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Where did I lack that I lost you once again? Because I did love you, with everything I had… I just wish you talked to me… But I wasn’t important enough…

I wondered why I didn't get punished or even fired. "I know you remember well when I said that my dream is disappearing because of you. It's true, because you're going to disappear, you, my dream. Because I knew the moment I told you that we were going to break up. You who will walk away from me. You are the one who holds my dream, it is your decision that can make my dream disappear... you will be gone from me. And I don't know when or if there is any hope that I can bring you back to me. If I can can I still reach you. Because of all my dreams, you are the hardest to reach. I had a hard time entering your life and I tried harder to enter your heart.... So it's not easy to do what I did to

“Serenity, you’ll never lose me. Not now, not ever.” “But I was afraid,” I admitted, the words tumbling out before I could stop them. “Afraid that if I let myself hope, if I let myself love her and you as much as I want to, it would all be ripped away again. I’ve lost so much already, Tay. I didn’t think I could survive losing you, too.”

A connection that transcended the boundaries of time and space. Yet, as the memories flowed, so did the bittersweet ache of loss. The pain of his absence, the haunting echoes of unanswered questions, and the relentless tug of regret for the moments left unshared. The darkness of my own shortcomings and missed opportunities cast a shadow over the purity of the love we had shared. A tear trickled down my cheek as I confronted these emotions, grappling with the complexity of my feelings. The woman’s voice resonated within me, a soothing presence amidst the turmoil. “Embrace your past, forgive yourself,” her words echoed, encouraging me to confront the pain headbon.

I didn’t want anyone else Not even a fleeting distraction. Not even a replacement for the emptiness. My chest tightened every time someone glanced at me with expectation or curiosity. My heart wasn’t available, hadn’t been since the day I lost him. Since the day I lost them both. I was just thirty, and already I felt like my best years were behind me

But that's all there is to it. Maybe, that's why you keep reminding me that destiny is for me to grow old. Learn from our past. And know that not all happy things will last forever. When you said you didn't want to, I didn't give up on you right away. I waited for days and months. I thought you might come back again. Maybe you'll realize it's still me and you'll talk to me about us again. I still hope that you will think that you cannot lose me. And I still ask you to remember our promises that you want us to fulfill together.

I hesitated for a second before opening it. I don’t know how you’re doing this, how you’re okay without me. Maybe you can teach me how, because I’m lost without you.

Pero bakit mo ako iniwan? Bakit tinapos mo na ang kwento nating hindi pa nasisimulan? Bakit hindi ka lumaban katulad ng paglabang ginagawa ko ngayon? I don't feel myself again. I'm back to red ink... that fast. I don't wanna live forever. ────────────────────────────────────────────────────

Until I can close my eyes without seeing masked figures stealing everything I care about. Do svidaniya, malysh, I whisper to the window, to the son who never got to breathe, to the woman whose face I'll never know but whose absence defines everything I've become. Tomorrow I'll figure out how to be human again. Tonight, I'll just try to survive the weight of everything I've lost.

“I'm not ready yet, maybe when I can prove something to you or my life will be fine first. I am afraid that someone will judge me or you because I am your girlfriend. It's okay that we're like this first, hiding what our relationship is. ” "Why?" he asked. I sighed and looked at the sky. “Maybe it's because I'm not okay yet. I feel like I’m still missing out on life, I want to get what I want first before they recognize me. You know, you're lucky because you still have a parent. If they were alive, would I be able to say such things about them? ” I couldn’t stop crying so I felt him hug me.