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His absence left me grappling with a range of emotions—uncertainty, a tinge of rejection, and an overwhelming desire for the return of what we once shared. I couldn't help but wish for his familiar presence, the chance to explain, or even just a hint of closure. However, the days dragged on, and his absence became a painful reminder of the unspoken and unfinished moments between us. In that silence, I couldn't help but feel a sense of longing and an ache for the connection that seemed lost and unresolved. I found myself yearning for the sound of his voice, the warmth of his touch, and the comfort of his company. The silent, unanswered longing intensified with each passing day, leaving me wit

Sometimes it’s just lying on a beach at dawn, skin raw from love, heart stripped clean, and nothing but silence to keep you company. I didn’t love her. I didn’t. But if I did, If I ever did, This is how it would feel to lose her. And I don’t know if I’ll survive it.

You were almost like a ticking time bomb, and when the time was up, I would be just another casualty. Yeah, it does hurt to know you lost interest in me, kind of like someone punching me in the face. And it also does pain me to walk pass you, pretending we never met and never stayed up all night talking, which feels like a knife through my chest every time. But what truly hurt most, so bad that I can't find the words to explain it, is that you left without a single word. I keep waiting for a sign or something from you, but i should accept that sometimes no message is also a message. .

“Not easy. But simple.” His eyes lifted to mine again. “You are very confident for someone who does not know what this feels like.” I held his gaze, “You are right. I do not know what it feels like to wake up without memories. But I do know what it feels like to lose something and convince yourself it is gone forever.” He studied me more closely now. “And?” he asked. “And sometimes,” I continued carefully, “we give up on things too early because the waiting hurts.” His jaw tightened slightly.

“It does.” She looked at me steadily. “If you are not ready to know… your dream will never show you.” I felt a chill run through me. “So I’ll never know?” Her expression softened slightly. “You will.” “But only when it becomes necessary.” My chest tightened painfully. “That’s not an answer.” “It is the only one I have.” Silence fell again. Heavy. Uncomfortable. Finally, I whispered, “Am I going to lose someone?” She hesitated. Then shook her head slowly.

No matter how hard I try its just didnt turn or become the colour I wanted. The time I lost the hole which was the last time holding on in my life what I loved the most. The world full of colours just were just colourless to me now. That I can never see them in my life ever again as there is no cure for that… The time we used to be together is listed now, we can never go back. The time I wanted you the most you weren't there. Why just why do you want me back? Just because the bed that used to be warm is cold now? Why do you even want me? When you have everyone by your side.

My offering you think, so it's not real. Why did it suddenly disappear? Your love for me, why don't you listen to my explanations? You said it's just gone because of guilt. Why do you always believe in others? Why dear? I can't admit that's because of my love. Now it has disappeared, feel this heart, your change. Is he the lucky one, is it not me.woh. Why did it suddenly disappear? Your love for me, why don't you listen to my explanations? You said it's just gone because of guilt. Why do you always believe in others?'

His heart was heavy and his eyes blurred with unshed tears. The chords of his heart were broken, his nights were sleepless. Yet he couldn't stop recalling the last look of panic and concern on her face. He should be happy that she felt something for him, but at what cost? On the verge of losing her... Whom I should ask, Amara? You are not here. Where do I search for your touches of laughter, this world is filled with silences. Where do I find happiness, Amara, when you are not here? I don't know how many times I have counted the differences in life. Why have dreams made a permanent residence in my eyes? That fate crumbles me in its hand without any reason. I don't know if you'll ever read th

Didn't sound right. “You really are in this thing with your Sub, huh?” Amusement dripped on her tone, causing my mind to flit to one person I so wished I could see right now. Even hold her and kiss her. Speaking of which, why the hell hasn’t she texted, or even called? And her phone was off. With a snap of a finger, the haunting heavy feeling came back crawling, slowly overtaking my subconscious and covering every inch of it. Uh-huh. So this was it. The sense of loss. It was her.

It's not like I don't want to join their party or whatsoever fun that they are catching but I just wasn't in the right mood. I feel lost, tired and confused. Does he have a reason to not meet me? Am I the only one that crave to see him again after a year and months? What exactly hold him back from coming? I plopped down on the bed, muttering words that I can't even hear. I can't believe all these are just for nothing. The one that made me embark on this competition isn't available. I wasted my time and energy. Leaving me with no choice and no hope.