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I’ve always secretly wanted to be wanted. Messy.Mad. I want to haunt him. I still. What am I thinking? Who even am I? Oh Lord… please show me the way. Cause living like this is so hard. What have I done?

I can’t stand what’s happening right now. Life just seems…bleak. As depressing as that sounds, it’s the truth. I don’t see the point of going on anymore. I’ve lost it completely. I’ve ruined my life. That’s what I’m starting to realize. Or maybe my life has always been ruined and I only realized it now.

My skin felt like burning. The feeling of leeches sucking the blood!! I felt like a leech!! The guilty feeling eating me alive!! The truth sucked every ounce of my life!!! After mourning over my pathetic life I'm back on my foot!! Do you know that how much I wanted to live my life just like how much I wanted to die?? Just because of my parents mistake don't I deserve any happiness in my life??? It's my life!! I can't control the past that already happened!! But I can control the present and future!! I moulded myself to this life with dumping every trash that's thrown into my face by my family!!!

"This is huge and it's gonna turn our lives around for good. I don't wanna give up without trying at least." "But I really can't do this. It's so unsettling to think -" "You just complained about having to be called names at your coffee shop. You talked about your rent. Are those gonna pay for themselves?" "But I -" "Kiara trust me I know you don't want to live like this. This life is fucked big time and we've had just about enough. Let's be free for good."

Saka naman ang kapal ko naman. Andaming mas magaganda dyan sa akin. "Bagay pala sa'yo ang pale pink." "Huh?" Hahhaa. Oo nga ... nakaayos rin pala ako. "Anong pangarap mo Kiara." Napatitig ako sa kanya. "Pangarap ... bakit mo naitanong." "Para malaman ko kung may halaga ba ang buhay mo dito sa mundo." Nang marinig ko yun...

"This what you've always did right?" "This is what my mom taught me.. And this is why I'm alive right now. Life is tough Ave and every second person will try to bring you down..

I lay down in the small hut quietly while the fire burned in front of me to keep me warm, even though I felt like I had just gotten out from an ice lake. I thought about everything I have been through and everyone that I have lost in this life. Life is shit. Right now, I am alone in this wicked world, and life can never look the same to me anymore. Vain things like love, happiness, and a happy ever after don't appeal to me anymore.

Chapter 3: The Tribe of Picaresque I feel so alive, and free from my misery. Feel so bliss that no one can even describe. Life is really full of surprises, me and myself is the living evidence of it. In my decades of existence, I thought my life only revolve with me and my mess up life. I can't seem find the reason why do I even exist. I'm already 23, but I feel so lifeless. Some of people at my age, already enjoying and living the life they desire and aim for. Except maybe for me.I don't have anyone beside me. I can't even call someone as my family.

Sometimes, he feels like my whole fucking life. And, how can one not recognise life? How can one not live the life? How can I?

Without worrying about being killed! It is all my fault! If I was not just a very curious cat, all of this would not happen. And it makes me so angry. I just want to live a normal life. Why do I have to endure so much difficulties in this world? Why can't I have my peace? I want nothing but that. I am not even asking for anything at all. I am just a normal teenage girl who wants nothing but a better life. Is that too much to ask? Why is it so hard for me to have it? What did I do to suffer like this? Was I an evil person in my past life that is why God is punishing me for it? Did I wrong other people? No. I have never wronged anyone in my entire life!