I've Tried So Hard Novels & Stories

I was forcing them to change. Or break trying. And I was done caring.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

no matter what! Nobody is perfect and that’s where I always lose myself whenever I try to give us a chance but this time, I will try harder.

No matter how hard I tried to mount in the mud of misery, no matter how I keep on standing whenever I tumbles down, everything seems to shatter so easily in the end. Is it so hard to aim for happiness in this world? God knows I tried to be brave and strong to keep on fighting the battles but no matter how hard I strive, I still keep on losing and ending up being broken. I was not mean and didn't have ill intentions toward anyone. I never aggravated nor stepped on someone else's shoes, so why is this all happening to me? It's so unfair and I was so damn tired. It's like I wanna give up and just let life whatever strike on me. Maybe I was really born unlucky or maybe this is all I could ever

Nothing quieted it. I tried. God, I tried. I tried to swallow it all down. I tried to stay still. I tried to be quiet. I tried to be strong. But I couldn’t. Not this time. Because strength hadn’t saved me. And neither had he.

Not trying to kill me. But failing to finish the job.

"Are you okay?" "Yeah, just that I slept a little late yesterday." I was trying to fix some stuff at home. It was obvious from the way I looked that it was actually my heart that I wanted to fix, but unfortunately, it didn't work. It kept on shattering and bleeding at the end of each felt attempt.

I thought I had the strength to change my fate, but it seemed God wasn’t on my side. “At least we tried,” Jessy sighed, rubbing my back.

Still aching for things I couldn't let myself have. I was in so much trouble.

Trying to make it right. However long it took.

I try to say it with my eyes, try to push the words across the distance between us. I'm not worth it. But then again, I don't believe a single word of it.