Left Them, Loved Myself Mga Nobela at Kwento

You made me feel your love for me by giving me your love baby but I only felt your love when you left me, love. I'm bad, right baby that I'm telling you that I only felt your love when you left me even after you spent years with me. But trust me when I say that was the time when I felt your love strongly. Yes, love even though I was thinking that I was taking revenge on you, I was feeling your love but my ego was big that time baby, and that hid your love for me but more than that it hid my love for you, baby. Yeah, baby, I didn't only feel your love but also realized my love for you, baby.

I start remember every word I wrote in the letter as I sat in the plane with mom and sister. 'Dearest one, thank you for loving me. This summer was the best I have had in my entire life,thank you for that. Sadly things ended on a sad note but what happened made me realize that I need to focus on myself. That is what I'm going to do now,I'm going make myself a better person, start loving myself more. Loving you was the best thing for me, but you didn't feel the same way because there was someone BEFORE ME ,who was your true love, your lucky star.

"Babe, please! I swear to god, I didn't kiss her back! I love you, babe. Please, don't leave me... I love you..." Even though my heart wants to forgive him badly, I refused to follow it. I would never let a man hurt me twice, once is enough. I cherish myself more than anyone because no one would do so. I only have myself, myself is enough. Loving myself is more worth it than loving a gluttony man for sex.

Now, back in the warm embrace of my true family, I learned what love really meant. For the first time, I realized that the love I had forced by kneeling and begging for all those years, was so heavy that it nearly broke my back. Love was, in reality, as light as air. I was the one who had given it all the weight, convinced it was everything I had in life. In the hospital room, despite the doctor’s stern warnings to stay still, Damian struggled upright. He staggered toward me and grabbed my wrist in a death grip, refusing to let go.

I wanted to be in my own home, bath in my own bathroom and eat food cooked in our own kitchen by our own chefs. " I have to go and finish up on some work that has come up before you guys get home. Will you be okay by yourself here ? " It was sad I would be left here by myself but I knew he had no choice, " of course I will. " I tried to sound jolly I did not want him worrying about me when he had to work for us. " I love you " " I love you too " he kissed me on the forehead and left.

He moved his hand ahead to catch me if I fall. But I continued to step back I didn't need safety. I managed all these years without it. I don't need it now. I can't trust anyone except myself. I can't love anyone except myself. With each thought, I continued to step farther away from him. Away from the man who could show me daydreams in my world of nightmares.

The drifting jacket looked exactly like a final farewell from someone who had fallen into the sea. “Goodbye,” I whispered to the foolish version of myself who once loved them so deeply. Leaving the bridge behind, I got into a taxi. “To the airport.” From now on, I will keep all my love for myself.

I went back to my room and took a glass of water from the table. Suddenly a note fell on the ground. I open the letter and read it. ___________________________________________________ My love, my Xander..but my can't be use anymore..because you were never meant to be mine. Loving you is not hard for me but leaving you is the hardest part. It shatters my heart to say goodbye to you but I have to do it not for you but for myself. I want to find myself, my identity that you should be proud of. I can't pretend that I don't love you because if I say I am lying to myself. You are too easy to be loved by someone but that person is not me.

I could have but in the end, my mind always chooses to trust him even after he left me under the boat. But then, this little encounter of us gave me hope that I'm still not losing him. I gave him a peck on the lips before leaving him behind. You need to figure things out Seth. You have to because one thing I learned from all this drama that we've gotten to, is that I need to Love myself. Yes, a girl needs to Love herself.

We as humans, sometimes invest so much into things and people that we forget to take care of ourselves as if and hold no importance and are all a waste of time. Self-love is a term that gets lost somewhere between I love you and hate you. And hence today when I woke up early, I sneaked out of the beach house that we are living in, located at a private beach. With my snickers in my hand, I dashed toward the exit and found myself on a beach enjoying the beautiful sunrise. Something that brought solace into my being and then I decided to have this day for myself. I left everything behind, didn't care that the man I uttered loved you, left me although uttering a single, and never came back