Show Yourself Novels & Stories

I put my mental wall up which I had been practising with my mother throughout the years. “I’ll be right back” I run of towards to the bathrooms and yep.. I vomitted. Typical. I go somewhere new and the first thing I do is vomit. This is not how I planned for this to go. I walk out of the bathroom stall and wash my face with cold water. I walk back out and see Elder Michael has our bags on a trolley and we are able to leave. “All good?” He asks, showing some genuine concern for how I’m feeling.

I’m ready. And I don’t hide anymore.

“They won’t be able to hear you over the noise unless you believe your own voice louder.” He nods. “I do.” “Good.” I step back. “Then go show them.”

It felt like we were being held in place long enough to say what mattered. I took a breath, steadying myself before speaking. “I choose you,” I said. My voice did not shake. “I chose you, knowing exactly who you are,” I continued. “Not the version you show the world, but the one that stands here with me.” He did not look away. “I choose you because you do not hide behind control anymore,” I said. “You let yourself be seen, even when it is uncomfortable.” I stepped closer. “I will not disappear into you,” I said. “I will not lose who I am to make this easier.”

It wasn't a fight; it was a Synchronization. "I am the only one who can hold you without breaking," she challenged. "Prove you're an Alpha. Prove you can handle the woman who carries your soul."

Dad nods his permission for me to leave now. Nodding back at the two in front of me I smile as bright as I can. If they're going to make an honest gesture to become my friend, then so will I. "Yeah, give me five minutes and meet me by," I stop mid-sentence because I have no idea if either of them have a truck to put my chair in the back of.

Not a single actual word came out of his mouth. “I know you’re busy, so I’ll show myself out now. Please consider this proposal. Even if you don’t accept, if you can suggest a few things that would improve it, I would deeply appreciate it.” She clasped her hands together as she slightly bowed while walking backwards towards the door.

“Get me out of here, now! If you can’t show yourself, then—” My words get cut with a laugh. Deep and gravelly, but at the same time mirthless. “I don’t have to show myself. You know me. You know me better than anyone. The truth is, I was the one who raised you. I was the one who made you into what you are. All you need to do is look… deep.”

SADIE. I glance at the mirror one more time, ensuring my eyes are not giving me away anymore, and draw in a deep breath. I stretch my fingers and nod repeatedly. “Fake it till you make it, Siyah. One thing you have always done is pick yourself up at all times. This is just a minor setback you can overcome!” I murmur and turn away.