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Like I'm standing in a life that suddenly no longer recognizes me. And right now? I have no solid reason why my life is falling apart like this.

I want to rip out my hair and scream at the unfairness of it all. What was ever the point of this life?

Why was my life such a mess? To be continued…!

Why am I acting like this? Something's wrong with me.

I want to take a rest. Tears keep flowing down to my cheeks, but I can’t even wipe it for my own and no one would do it for me too. I lost everything, there is nothing for me to keep living but why giving me another life to keep me fighting? Why for all this time, when I am ready to give up everything there is another life inside me? Another life who will experience the bitterness and sadness of reality. It is really hard for me to gain some peace life in this world? What did I do in my past life to have this kind of living right now?

How life changes in just a blink of eyes! How you have everything and suddenly the next moment you have nothing! How you're punished just because you're a middle-class woman with enough self-esteem to decide your life! How a single NO changes it all! I don't have a grudge against God. I don't have a grudge against life. I wanna live. I wanna live for those countless people who lose the motivation to live. Help me, Camden. Please help me out. I'll survive it. I'll not give up. I just need another reason to live.

she asked inquisitive, he wipes her tears “Because she’s a mother, Chinasa still deserve another chance. The only crime she commits was she was not living a good life; I don’t know her that too well but she’s not the family’s problem. That was the best way she believes she can live to survive” he cautioned, Kaiama melted, she felt guilty “I’m I. a bad person, for hating her?” she inquired “No, it’s good to express your pain, you don’t hate her, you’re just angry” he tact, she placed her head on his chest.

I shouted. "I want to leave this place! I want to live alone! I want to reach my dreams! I miss my Grandma, dad, and mom!" I shouted. "Why is my life like this?! I just want to live happily but why am I suffering?! Do I deserve to be hurt?! To suffer?! Do I deserve it all?!" I cried out loud and I couldn't stop crying.

this is what i want but im not happy as always Im kind of a person na hindi alam ang kaligayahan because hindi ko naman naranasan i know im heartless back then but this me ganito ako pinalaki at ganito din ako mabubuhay pathetic. They say na dapat daw tayong magpasalamat dahil na tamasa natin ang mundong meron tayo... na hindi na natamasa ng iba but me no. I want to disappear, i want just to die to like aling lucia now aling lucia dead hindi na siya masasaktan hindi na siya iiyak hindi na siya magdudusa, sana ako na lang sana siya na lang yong buhay kasi pag uwi niya may anak na kailangan niyang alagaan, na kailangan ng kalinga niya. Na kailangan siya while me hindi alam san lulugar hindi a

I hate this life. To be continued.