Novel & Cerita Summary Of If He Had Been With Me

There was something in his tone that made my heart race. Not fear. Not uncertainty. But anticipation. The kind that settled deep in my chest and refused to leave. I hesitated for only a second before nodding. Because no matter how broken I felt moments ago… When I was with him… Everything else seemed to fade. And as he led me out of the room, his hand wrapped securely around mine, I realized something. Maybe I wasn’t as lost as I thought. Maybe… I was exactly where I was meant to be. And whatever came next… I would face it. With him.

He was stubborn enough to come with me, but what was wrong with me? Why did I permit him to come with us? He was a normal human. I ignored the danger of a normal human being in a war. I thought I would protect him. I was overconfident. I was so careless to bring my bestie here with me. I am sorry, Daniel—I couldn't protect you. Why would you risk your life for me? The moment I found you dead, my heart ached. The moments with him started rolling in front of my eyes. The day I met him in college, he was an entertainer.

I shout back at him. “Would you have?” "‘Would I have' what?” “Gone back if you had not recognized the bond with him? Would you have come back to me?” I pause for a moment, trying to figure out how to tell him the truth. Tell him that there is no doubt in my mind that I would have chosen Wade even if he hadn't been my second chance mate. That Wade makes me a better person, that what we have transcends the mate bond. We have a love that was established before we knew we were destined for each other and that even if our destinies had been another path I would have altered mine to be with Wade.

He said and walked away, leaving the house. ——End of flashback—— “So thats what started it. One day I saw him in the bar we met up at. That was like a day after he came to my place. That was the moment I knew I was damned.” Ife said. There were some things that were not adding up with her story. “Why didn’t you just go ahead and tell me about the abortion as I wasn’t going to bat an eyelid.” I said. I really wasn’t. At this point with Ama I didn’t think there was anything that had the power to break us apart.

Yet as I felt my consciousness slipping away from me, I could not help but think about how I met him. If only I had known, if only I had missed the blind date. If only I had not met him, then I would not be here today. I would have probably been in my house, resting on my warm bed with no care for anyone obsessing over me. But it was too late now. What was done was done. I was too far gone down the path and I did not think that anyone could save me again. As my eyes began to close completely, the same thought came back to my head again. Why did I go for the blind date?

“Flight lands at eight. The cars will pick them up. They’ll be here around nine, maybe nine-thirty.” I hesitate. He rubs my arm slowly. “You have time.” I let out a shaky breath… and finally relax into him. His warmth. His steadiness. God… this man. “This is the life I should’ve had from the beginning,” I whisper without thinking. He goes still for a second. “What do you mean?” I swallow, staring ahead. “I mean… I don’t regret my girls. Never. They’re some of the best things that ever happened to me.” My voice softens. “But if I had met you sooner… if I had been with you back then…”

He mouthed, Thank you, and I returned the smile, but it felt like a fragile thread between us—so thin it might snap any moment. I wondered, sometimes, if things had been different. If mom hadn’t gotten sick, if I hadn’t dropped out of school, if I hadn’t stayed up late talking to random people online—would I still have met him? At another time, under another set of circumstances, would I have fallen this hard? Would the first moments of him entering my life still feel like magic? Or would I have walked past him, oblivious to the life-changing gravity he carried with him? I remembered our last conversation after I returned from Switzerland. I had heard from Jarred that Hade got engaged, that

Before that, he had carried me on his back across two blocks and vowed to stay by my side as long as we lived. I'd once believed we would be together forever. But Gianna gradually stole his tenderness and ground away his patience toward me. In the end, the very man who once fought with everything he had to protect me forgot the one thing he should never have forgotten about me. I closed my eyes, and the desperate video call from the future came to my mind again. There I was in the basement, hollow-eyed and in despair, begging myself to run. I often found myself wondering what would've happened to me if I hadn't left back then and just kept walking the path I was on.

These plans were the best. I can remember that day when we met by chance. Those days when I hated him for his behaviour. When everyone told me that he was my mate. I really thought that they were joking. Why would I accept someone this loose? That is what I had thought. But now I am glad I didn't give up on him and he didn't give up on me. I started gaining everything after getting together with him.

He glanced at his watch while talking, then resumed his gaze back on the road. I don’t think he has seen the footages of us on the internet, if he has there’s a fifty percent chance he’d be fighting with me right now or he just doesn’t care. “I never abandoned you,” I told him the same phrase I’ve uttered more times than I could recall. “I don’t know why you’d ever think that I would.” He knows I love him, he was my best friend before I developed romantic feelings for him. He was my gay awakening.