Things I Wanted To Say But Never Did

Who pulls the trigger with their eyes closed? Perhaps someone as crazy as me. That was in beginning of my trouble. The look in Dante's eyes sent chills down my spine, I wanted him to look at me differently, but in his eyes I could see that he wanted nothing more than for my blood to be spilled, the darkness in his eyes seemed untamable, but not for me, I was going to tame that darkness even if it was the last thing I do. Soon he would only have love for me in his eyes, soon.

A car accident leaves me unconscious for a full three years. When I wake up, my family bursts into tears of joy. They care for me with the utmost attention. But from their behavior, I sense something is wrong. There are women's clothes in the house that don't fit me. My mother's shopping cart is filled with mysterious baby items. My father's friends send congratulatory messages about a new child, and my husband is always working overtime. When my husband once again leaves me alone under the pretext that there is something urgent at the company, I secretly follow him. Inside a warmly decorated house, my parents and husband sit around a table. A woman who looks almost exactly like me is holding a baby just a few months old, gently coaxing the child to call my husband "Daddy".

“Richard, if Lynn and I were hit by a car at the same time, who would you save first?” I once asked, curled up in his arms, teasing like a spoiled pup. He just scoffed, ruffling my hair. “That kind of situation doesn’t exist.” But when blinding headlights tore through the rain— He didn’t hesitate. He shielded Lynn in his embrace, and I was thrown into the blood-soaked street. Through the agony, I heard my phone buzz. A message from him: [What tantrum are you throwing now? Why didn’t you come to Moonstone today?] While the machines beeped beside me, I caught the sound of his gentle voice drifting from the next room—comforting her. “Don’t be afraid. I just reacted to the person closest to me.” That was the moment I wiped away bloody tears with a smile. Fine, Richard. Then you’ll watch with your own eyes—ten days from now, when I put on a wedding dress, it won’t be for you. It’ll be for your sworn enemy, the Alpha of Bloodmoon. On the eve of the ceremony, a helicopter thundered down onto the estate balcony. He kicked open my door, yanked my wrist with his tie. “Come with me.”

Sa loob ng pitong taon ng kanilang pagsasama, nananatili si Benedict na malamig sa kaniyang asawa habang si Mikaela naman ay patuloy pa rin sa pagsisilbi rito bilang isang mabuting asawa. Umaasa kasi siyang isang araw ay matututunan din siyang mahalin ni Benedict ngunit hindi niya inakala na ang pagmamahal nito at pag-aalaga ay ibubuhos lang din pala nito sa ibang babae. Gayunpaman nanatili siyang matatag sa kanilang pagsasama. Hanggang sa araw ng kaniyang kaarawan, lumipad siya mula Pilipinas patungong Amerika upang makasama ang kaniyang mag-ama ngunit sinama ni Benedict ang kanilang anak upang makasama ang babae nito habang siya ay naiwan nag-iisa sa apat na sulok ng kaniyang silid. Pagod na siya kaya nagpasya na siyang isuko ang lahat lalo na sa tuwing nakikita niya ang kaniyang anak na mas gusto at mas masaya pa ang babaeng iyon na maging ina nito kaysa sa kaniya na tunay nitong ina. Masakit para kay Mikaela ang lahat ng iyon kaya naman nagpasya na siyang ibigay ang divorce agreement kay Benedict kasama ang kostodiya at bumalik ng Pilipinas nang walang paalam. Mula noon, hindi na pinansin ni Mikaela ang kaniyang mag-ama habang hinihintay na lang ang divorce certificate nilang mag-asawa. Iniwan niya ang kaniyang pamilya at muling itinaguyod ang kaniyang career. Siya na noon ay inaalipusta ng lahat ay nagawa nang kumita ngayon ng bilyon. Sa kabilang banda, sa tagal ng kaniyang paghihintay, bigo siyang makuha ang divorce certificate na hinihintay niya gayundin ang taong matagal siyang iniwasan at ayaw na ayaw umuwi ng Pilipinas ay madalas niyang nakikitang umuuwi sa piling niya. Bukod pa roon bigla itong nagbago at mas naging malapit sa kaniya. Nang malaman nito na nakikipaghiwalay na siya, kinorner siya ng dating tahimik at walang pakialam na asawa at sinabi, "Divorce? impossible."

This isn't your typical Cinderella or damsel in distress tale. Briella served as the CEO of Star Airlines. Beautiful, successful, and badass. Despite her wealth, her parents never loved her as much as they did Sage, her step-sister. Sage wasn't particularly bright. She spent her parents' money and manipulated them to get what she wanted, but she was still the most loved. Sage was engaged to be married to a business tycoon with operations all over the world. A day before the wedding, she changed her mind. Why? She didn't want to marry him because she had found someone better. Briella had to step in and be the bride because their parents and Kendrick's parents refused to cancel the wedding. Was she willing to spend her life with someone she'd never met? When Kendrick's wife loses her memories of him, the tables are turned. Will his efforts be fruitful?

A young black girl with silver/white hair, who was raised by her loving mother until the age of 12 has been thrusted into the world of werewolves on the account of her father being an alpha wolf. He only finds out about his daughter once her mother dies, but the strangest thing is, she has no wolf. She smells human, but she's definitely his. The alpha brought her to live with him, and during that time, they both discovered things about themselves that they had no idea even existed. She was never just "human," and his "mate" was never his to begin with. This human girl was, in fact, a long, foretold gift to the wovles and a destructive force on those who waged war on good.

Alyssa, a young chef, lives in New York City, where she meets Damon, while jogging in the park. Their connection is instant, but fate seems to conspire against them, and they part ways, each thinking they'll never see each other again. However, their paths cross again at a party for the anniversary of her father and his wife , where Damon mistakes Alyssa for someone else, while having a passionate kiss with her. As the truth comes to light, Alyssa discovers Damon's true identity: her stepbrother. As they go through this complicated reality, Alyssa and Damon must confront their feelings for each other. But Damon harbors dark secrets tied to his mafia dealings, which threaten to tear them apart. Will he find a way to open up to Alyssa, or will their love remain hidden in secrecy?

“I, Nikolai Ashwood, the future Lycan King of the Bloodmoon pack, reject you Lilliana Ayers as my mate and future Luna.” He affirmed, his eyes bloodshot with anger as they pierced through me. I could feel the heart wrenching pain from the rejection, especially since he’s an alpha and my body threatened to break. “But if you think for once that I’ll ever let you go, then you’re severely mistaken.” He growled through gritted teeth, his hands wrapped around my neck and depriving me of air. ————————————— Lilliana Ayers, an omega maid of the bloodmoon pack, never imagined that her life would change on her 18th birthday. Little did she know that she was fated to be the mate of the Lycan prince, the soon to be King and the cruelest of all alphas. She wasn’t expecting him to accept her as his mate so the rejection wasn’t shocking to her, what was most shocking was the fact that he refuses to let her go, defying all expectations! Nikolai Ashwood, The future Lycan King of the pack already knew Lilliana was his mate from the day he turned 18 but how was he, the future king, going to accept a mere maid as his mate?! It’s unheard of but something about Lilliana was exciting to Nikolai and he doesn’t want to let her go, at-least not just yet. Staying in the Bloodmoon pack, Lilliana had no other choice than to obey the wishes of Nikolai Ashwood. What happens when the obsessive and cruel Lycan king gives in to the scorching attraction? Will Lilliana accept the man who rejected her back?

During the eight years I spent by Alpha David’s side, I also raised the pup he had with my late sister. At his birthday banquet, I accidentally wore one of her old dresses. Eight-year-old Dorian grabbed a pot of freshly brewed coffee and poured it over me— right in front of the maids. The scalding liquid burned my skin, and when I looked up, I saw the same cold disgust in his eyes that I’d seen so many times in his father’s. “How dare you wear my mother’s dress?” he sneered. “You’ll never replace her. You killed her with that wicked heart of yours!” The coffee seared more than my flesh. It burned straight through my heart. I looked at the child I’d raised for eight long years. I didn’t feel angry. I didn’t even feel sad. Only a quiet kind of exhaustion. “Don’t worry,” I whispered. “I’ll leave tomorrow.”

(COCOK UNTUK PEMBACA YANG MAU MENYAKITI DIRI. CERITA SEDIH, MENGURAS EMOSI JIWA RAGA!) Memilikinya tabu bagiku, mencintai dirinya membuatku semakin terluka dalam. Aku tidak akan pernah menjadi miliknya, karena sebuah kenyataan sial yang menimpa hidupku!