Staring Into My Soul Novels & Stories

He mouthed those words and instantly, they all started rushing out, not wasting a single second. Amidst all these things, he did not break his stare on me. He looked at me as though he stared into my soul, making me turn into a volcano. I couldn't breathe, I just couldn't when those eyes were on me. Slowly, he neared me, taking his precious time to allure me, hypnotizing, and drowning me in the depths of his soul.

We complete each other, yet we are incomplete. Our journey has been the most beautiful one, yet it’s our most painful loss to each other. I love your soul and all that completes you. You always said, “Your scars are my scars”, but your tears and pain are all mine. All of me is all of you. Although we cannot be there for each other, I promise to remember every word, every feeling, and every smile of yours.

With strong shoulders, closing Celeste. He looked at his reflection in the broken piece of mirror that hung over the sink. Perhaps the beautiful face could still be brighter than the sun and the moon, but the truth was slowly distorting those lines, turning him into a new man. Embraced by the memories, Adelard fell further back. The sensation of a sharp knife in his back, just below his right shoulder blade, was intense, all too real, something that broke the whole notion of imagination. "Why?" he whispered. "Why did you do that?"

It still hurt terribly, and when I took a breath, I sounded like Darth Vader due to my lung having a hole, but I stopped feeling like my soul is trying to leave my body. ''Who are you?'' I asked with a gurgling voice when someone unimaginable filled my eyesight. A young woman was standing above me with a slight smile on her face but seriousness in her onyx eyes. It wasn't her presence that shocked me. It was her close resemblance to me. Actually, including few things such as her eyes and freckles, she was like my long-lost twin.

His eyes flew open, burning straight into mine. I froze, feeling as if my soul had just been torn from my body. What the….

the word is a gasp against my lips. "I think that I need someone to see," I whisper in realization. Finally turning, I look at her, my fists loosening, until my fingers simply hang loose. Her warm gaze collides with mine. Deep inside she does what I've always feared from the moment I commanded her to. She sees. My soul, as if through a window. Read front to back like an open book. To the very depth, the darkness but also the worst sorrow and all the unbearable loneliness. I know that it is deep and most cannot carry and this why they choose to look away.

Everything I watch is blur. “Why am I crying why?” I question myself, wiping out my tears with my sleeves. Now I can clearly see the stars and everything which was getting blur a few moments ago. “I don’t need to cry.” “I’m damn strong.” I take a deep breath and still staring at the stars which are shinning and looking beautiful but who the hell cares about their beauty here. I’m just staring at them, not focusing on them. My mind isn’t here, my soul is also not here. Only my body is here which is out of my control.

Soul-shattering. I scream her name, but it’s swallowed by the void. My hands reach for her again, but it’s like trying to grasp smoke. Falling to my knees, broken, watching her fade, the pleading look in her eyes burning into my soul. It’s unbearable. I can’t save her. I never can.

The last thing I want is to have a struggle with myself when everyone else is already hating on me. "Look at me," she said, and I did as she said, staring into her soulless eyes. I saw a reflection of myself in her grey eyeballs and quickly diverted my gaze; there is nothing I despise more than mirrors, which serve as a continual reminder of who I once was.

Getting up I walk downstairs, Marcus's eyes on me as I grab food, sitting down, I watch the kids playing. I know I have lost myself. I feel like my body is walking around, moving and soulless. Like my soul has given up early and left me here alone to battle this. How do I fight a battle without my soul? With a heart that is broken and no longer whole? I am lost. I am all the way down, falling through the surface causing an earthquake inside me as I keep falling, crashing further down. I'm going left and right, trying to find my way back, but I can't seem to. I can feel love around me, but then it is plagued with darkness.