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I whispered, my voice breaking softly. The question echoed in the small space around me. “Why is my life like this?” Everything felt wrong. It's so fake, like I had never truly lived for myself. Only for others, for their expectations, their plans and their control. I closed my eyes tightly, pressing my hand against my mouth as another wave of emotion hit me. “I should have pushed him away…” Yes, I should have fought, should have resisted, and should have done something… Anything… But I did not.

How toxic my mind is. And the fact that It was all because of me and if it wasn’t me it would never have happened. Why is everything like this? Can I just die it why it should be the person who's important to me be affected like this, So many lives have been lost because of my negligence I have not even been able to save them. I know it is just a test but I can't really accept everything that's happening, it's so sudden it's shocking and It made me want to give up everything

Was I not simply hoping to share a wonderful life with the companion you had destined for me? Then why? Why is this suffering still happening? What did I do wrong? But again—no answer…

I weeped bitterly. Maybe I just don't deserve to live a life brewing of ecstasy. Where is life trying to push me to? Where are people in this life trying to end my life? I am tired God! I am fed up, of life!

I shouldn’t have used the money so that I’m not indebted to him. God. Is this all I have to suffer? I’ve been alone for like my whole life. What more would you want for my life to be? Am I a bad person? Did I do something from my previous life for me to suffer like this? I just want to graduate and make ends meet.

I relax my head on the floor and just allow tears escape by the sides of my eyes. This is beyond me. I do not even have the energy to cry anymore. My whole world has just crumbled. I seriously do not have a purpose in life. Life has just been so cruel to me. What is my crime in life? Is this a curse? All I want to do is be my own person and have a peaceful life. but even that is taken away from me.

Tomorrow is Monday again and I have no idea for how long I can take this kind of life. I can not change anything, and at this point, I do not want to.

I can barely remember my own life before I became like this. May mga kapatid ba ako? Maayos ba ang buhay namin noon? Naging mabuting anak ba ako sa kabila ng naaalala ko na isa akong malaking bully? Saan ba ako noon nakatira? Anong pinagkakaabalahan ko noong mga panahong normal pa ako? Wala na akong maalala. Remnants..

Dark and bland. I gazed at it for a long time, laughing in my head as I realized how similar it was to my life right now. My life is currently dark, plain bland, dull, and meaningless. I'm not sure if I still have a life purpose. I'm not even sure whether I can still call my life a life. I chose one of them and nibbled on it. I picked one from them and munched on it. Gigi went over to me and tapped me on my shoulder. “Are you fine?” in a worried tone, she asked.

It's impossible, how can one live like this? "It's just a day, Davinia. You won't die" I can't do this.