from the sky. No, like I’m about to unleash something powerful enough to end this in seconds and become the person I’m not anymore. I exhale sharply. If only they knew.

This is what we’re meant for. Maybe. Or maybe it is simply the fact that for the first time in as long as I can remember, I get to just... exist. No one is hovering, waiting for me to fall apart. No one is watching me like I am fragile or dangerous. Tonight, I don’t have to prove anything. I just get to be here. And weirdly, that almost overwhelms me more than anything else. I know I am going to sleep like the dead tonight. Not because I am wrecked or broken. But because I am full. Not of food. Of something better. Something I do not have a name for yet. Maybe it is peace. Or maybe it is hope. Either way, I will take it.

“That’s a new record, Bella.” Nothing. Just the sound of the machines i swallowed, my throat tightening. “I need you to wake up.” The words slipped out before I could stop them. “I don’t” I exhaled slowly, running a hand through my hair. “I don’t do this, Isabella. I don’t sit around waiting. I don’t hope.” But I was. I hoped for her to open those beautiful eyes, every minute, every fucking hour. “I made a mess of everything,” I continued, my voice lower now. “I know that. I know I hurt you. I know I”

He wouldn’t feel the need to walk on eggshells about sexual subjects. Fuck I’m broken. I honestly shouldn’t get involved with anyone until I can get past my own issues. No one should walk on eggshells for someone else. Even if Collin says, he’s okay with it. In the back of my mind, I’m so sure he’ll regret getting involved with me. But I shouldn’t leave him hanging, so I type out a reply. Pooling all my courage and pushing back that damn anxiety. I am not some meek girl. I sent the text, so I need to own it.

This woman has unlocked something in me, in my heart. My only prayer was I hoped it would wear off once our four months come to end.

I sighed. Now it was The hour. Grasne as one duck, — I he said The Kyle completely The serious. Deep down, I hoped that anything happened. If anything happened, life would be much less complicated. It would mean what to the things would come back to the normal It is I it could forget these last horrible months. But I already knew that hope was false. Because even deeper down, I knew Casimir was right. At the time in what opened my mouth, felt my vampire newly awakened person advance to the front of my consciousness, pushing against O interior of my skull.

“You don’t run from things like this. You stand in front of them.” I felt it then a flicker of something deep in my chest. Not power. Not pain. Hope. Just a little. Enough. My hand hovered over the cracked pendant. It didn’t move. It didn’t whisper. But I knew better now. It was waiting. So we would wait too. But this time, not as prey. As a warning.

i cannot read him at all . I feel like I have said something I shouldnot have said and the worst is about to come so soon to me now .

Soon enough, I'll wake up and find myself in my bed, throat raw and covered in sweat. Except, I know it to be a lie. The blisters on my feet and the raw terror in every beat of my heartknows it to be untrue. I take several turns agai, but not once does he take the bait like last time. He doesn’t stop, He doesn't slow.

Don't what tomorrow is going to bring for us. I don't know what I'm feeling. It's all different and new and I don't know. I just hope I'm doing right. I just hope I don't regret my decision. __________________________________________________________________________