Novel & Cerita Summary Of If He Had Been With Me

Haden "Haden!" Bailey hisses as soon as she sees me. She scuttles out of the crowd of people she's sitting with and runs towards me. When we collide, it feels like everything is at least mildly right in the world. Half of the worry and weight on my shoulders vanish as I breathe in her scent. There was a time when I thought that I would never have something like this for myself. That I was meant to be alone, that my mate was somewhere far away from me or already dead.

He glanced at his watch while talking, then resumed his gaze back on the road. I don’t think he has seen the footages of us on the internet, if he has there’s a fifty percent chance he’d be fighting with me right now or he just doesn’t care. “I never abandoned you,” I told him the same phrase I’ve uttered more times than I could recall. “I don’t know why you’d ever think that I would.” He knows I love him, he was my best friend before I developed romantic feelings for him. He was my gay awakening.

I had faced a lot of hardships but meeting him was my greatest stroke of luck. The End.

He did what he did because he felt he had no other choice but to push me away. If he hadn't done that, I wouldn't have experienced everything I have now. It's all because of him. He pushed me to become the best version of myself. And right now, I am happy to be with him, beside him. I've never felt this content and comfortable with anyone else but him.

I've never been more happy with a guy but he's just found a way into my heart and to be honest I'm glad that we met. We had a lot of talks and gist, it was really nice and he told me more about his life and how difficult it was growing up without a father. I felt pity for him because I knew exactly how that was and it was like we were from the same world and for a minute I wished that I had been mated to him from the start then maybe I wouldn't be in so much mess like I am now and maybe I would have had my happily ever after but the deed was already done and it was too late to say ' had I known ' but it wasn't too late to start all over again.

I wished he knew that no one could have said anything that would make me turn against him. But I did remember that night, I knew it was important for me to stop him from going. I knew if I let him leave then something was going to change and it did. Today, I have a mate who hates me with a passion because of what he did to him. If he had listened, then none of this would be happening.

“I literally chased you the whole time. Even now, it feels like I’m forcing you to be by my side and any day now you will walk away.” “What the hell...” I paused, taking a step back. “I chose to be with you even when it could have gotten me killed, still could get me killed. I have a fucking timer in my head and would’ve saved myself time and gotten the Rosetta if I had just stuck to the bloody plan!” “So you regret being with me?” His brows knotted, eyes hurt, and I cursed, turning my back to him. We were doing it again. We were fucking doing this again.

Another reason why I wouldn't have him. I could feel it, that sour taste as it spread in my mouth. Another constant reminder that I was back to where I had begun, where I wouldn't have him. There wasn't going to be a chance. There never had and would never be. “ Since he was little" My shoulders slumped forward gently as the futility hit me. It was gone. All I should be focused on should be running away and not having his heart. “But if indeed you are his mate, there has to be a way” A glimmer of hope shone on me. I edged closer to her. To listen to what she had to say.

I push forward, I need to finish what I came to say. “It was so easy, not because I didn't want to be yours, but because I already was yours. I've been yours completely, even before we ever met, I knew I could never be with anyone else. I just wasn't ready to accept that, to trust in something, someone other than fate. The night of the party, I never meant for it to be all or nothing, it was just... not yet.” I still can't look up, I don't notice Bellamy moving until I feel his hand on my shoulder. His other hand moves to my chin and I'm forced to look up at him. His face has softened. The anger has faded, and his expression is... hopeful.

What if he realized that I was not the mate he deserved? Doubt crept into my mind, my palms becoming clammy “Hey, let go of all those doubts from your mind” “How did you know…?” I asked Heather in confusion as she turned me around to look at her “You forget that I know you enough to know what you are thinking and when you are having doubts at a time like this” I gave her a little smile. I doubt I would have been able to make it to this point without Heather; she was my everything, my strength, my stronghold; without her, I would probably still be that weak girl crying over Jackson.