My sexual Addiction
I felt invincible in a way I knew was dangerous, like if something happened, at least it would mean something.
Once, I caught my reflection in a shop window, scarf loose, hair wild, eyes ringed in shadows. I looked… untethered.
By Friday, the intrusive thoughts sharpened into flashbacks.
The heat of the club pressing against my skin. The way my knees had given just enough for him to notice. My own voice, low and reckless, asking for things I shouldn’t have wanted.
I wasn’t trying to remember them, my brain replayed them anyway, unspooling in high definition. A punishment, or maybe a test.